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Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Winter Soldier, hanging/strangulation

(Anonymous) 2015-07-24 05:01 am (UTC)(link)
So are any of ya'll familiar with that scene in "Illsa She Wolf of the SS" where the officers are having a dinner and they have a prisoner in a noose, tied up on the table and balancing on a block of ice. And she slowly strangles during the dinner. And they just like, ignore her the whole time.

Um anyways that is a thing.

After a failed mission, one of the Hydra higher ups decides to test the limits of the Winter Soldier. Ties him up, strings him up, has a Hydra dinner party, and watches.

Like obviously he can't let the Winter Soldier really die, but he's not gonna tell the Winter Soldier that. And there's just enough awareness in the Winter Soldier at this point to be afraid, just a little, and squirm.

+Fear/asphyxiation induced erection a huge bonus.
++Hydra officers taking advantage of said erection an even bigger bonus.
+++Actual suspension for a few minutes the biggest bonus of them all.

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Hello, kink I never knew I had.

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I just need Bucky's bleeding asshole, really.

(Anonymous) 2015-07-25 01:09 pm (UTC)(link)
My needs are simple. I need bleeding, raw, hurting buttholes. Preferably Bucky's.

What if Bucky, over the years, has been raped so often and so brutally and without preparation, that despite the serum, his asshole is so scarred and damaged he'll bleed every time he's penetrated.

Hydra doesn't care, even finds it amusing, and just keeps on happily raping.

This has been happening for years now, so he basically thinks it's normal that penetration is bloody and painful.

I'll love you forever if you write both some of the original abuse and then aftermath h/c with Steve.

Bonus points if the first time he (consensually) sleeps with Steve poor Cap is horrified, but Bucky doesn't get what the big deal is.

Extra bonus if Bucky either doesn't want it surgically fixed (because all the trauma related to him being operated on), or the doctors can't really fix it, so that basically sex will mean Bucky being in pain and bleeding at least somewhat, even if both parties want it very badly.

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This sounds really good, but you know I have to ask if he bleeds when he goes to the bathroom.

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Steve, trash aftermath

(Anonymous) 2015-07-25 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Just... something with Steve getting raped and not being able to admit it to anyone. He'd rather deal with getting ribbed or snapped at for inexplicable erratic behavior than risk the other Avengers thinking less of him, he doesn't want anyone's pity, and besides, he should be able to deal with it on his own, right? It would destroy team cohesion for them to find out something like that about their leader. He has no right to lay that burden on anyone else. It's not their business and it would be way TMI. Etc etc etc.

+++ Natasha figures it out. She hesitates before confronting him about it, since warm and fuzzy comfort isn't exactly one of her areas of expertise, but just acknowledging it to someone and not having them laugh in his face makes Steve practically collapse in relief.

Aftermath minifill, Steve&Natasha h/c

(Anonymous) 2015-07-27 11:44 am (UTC)(link)
Natasha doesn't figure it out until their mission in Mogadishu goes tits-up because Steve can't get a grip on his anger management issues. Or, to be specific: she doesn't figure it out until after the debrief, when Tony, who probably is trying to be helpful under his usual layer of charming asshole, tells Steve he needs to loosen up and get laid.

"Seriously," Tony says, "I know so many people who'd jump at the chance to pull that stick out of your ass. Hit me up."

Steve looks up at Tony, his face starting to heat up, and when he responds it's in that strained voice that means he's barely suppressing the need to punch something. "Trust me," he says through gritted teeth, "needing to get laid is not my problem right now," and Natasha feels the entire situation click into place with a certainty that's like lead in her gut.

She fixes her expression into something wry and teasing. "Good luck," she tells Tony lightly. "I spent a year trying to get him a date back at SHIELD. Pushing just makes him dig his heels in."

Tony spreads his hands. "Just saying, Cap. It won't be my fault if you die a virgin."

Steve slams his drink down on the bar and leaves the room.

Natasha gives him a polite head start before she goes looking for him. The training room isn't the first place she tries, but she's not surprised that that's where she finds him. He's beating the crap out of one of Tony's improved punching bags, bare-knuckled, his hair dark gold and sticking wetly to his face. At first she thinks he's worked up a sweat already, but his white undershirt is still dry. When she opens the door, she catches a whiff of the locker-room soap. He must've hit the showers first.

"You should wrap your knuckles," she says by way of greeting. "We could have another mission tomorrow."

Steve pauses, breathing hard through his nose, dukes still up like he's covering himself. "I heal fast," he says. There's a bitter undertone to his voice.

Physically, he's right. Mentally...

Maybe she shouldn't bring it up. Her own approach to the things that have been done to her is cold and ruthlessly focused on whether she has anything to atone for. She could try the sympathy-and-comfort act, but Steve doesn't have much patience for insincerity.

She doesn't have to go digging in his wounds to be here for him, though. "Wanna spar?"

Steve barks out a laugh. "Aren't you worried I'll pound you into a bloody pulp on the floor?"

"I'm not wearing a lab coat," Natasha says, kicking her shoes off and pulling her hair up into a ponytail.

He's still got his fists raised. "Stop prying," he says flatly.

She throws one of her shoes at him, and he slaps it away, his reflexes as good as ever. "It's not prying to state the obvious. Whatever you saw in that lab last week fucked you up, and you aren't feeling too charitable towards Hydra doctors right now. It happens."

His shoulders relax minutely when she says 'whatever you saw.' He thinks she's off the track.

Truth is, none of them know what happened in the two hours after Steve dropped off the comms and before they found him locked in a sub-sub-basement with three dead men in lab coats and his uniform in tatters. They could only guess based on the wreckage of a gurney and a metal table in one corner, and the hideous array of surgical instruments strewn across the blood-smeared floor. Steve had squared his shoulders, strode out of the room, and cut off all their questions with a grim "I don't want to talk about it."

Natasha tosses him a roll of tape. "Wrap your hands, Rogers, and come spar with me."

She keeps the upper hand in the first round, taking advantage of his distraction. The second round goes for a long time, and they've both worked up a sweat by the time they agree to call it a draw. They take a break for water and get right back to it, and Natasha's just starting to think she's got an edge on him again when he turns one of her own moves back on her and pins her facedown on the mat.

"You sneaky son of a bitch," she groans. Steve's weight shifts on top of her as he lets out a shaky laugh.

Normally, he'd roll off and offer her a hand getting back to her feet, just to grin when she refused. But right now he's staying put. His breath is coming sharp and fast behind her. Natasha wriggles over onto her back, and Steve stares dizzily without quite seeing her. His eyes finally focus and he springs back like he's been burned.

"Sorry," he stammers, "sorry, I--" He crumples, no other word for it, and turns his head so she can't see his face. "You should go," he says, his voice thick.

Natasha scoots over and arranges herself to sit cross-legged in front of him, not touching, but not going anywhere either. "They really did a number on you, didn't they?" she says softly. Steve doesn't answer, but his breath hitches. Natasha throws caution to the wind. "Medical torture's a bitch. I've done that, and I've done rape, but never both at once. I think you're holding up pretty well, considering."

Steve freezes. For a long minute, he barely breathes. Natasha sits there with him, calm and matter-of-fact.

Finally, without looking at her, he says in a ragged voice, "What tipped you off?"

"You walking out tonight."

"So you didn't--"

"Know all along? It wasn't written above your head in big flashing letters. All we knew was that something happened. I won't tell the others."

Steve almost sags with relief. "Okay. I... okay." Slowly, he rearranges himself until he's sitting cross-legged too, mirroring her. He stares at his lap, still unable to make eye contact. Natasha is struck by how young he looks--he's the only one on the team younger than her, by a couple of years chronologically speaking, probably a couple decades in terms of life experience. His face, now that he's not trying to hide any of it anymore, is a mask of pain. "They drugged--" he says haltingly, then shudders and breaks off. "I don't know why they didn't just cut me open. I could've healed from that just fine."

Natasha silently reaches across and clasps one of his hands in hers.

Steve gives her hand a convulsive squeeze. He grimaces. "Sorry. You shouldn't have to deal with any of this," he says, but doesn't let go.

"I'm not. You are. But you don't have to deal with it alone."

Natasha gets back to her feet, not letting go of Steve's hand. "Another round?" she says, and tugs a little, silently offering him a hand up.

Instead of taking her up on the offer, he lets go of her hand and stands up on his own. "You're on."

Natasha grins and drops into a fighting stance.

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Red Skull/deserumed skinny!Steve, size kink

(Anonymous) 2015-07-25 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Through one of their failed attempts to reproduce the super-soldier serum, Red Skull and Zola discover a way to temporarily reverse its effects. Naturally, when Captain America falls into Hydra's hands, they use him as a test subject... and Schmidt, who is obsessed with proving that he's a superior man to Erskine's upstart new protégé, decides to drive home his point in the most humiliating way possible.

Basically I want Red Skull pinning 90-lb weakling Steve Rogers down without even bothering to restrain him, and reaming him over and over with his massive super-soldier dick. Lots of focus on the size difference and on Steve's body barely being able to take it. Steve is a defiant little shit throughout and never really stops fighting back, but it doesn't do him much good.

An extra-fragrant garbage crown if they completely underestimate skinny!Steve's tenacity, pain tolerance, recent hand-to-hand combat training, and sheer bloody-mindedness, and he escapes because they left him collapsed on the floor afterwards with only one or two guards to keep an eye on him.

Fill: A Superior Man 1/3

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Steve’s whole body aches like he’s fallen out of a plane, or maybe been caught in an explosion. His head throbs, his skin is cold, and he can’t seem to get enough air. When he cracks one eye open, a bright industrial light hangs above him. He can feel a hard, cold surface beneath his bare skin—metal?—and when he lifts a hand, there’s something wrong with it. It’s too light, too small. He pries his other eye open and looks down at himself, at the skinny, weak body he’d worn before Erskine’s formula.

Beside him, he can hear someone speaking, and he turns his head, the better to hear with his good ear. Two men he recognizes stand a few feet away.

“..is not completely stable,” Zola is saying. “Twenty-four hours at the most.”

“That will be more than sufficient.” Johann Schmidt turned to look at Steve, and smiles to see him awake. “Sedate him again, doctor. I do not want to start the presentation too soon.”
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When Steve drifts back into awareness, he’s still in the cold, sterile room, lying naked on a square metal table. The fluorescent light above him shines down relentlessly. But this time there’s also the buzz of many voices in conversation. When Steve raises his head, he sees the room is much bigger than he imagined. It’s a circular arrangement with rows of chairs in tiers around the perimeter: an operating theater, perhaps. The chairs are filled with men in neat Hydra uniforms, all eagerly watching Steve.

“I believe our guest is ready to join the demonstration.” Schmidt appears in Steve’s vision, haloed by the blinding artificial light above. “Welcome, Captain Rogers.”

Steve struggles to sit up, but his reflexes are sluggish, and the proportions of his body feel all wrong. Even after a lifetime of being small, he’d adjusted rapidly to his new, stronger form. To have that taken away from him—how, through some kind of counter-serum?—leaves him disoriented in his own skin.

Perhaps impatient with Steve’s lack of progress, Schmidt grabs Steve by the throat and pulls him up to sit at the edge of the table. He tries to coordinate his limbs enough to struggle, but Schmidt tightens his grip on Steve’s throat.

“This is what the Americans really are,” he says to his audience. “They posture and they shout, but in their souls they are all like this pathetic creature.” Schmidt releases Steve’s throat and lets him gasp in much-needed air. Then he takes Steve’s chin in his hand and strokes over his lips.

Steve gathers up as much saliva as he can muster and spits in Schmidt’s face. The only reaction that gets is a slow smile. Schmidt gather’s Steve’s wrists in his left hand and grips them easily despite Steve’s struggle while he tugs a handkerchief from his pocket and wipes his face.

“You see, like a cornered animal, he will fight, but this is not a thing to be afraid of.” Schmidt yanks Steve’s hands up above his head, almost dragging him off the table. His other hand clamps around Steve’s cock and balls, all but engulfing them in his grip. “This is something small and delicate.” He squeezes Steve’s genitals with crushing strength, knocking a pained shout out of Steve that sends the audience into gales of laughter.

Steve feels his cheeks heating as a rush of shame chases down the pain. “Let me go and I’ll show you delicate,” he growls.

“Will you, Captain Rogers?” Schmidt flashes a delighted grin, then releases his grip on Steve. “Be my guest.”

For one shocked moment, Steve can’t move. Then his training kicks in. He pulls up his knees and kicks his feet out together, aiming his heels at Schmidt’s belly. Schmidt’s casual twist out of the way means the blow glances off his jacket, but Steve’s right hand is already moving for a follow-up punch.

A sharp yank to Steve’s ankle pulls him nearly off the edge of the table, and he scrambles to rebalance. In this body, he doesn’t have the same strength, so he’ll need to make each blow count. He links his fingers together and swings up, aiming for Schmidt’s chin, but hands catch his forearms and stop him cold. A brutal shove sends Steve slamming back against the table with skull-rattling force. Before he can move, he’s dragged to the edge of the table.

Schmidt leans over him, pinning Steve’s legs against his chest, and pressing Steve’s hands to the table above his head. “You see,” Schmidt says, looking past Steve to play to the watching soldiers. “It claims to have power, but this kind is easily bested by a superior man. Shall I show him his place in the new order?”

Cheers erupt from those watching.

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Sam/hydra, volunteering himself as tribute (any permutation of Sam/Bucky/Steve as well)

(Anonymous) 2015-07-25 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Back when they still owned him, Hydra put something slow-acting into Bucky as a sort of long term plan just in case they ever lose him! (I'm imagining something either chemical, like a drug or synthetic virus, or something electrical to do with the enhancements.) Now that Bucky's been recovered by Steve and Sam, a few months go by and then BOOM Hydra Backup Plan kicks in and Bucky's body revolts on him. He's in extreme pain and/or anguish and no regular medicine can stop him.

Raiding a Hydra base for a cure, they run into some friendly scientists (lol) who are like "hey we know how to help, but first you have to give us Bucky" and Bucky would literally rather die, so Sam is like "how about you take me instead, trade you for the cure and/or take me wherever you needed to take him to get the cure!" Doing some quick mental math about the emotional pain this would cause Bucky/Steve, they agree and take Sam instead.

Cue all of the most horrible sexual and also scientific torture you can think of, done to Sam literally just for lolz. I have no limits at all and if you want to go full extreme (I'm talking like rectal prolapse, intestines falling out, cutting him open and fucking the wound, whatever) that's cool. But if you want to stay with the more "usual" flavours of trash that is great too!

You can choose whether to have them give Bucky the cure before (so he can be fully focused while he knows FULL WELL FROM EXPERIENCE what's being done to Sam), after (to prolong his and probably Steve's pain on top of worrying about Sam), or not at all (evil cackle). Also if you can figure out how to swing it, I would also love a scene (or several) where Steve and Bucky have to watch.

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I love thisss

Steve/Fucking Machines: "I can do this all day."

(Anonymous) 2015-07-26 03:09 pm (UTC)(link)
HYDRA using science and engineering to break Steve's bullheaded stoicism.

I want Steve shackled to a sybian and his dick in a mechanical pump with the option of him being DP'd and throat fucked with additional piston-mounted dildos. Steve also having gear-driven nipple clamps attached that twist and pull are optional but very welcome.

+1 If this happens as an alt take on what could've happened after the elevator scene.
+10000 If this happens pre-CA:TWS and STRIKE sweep in to 'rescue' Steve.

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Just imagine: Steve trying to be strong and stoic for his team, because he's Captain America and they all look up to him, and really it wasn't even real torture, but he can't stop trembling and all those big strong muscles the serum gave him just feel like liquid wrapped round his bones. He wants to refuse help from his STRIKE team, but he also just wants to lean on them and let them take him away.

Don't apologize

(Anonymous) 2015-07-26 03:51 pm (UTC)(link)
After every brutal trash party, the partiers would take really good care of Bucky. Pet him, clean him with omg a soft sponge instead of hosing him down, hand-feed him something instead of nutrient shakes, tell him he did so well and he's so proud of him, whatever aftercare you prefer. Towards the end of the night, they would apologize to him, something like "I'm sorry it hurt so much, but this is your purpose in life now. Can you accept that and forgive us?" Bucky has to nod sweetly and say yes, because he cried and said no once was punished severely for being ungrateful.

Anyways, he's terrified of when they apologize because that marks the end of the comfort. All the hurts done to him are wiped away in HYDRA's eyes even though he still feels everything they did to him, the HYDRA agents that have some semblance of morality aren't guilting anymore, so now there's clean slate to hurt him again.

I want to see the post-TWS aftermath of this where Bucky thinks saying sorry is the ultimate evil. He refuses to apologize for anything, and he panics when anyone apologizes to him because to him, saying sorry is a green light to hurt someone all over again.

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Here's something quick to tide you over until somebody with legit skills takes a crack at this amazing fill!!

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Steve collapsed onto be bed, panting and sweaty and satisfied. Bucky laid beside him in a similar state of sweaty satisfaction. Steve cuddled up to Bucky, who graciously allowed the contact because he was muzzy and relaxed from the amazing orgasms. He had been apprehensive, when he first decided to push Steve against the bedroom door and make his move, because Hydra's uses for him didn't end with assassin and sniper, and Bucky was afraid fucking Steve would bring back the memories. He was right, the sensation of Steve's skin against his and the slick sound of lube and the painful bright ball of pleasure when he orgasmed all reminded him terribly of his secondary function as a fuck toy, especially at their so called staff parties, but Steve was pliant under his hands and his eyes were soft and damp and his moans were sobbing needy hitches, so unlike the brutal noises and brutal touch of everyone who used him at those parties. They were never gentle when they used him. That came after. Steve's presence kept Bucky grounded against the memories buffeting him and kept him from being overwhelmed, and Bucky found that he even enjoyed the sex as more than just a way to satisfy a need Steve wouldn't voice himself, the noble idiot. Bucky was good at anticipating needs.
Steve groaned after a second, and pushed himself off the bed.
"Be right back, Buck." He said, and headed into the bathroom. Bucky wasn't too worried, because he could hear the sounds of Steve wiping himself off and getting a drink of water. He wriggled into the soft mattress and softer duvet, luxuriating in the endorphins coursing through his relaxed body, even as he was aware that the dark abyss that followed him everywhere had crept worryingly close to his mind. It was fine. Bucky took a gamble, and it paid off. Steve wasn't Hydra, wouldn't hurt him like that. His memories were just memories.
Steve clanged around in the bathroom for a moment, emerging with a glass of water and two hand towels, one dry and one damp.
"You thirsty?" Steve asked, offering the glass of water. Bucky sat up and held out a hand. Steve handed Bucky the glass of water, and he chugged the whole thing, the water sweet and cool and - bubbly and heady, the taste of light honeyed alcohol so far from the slop of his nutrient shakes that his head almost hurt at the joy of it. The champagne flute was removed when he had finished drinking, and a warm hand carded gently through his sweat and come drenched hair. "Good B-" Bucky set the half empty glass on the bedside table, and looked over at Steve to reassure himself. Steve was naked. No one at Hydra ever got completely naked. They just unzipped their trousers or hitched up their skirts. Bucky relaxed again. Steve crawled back into bed besides Bucky, and plastered himself against Bucky's side. Bucky melted into Steve as Steve pressed a loving kiss to the side of Bucky's head and petted his cheek. "Such a good boy for us, aren't you? You did so well, my sweet." and turned his head so he could press a kiss to Bucky's already kiss swollen mouth.
"I love you so much." Steve confessed, his eyes so huge and liquid and trusting Bucky relaxed again. Steve wasn't like them. He never told Bucky how good he was.
Steve kissed him again, then prodded at him. "Spread your legs a bit." Steve said. "Gotta clean up before the lube and come dries. Bucky spread his legs obediently, holding himself still as a sponge wet with warm water and a gentle soap ran over his flanks, washing away the come and piss and lube. The agent paused to wring out the sponge and wet the sponge, then brushed it with aching tenderness across Bucky's wrecked and gaping hole. "That's better now, isn't it? I'll get you all cleaned up." Steve said. He folded the soiled towel in half and wiped away the mess on Bucky's stomach, then tossed it over his shoulder and ran the other hand towel between Bucky's cheeks and over his stomach, leaving him dry and clean.
After Bucky had been cleaned up, Steve climbed back under the covers and cuddled close, his breathe steady and warm against Bucky's flesh shoulder. See, Steve wasn't one of them. Bucky was clean and all tidied up at Steve still wanted him and didn't move to wipe him or put him away or apologise. Steve wasn't hydra. Bucky relaxed and snuggled up closer to Steve. Just as Bucky was about to drift to sleep for the first time in forty six hours, Steve shifted besides him.
"Hey Buck?" Steve said.
"Yes Stevie?" Bucky replied, the nickname slipping out.
"I'm sorry." Steve said, and Bucky's veins turned to ice. "I was kind of hesitant about having sex because of what happened to you, but I guess I should have trusted you to know your limits. I'm sorry we argued before. And thanks. For, you know. I really enjoyed myself. Sorry if I was kind of on a hair trigger there."
"I'm always happy to serve." The Asset replied as sweetly as he could manage beneath the haze of fear and betrayal suffocating him.
"I'll keep that in mind for the next time." Steve said.
Had the Asset failed to perform? Why was he being evaluated? Was he to be punished? Maybe he wasn't sweet enough. The Asset had been so flippant to the Agent who took care of him after. He wasn't grateful enough. He should have been good and he should have been grateful be he has been bad and now he would get what's coming to him.
The Asset tried to look sweeter and more obedient. It wasn't supposed to bargain against its punishments, but sometimes the Agents didn't mind if it begged. "I should have been better. I'm so grateful. You took such good care of me, sir. I was bad and ungrateful. I'll be so quiet during maintenance and correction, sir. Please please, sir, I'll be so good during correction, I'll be such a good boy, please, I didn't meant to be ungrateful. Please don't send for punishment."
The agent beside him tensed. Oh god, did the Asset make him even angrier with his pathetic begging? The Asset thought he might have been less angry if it begged pathetically enough but sometimes that made the agents angrier. This one had looked so nice and so kind. The Asset should have learned by now that appearances were deceiving.
"Buck." The Agent besides him said softly, pulling away from the Asset. The Asset's eyes were wet but he still tried to look as sweet and obedient and eager to please as it was supposed to. The Agent was pulling away and he had started apologising, so the good parts of the evening were over. The thought of punishment, real punishment, not just maintenance or even correction, was to terrifying. They let him keep the memories of his punishment the only time it hadn't been a good and sweet enough boy when they maintained him, and the mere thought of it frightened it terribly.
"Oh Buck, Buck, I'm sorry. Shh, I'm sorry Buck." The Agent said, sounding even more upset, and the threat of punishment loomed ever louder.
"It was necessary." The Asset replied. The liked it best when the asset responded to their apologies by accepting them and telling how necessary it was to hurt him. "It was necessary, I can take it. I can be so good, sir. It hurts but it's necessary, sir. Please sir."
The Agent looked guilty and sad and that wasn't good. Whenever he made the agents look sad and guilty the Agents always wiped him at setting seven instead of the regular setting five. But that's not right. How did it remember maintenance? He could- it- he- the Asset wasn't supposed to remember maintenance. The asset wasn't supposed to remember the agents taking care of him. He sat up despite not having been ordered to do so, and registered his surroundings with confusion. This wasn't a Hydra facility? Had the agent been granted use of the Asset as a reward? The Assey remembers being a reward for agents who performed well the asset remembers— The asset wasn't supposed to remember.
Bucky usually came out of flashbacks gradually, but he snapped out of this one all at once. He couldn't look at Steve, who looked so distraught. He should be comforting Steve. He knows this. Steve isn't supposed to be sad. But Steve also apologised. Steve wasn't ever supposed to apologise. Bucky ran into the bathroom, locking himself in and digging through the medicine cabinet for the knife concealed there. He clutched the weapon in his hand as he bent over the toilet bowl and threw up. All he'd had today was some water, because he couldn't stand the thought of eating this morning, and Steve had- Steve had looked sad but he had understood and he- Steve - Steve apologised. Bucky felt tears of betrayal pricking at the back of his eyes.
Steve's voice sounded outside the door. "Bucky? Bucky, are you alright in there? I'm so sorry, Buck. Please tell me if you're okay."
Bucky flinched when Steve said the word sorry. He'd trusted Steve. Steve had been so good to him. Steve didn't even hurt him when he used his hole. Bucky say ok the floor beside the toilet, his knees curled and his eyes closed. He'd go and be good and obedient when Steve came in to get him. He'd take his punishment. For Steve, he'd even try to keep quiet for as long as he could. But for now he wanted one last moment to pretend.



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BTW, Bucky has sex with Steve because he thinks Steve wants it, and he does it because he wants to be good for Steve, not because he wants it. There is no way he was actually ready for sex, even though it didn't go badly until after. I don't know if I made it clear enough but he went in expecting trash party like treatment. :D

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Steve, masculinity/bottoming issues

(Anonymous) 2015-07-27 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Taking this fabulous meta and running with it: http://radialarch.tumblr.com/post/125118958881

Steve has a lot of hangups about bottoming and/or giving blowjobs left over from the masculinity issues he had before the war. He's not a jerk to anyone else about it, but thinking about doing it still brings up all sorts of residual horror and disgust.

And then Rumlow, or the baddie of your choice, gets him at a disadvantage and decides to have some fun with him. Violent rape, humiliation, homophobic/misogynistic slurs... Steve stays outwardly defiant, but it hits him harder than he lets on, and afterwards he's a total wreck. Some of his teammates try to comfort him, and he lets them, but he can't make himself talk about what's really fucking him up: it would involve admitting he's not straight and copping to attitudes that even he knows are outdated and insulting.

Bonus: A lot of the ways he's a total wreck manifest as overcompensation and uncontrollable anger, and he has to stay out of the field until he can get a grip--which just gives him more feelings of inferiority to wrestle with.

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Bucky fucking Steve with the stump of his arm

(Anonymous) 2015-07-27 12:09 pm (UTC)(link)
So, maybe Bucky's whole body has been fucked and used in trashy ways by HYDRA, and for him, it doesn't matter if he's fucking Steve or if Steve is fucking him or he's using his hands or mouth or ass or the back of his goddamned knee. There is always an unpleasant association. Except, when he was with HYDRA, his metal arm was permanently attached because they had to keep him ready to deploy at all times, but after Bucky comes in from the cold, he gets a replacement arm and this arm is easily removable. And under the metal arm, he still has two thirds of his upper arm intact. And no one from hydra ever touched him sexually there. Or at least, he doesn't remember it.
So Bucky fucks Steve's ass with his stump and he loves it.

+1 if Steve is super into it too, even though he is simultaneously horrified
+10 if they've tried all kinds of alternative solutions to sex like jerking off in the same room or vibrators that buzz in time to music or actually sticking a dick in crevices like bent knees and elbows and foot sex and knee sex and jerking off while the other person pretends to be ignoring them.
+1000000000 and my eternal soul and my first seven children if after Bucky stump fucks Steve, he falls asleep and his dream is a new memory of the very early days, where a lab tech or a surgeon or someone is operating on his arm but before they finish up amputating the jagged remains of his limb, they guy sticks his dick in the raw pulverised mess of flesh and bone and fucks it until Bucky is screaming in agony and there is cum streaked along with the blood. Then Bucky wakes up and Steve is already mouthing at his stump and wanting to go again.

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Metal Armpit

(Anonymous) 2015-07-27 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
As well as having a metal arm, Bucky also has a metal armpit. Anything inspired by this would make my day. (Hi if u follow me on tumblr and was there when I realised this last week. It was a world changing perspective shift)

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This isn't a trash prompt, though. I'm wracking my brain, but I really can't come up with a way to make a metal armpit bad-dirty-wrong. Maybe try another kinkmeme?

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the Hydra agent perspective on Bucky's broken dick

(Anonymous) 2015-07-27 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Bucky's dick got broken early in his captivity, which means that modern-day Hydra operatives don't know why he's like that. How would that affect their sexual use of him? Maybe some people pity him, to others it makes him more of an inhuman freak, and others fixate on it sexually, etc.

If anyone wants to fill this, pick your particular flavor of broken dick, I'm not picky!

good-lookin' Bucky Barnes

(Anonymous) 2015-07-27 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I would love a fic with a rape scene where the rapist is completely fixated on Bucky's beauty. Hair, eyes, his pretty face, his full lips, the length of his limbs; this dude finds Bucky as pornographic as the rest of us.

+ body worship and praiseful dirty talk that registers as verbal humiliation because of the non-con context -- the more it sounds like something a lover would say, and the nastier that feels, and the more miserable and shamed Bucky is, the happier I will be.

+ I would be thrilled with a fill set in either of Bucky's captivities if that's what inspires a writer, but imagine this rape occurring:
- pre-CATFA, where Bucky is so groomed and tbh a bit of a popinjay
- post-CATWS, where maybe Bucky is figuring out how to take possession of his body and pride in his appearance for the first time in a long time

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Wholeheartedly co-signing this prompt. Body worship/praise as verbal humiliation because of non-con? One of my all-time greatest kinks. And to have it happen in either scenario you suggested just makes it 10x better.

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Winter Soldier obeying, but his body protesting

(Anonymous) 2015-07-28 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
Basically I want a Hydra-days Bucky that is broken in for rape, psychologically - but his body is still resisting.

He will obey, suck, bend over, spread his ckeeks, whatever they want...but he's still sobbing, crying, choking, gagging,whimpering,trembling, shivering, cowering, bleeding...

Basically, rationally he complies to every demand, but subconsciously his body is still screaming with trauma.

I'm less picky who it's with, so take your pick - Pierce, Rumlow, Zola, anonymous hydra agents, all of the above, whomever!

+ points if they punish him for it and that only makes it worse.
++ points if at least one of the abusers gets off on him crying and trembling.
+++ points if you write an aftermath fic with Steve where his body still reacts to sex that way even if it's consensual.

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Procedural memory

(Anonymous) 2015-07-30 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
Post-TWS, Steve and Bucky get together. Neither of them has ever been with a guy before. And yet somehow, right off the bat, Bucky can take cock like a pro and suppress his gag reflex at will...

He has no memory of being sexually abused by any of his captors. But then, he's got plenty of combat skills he doesn't remember acquiring either. So having sex with Steve means brushing up against the ghost of repeated rapes he knows with increasing certainty must've happened, and learning their contours from the outside as he gets more and more familiar with the details of his pre-existing skills and habits.

Bonus for delving into the mindfuck possibilities. How much can he really disentangle old reflexes from new ones as he and Steve learn each other's bodies? Or maybe they realize Bucky's occasionally been losing time when they have sex and they don't know what sets off the dissociation, don't even know he's doing it until his memories of what they've been doing start to not add up with Steve's.

Extra bonus: they're not sure at first, and then Bucky does something really specific that lines up with shit Steve's heard Rumlow bragging about in the STRIKE locker room. Allllll the guilt and retrospective horror.

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Bucky can't say no

(Anonymous) 2015-07-30 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
...so it can't be used as a measure of consent, though obviously it takes other people (too) long to catch on.

Basically Hydra punished Bucky for saying "no". Brutally. The only context in which he is allowed to say no is specifically during a mission briefing or a medical questionnaire.

Ex. "Did you kill other except for the target?" - no

"Is your arm broken?" - no

But "no" can never be used for declining orders or personal requests.

So, fast forward to aftermath, preferably relationship with Steve. Even though Steve is super concerned about consent, he doesn't realize Bucky can't say no. So he has to say yes/comply to everything regardless of his feelings.

Ex. "Can I kiss you?" - yes

"Do you like being fucked?" - yes

Basically the more the relationship progresses, the trashier the implications.

Over time people might start noticing something is off (like Bucky being different during medical exams or missions than in his "free time", or that someone makes a ludicrous joke or dare, and he's forced to comply).

This goes for non-sex things, too, so you could for example make him sit through a movie he hates (or triggers him), have him wear uncomfortable clothes, make him go places that upset him etc.

Give me all the trashy sex implications, the horror when it's fund out, and if you want any insane attempts to make it work (like how do you sleep with a person who physically cannot say no if they dislike something?)



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Forgot! Bonus point if Bucky actually DOES want intimacy with Steve, but he's super uncomfortable with a lot of sex acts but can't really express it - and his genuine love for Steve complicates it even if he does try to figure out ways to express this.

He's (semi)aware of his conditioning and that it's fucked up, but as he let it go on too long he realizes Steve will be horrified, and on some level that's worse than to grit his teeth and get fucked even if it hurts or het gets flashbacks..

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Watersports

(Anonymous) 2015-07-30 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Due to (insert trash reason here-- repeated electroshock?) Bucky is the perfect assassin in every way except one: he has absolutely zero bladder control whatsoever. On missions they have to keep him cathed and capped so he doesn't leak. The rest of the time, however, he's free to leak all over himself. I want this so much. Just imagine

the Winter Soldier pissing himself helplessly while he's being gang raped, unable to stop the flow or even understand that he should be able to

some female agent wanting to ride the Winter Soldier and punishing him viciously for pissing inside her

HYDRA agents pissing inside the Winter Soldier and plugging him up so he's so full he's cramping while his own bladder leaks uncontrollably

HYDRA agents making the Winter Soldier drink their piss just to watch it run out of him a few minutes later

the AWOL Winter Soldier taking out the capped catheter because he's confused by it and immediately pissing all over himself, and then having trouble disguising himself because his pants keep getting wet

recovering Bucky remembering that he's supposed to control himself but not being able to and feeling all sorts of self-disgust and shame

trash aftermath with Steve where Steve realizes he may have a wetting and/or general watersports kink and has erections of guilt and shame

trash aftermath where they have sex and Bucky hates himself for pissing on (or in) Steve and Steve hates himself for getting off on it so hard

Fill: Though I Thirst For You

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(This is my first kink meme fill in any fandom in FOREVER. *flails in terror*)

When he showed up on Steve’s doorstep in Brooklyn, the Winter Soldier is dehydrated and starving, his skin and clothes filthy, his hair matted and full of lice. His metal arm hangs limp at his side. He only knows one name and it is not his own.

“Steve.” It rasps from his bruised throat and he doesn’t try to say anything else.

There is nothing else that needs saying. Steve brings him in from the cold without question or hesitation.

***

Bucky wishes that he’d known better than to come to Steve. He’s dragged his filth into Steve’s world now, and he’s getting everything dirty. Steve’s apartment smells like piss, smells like the way he can’t control himself even with the plastic sheets Steve bought for his bed and the special undergarments he wears under his tracksuit pants. It triggers patchy memories but not good ones: Brooklyn pre-war back alleys where Bucky got on his knees for money to make the rent, to make money for medicine, to make time because he didn’t think Steve would have him.

There’s no way Steve will have him now either.

***

Steve hides in the shower for as long as he can in the mornings. He wakes up with wet sheets stuck to him from where Bucky has leaked all over them both in the night, and it goes straight to his dick. The heat of it is one thing. But the lack of control, the way Bucky just can’t help himself is what really gets Steve going.

He feels sick with it, but he also stands under the hot water and slicks his hands with body wash so he can grip his erection and fuck into his own fists. He should get off on Bucky relearning how to want things; he should get off on Bucky relearning consent and that he can without it.

But Bucky can’t control the way piss leaks out of his cock any time he’s had enough to drink. Side effect of all the electroshock, Bruce had theorized. It should get better but it hasn’t yet and Steve comes so forcefully against the shower tiles he’s amazed he doesn’t pass out.

***

It’s too soon to be doing this, they both know that. Bucky knows himself and hates himself but he wants to be good for Steve; Steve just wants Bucky to feel some kind of pleasure, to know that his body is meant for more than pain.

And for a moment, for a long series of desperate moments, they both get what they want: sweat-slicked skin sliding together, mouths learning the way they both have to pause for breath, every limb holding tight. Bucky gets right up inside Steve, his Steve, no matter how much the body has changed, no one is going to ever hurt Steve again if Bucky has anything to say about it and that’s a promise. Steve is surprised by how much noise he makes, flushes red but still opens his mouth and swears, in between gasps and Bucky’s name, that no one will ever be able to tell Bucky what to do ever again, no one will ever be able to just use Bucky like that.

Bucky comes and it’s half from the sensations that he can’t figure out how to hold on to and half from the idea of that sort of freedom. It’s probably a lie, he thinks, but it’s so good.

His cock jerks, oversensitive now, but he wants Steve to come, wants it more than anything else, so he stays inside where Steve made a place for him, where he’s welcome and where it feels so nice. But he’s stopped coming and there’s still liquid coming out of him, Bucky can feel it, can feel the piss burning its way out of his dick and into Steve.

And Steve can feel it, too. Every muscle tightens at the shock of it, his body clenched tight already around the pleasure of Bucky’s intrusion. He fumbles for his cock, but he doesn’t even manage to touch himself before his orgasm hits. His back arches and his vision greys out around the edges. He manages to fall to Bucky’s side instead of collapsing on top of him.

***

Bucky wishes he’d never taken the catheter out. Wishes he could cut his own cock off if it meant he would never make Steve dirty again.

***

Steve feels come and piss leaking out of him, feels his dick stir at the sensation, the mess of it. He feels amazing. He’s never come so hard in his life. But he’d rather never come again than make Bucky feel so out of control.

***

“I need to change the sheets.” Bucky sounds flat, even to himself.

Steve shifts over, doesn’t try to catch Bucky’s gaze. “I’ll be in the shower.”

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very large object insertion, size kink

(Anonymous) 2015-07-30 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I have a need to see Hydra penetrating Bucky with something too large to shove inside the human body. Like a horse dildo or the like. It seems impossible to fit, and they make him take it anyway.

+ they stretch him out with a gangbang first

+ forcing him to ride it

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Please please please, unreasonably large insertions are my fave

(Anonymous) 2015-07-31 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
Dearest dumpster denizens, I am pretty sure I'll never get enough of voyeur Bucky listening in on Steve and Sam. I've read some incredible fics where they are kind of aware he's listening and it's even something like an invitation - but I'd really like to see something where they have no idea he can hear them. And, of course, as he gets off to the sounds, because he just can't help himself, he also wallows in his certainty that he's lost Steve forever because Sam is so wonderful and they'd never have anything to do with him because he's so perverse and terrible. He can't even make eye contact during the day anymore even though he was making so much progress.

+ If Bucky is used to overhearing consensual sex because Hydra didn't treat him like a person - he was a thing - so his handlers didn't think twice about having sex with him around.

++ If Bucky thinks they gave him the room next to theirs specifically so he will hear what he can never have - it's a subtle message but he knows Steve wouldn't want to tell him no in so many words, after all.

(Anonymous) 2015-07-31 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
Wow I love this, especially the first +. That is so sad. Amazing.

insecurity, emotional sensitivity

(Anonymous) 2015-07-31 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
This is inspired by a fic I just read where Steve tossed off a "Why are you such an idiot?" at Bucky. He didn't mean it, but here I am, trash bloodhound, wondering what would happen if Bucky had such low self-esteem he really took that kind of comment to heart.

So give me something where Hydra's a) 'success -> praise, failure -> criticism and punishment' MO and b) repeated rapes, where Bucky was humiliated and insulted, have taken a huge toll on Bucky's ability to take a joke. Steve banters with and ribs Bucky the same as he always did, but years of abuse have left Bucky so sensitive and insecure he can't help feeling like Steve means it. So without meaning to, Steve leaves Bucky feeling stupid, or that some things he likes or needs are weird after Steve gently teases him about them, and so on.

+ Bucky and Steve are in a romantic relationship and this extends into their sex life

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Oh my god, PLEASE YES. And just imagine Steve's horror when he realizes how much he inadvertently made things worse

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Bucky/Sam, fuck or die, Steve (and whoever else you want?) forced to watch

(Anonymous) 2015-08-01 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
All three of them (plus whatever other avengers you want, if that's your taste) are captured by Hydra trash, who decide to fuck around with them for a bit before mass executing them. They force their turncoat Asset and that [insert racial expletive here] with the heart of gold that everybody seems to like so much to fuck each other for their amusement. Bucky and Sam very, very, very clearly don't want to do it, but they're forced to anyway (combination of threats to their friends, threats to each other's lives, and physical pain?). Either person can be the penetrator, although my preference is......both. >___> <___< Imagine the psychological torture on top of the rape and humiliation, not just for Bucky and Sam but for Steve (and others, if you choose to include)!

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SA

Forgot to add that it's up to the writer whether Bucky, Sam, Steve, anyone else, or any permutation of these people were in a relationship before this happens or if they were just platonic.

Fake mpreg and breeding (tw: pregnancy body horror)

(Anonymous) 2015-08-01 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
I just want HYDRA to pump the asset's intestines so full of gas and water that his stomach inflates, plug him with an excessively large toy, and wire his hips and thighs up with electrodes to simulate contractions.

Then put him in the chair, wipe his brain, and from there convince the asset that he's not only pregnant but in the process of enduring a natural birth.

+1 It's Pierce's idea for a demonstration of the total effectiveness of HYDRA's mind wiping technology.

+100 For HYDRA using a speculum to keep the asset stretched and later fisting him while claiming to be retrieving the placenta/afterbirth.

+1000 The asset being pre-conditioned to find pain arousing and spending most of the 'labour' with a large, and very obvious, erection.

+10000 If the HYDRA Rapist of Your Choice uses breeding terminology during a rape to deliberately elicit a fear response from the asset. As even though the asset has been mind wiped several times after his fake pregnancy, the trauma was too significant to be completely erased from his mind.

(I'd ask for a one-way ticket to Hell, but I've been banned.)

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I can't believe this has never been prompted before - the deepest trashpit in the dumpster of my heart is reserved for men being forced to give birth.

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WS/Skinny!Steve; vicarious torture, trash hurt/comfort; long prompt is long

(Anonymous) 2015-08-01 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
Let's pretend that Steve never met Erskine or got the serum. Bucky was captured by Zola as in TFA, and the whole Winter Soldier process started from there, with skinny Steve still back in Brooklyn, mourning Bucky as MIA and presumed dead.

A few years in to the WS program, HYDRA finds they're having a hard time controlling their asset - he just doesn't respond to the usual horrors as he used to, and seems to be retaining just a little too much human emotion than would be expedient. So, when they find out about his dearest friend Steven Grant Rogers (maybe the WS is already brainwashed out of being able to lie; maybe they just investigated his background) they send some agents back to Brooklyn to nab him, and Steve is brought in as the Winter Soldier's personal companion/pet/whipping boy/reward and punishment unit.

The WS doesn't retain a lot of his original memories or personality, but he remembers that Steve is the most important thing in the world, to be protected above all costs in the only way that the WS is capable of - by obeying and pleasing their captors. The WS is also desperate for any time spent with Steve or affection from him. This is doled out very, very carefully - sometimes the handlers let the WS and Steve share a cell undisturbed for days on end; sometimes the WS goes through a whole defrost-briefing-mission-debriefing-cryo cycle without getting more than a glimpse of him at the end of a hallway. If the WS misbehaves, or fails to perform to increasingly higher standards, Steve is punished in front of him in any way your horrible heart desires. If the WS is then very, very good at apologizing, he might get to patch Steve up a bit. The WS, for all his devotion to Steve, is still completely Stockholmed to HYDRA; he trusts their handlers and is fully convinced that they don't actually want to hurt Steve, they just do it because the WS has been an inadequate weapon

Steve, for his part, is initially bewildered and quickly beyond horrified at what's been done to Bucky; it takes him a while to figure everything out since the handlers are pretty good at ignoring his existence entirely - they don't want to brainwash him since they think his personality might be part of what keeps the WS so devoted to him, but they can't risk him worming his way into their heads, so mostly they've been ordered never to speak to him or even acknowledge his speaking. Steve, of course, gets pretty messed up from the isolation alone (if you want, they can figure out a way to freeze him even without the serum so he's only awake when the WS is) and then he has to deal with the abuse he suffers while trying to understand and care for this severely damaged Bucky who clearly adores him but never lifts a hand in his defense.

There doesn't need to be any plot if you don't want one - any amount of contrast between the brutality of their lives and the tenderness of their relationship will be greeted by a shower of dented soup cans and desiccated phone books by a grateful prompter.

+1 A conversation in which Bucky apologizes to Steve for messing up and letting him get punished and promises to do better, he'll be faster and stronger and kill all the targets, he'll burn HYDRA's enemies (or the American dogs, or whoever) to the ground and then Steve can be safe and they'll be together and Steve is in agony over the fact that he can either hope Bucky succeeds and becomes an even better slave-to-evil, or hope he fails and Steve gets torn apart again

+2 Some asshole handlers (if you go with the frozen Steve idea, it could even be Rumlow and co) get a kick out of prompting the WS to discuss Steve - he gets more animated at this than any other subject, goes on about how wonderful Steve is and how grateful he (the WS) is that HYDRA lets him see him sometimes - before letting him know exactly what they're planning to do to his little buddy when they get back to base

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Turns out I have more ideas for this:

+3 for an episode in which a HYDRA base is attacked, or Steve is being used as bait, or has been brought along on a mission that goes south or something - and HYDRA gets to see the WS in action when he sees Steve threatened by anyone *other* than HYDRA itself. It's an absolute Ragnarok of destruction and it kind of freaks the handlers out, but it also filed away as very interesting and potentially useful information.

+4 for HYDRA controlling how Steve is allowed to interact with Bucky - say, they've put Steve into his cell for Bucky's reward, but Steve is under orders not to touch Bucky or allow Bucky to touch him *and* he's also not allowed to tell Bucky that he has these orders. And so Bucky of course does his usual heartbreaking wriggle with glee to see Steve and immediately tries to hold onto him, and Steve has to keep pushing him away, saying he doesn't feel like it, and Bucky is devastated but still grateful just for his presence and they both break each others' hearts and Rumlow gets a good chuckle out of the whole thing

+5 When they're alone, Steve sometimes tries to comfort himself by telling Bucky stories of the good days back in Brooklyn; the WS doesn't remember these stories or even really believe they ever happened, but he loves hearing them (sometimes this is used as a motivator for him - "If you make the [possibly impossible] shot we'll get Steve to tell you about the Cyclone again" and Steve *hates* HYDRA putting their filth on their life, but he also can't deny Bucky a simple pleasure

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comeuppance trash

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I've come across a couple of beautiful and hilarious fics where hurting/raping bucky ends up backfiring horribly (like the one where rumlow has literal broken dick because the super-sphincter popped it like a balloon). Can I see some more of that? The winter soldier's not trying to fight them, and the ways he hurts them are completely involuntary-- in fact, he probably wants to stop hurting them because he'll just be punished later. I just want to see horrible trash done to hydra agents as a result of their attempts to do horrible trash to bucky.

Winter Soldier as Hydra's urinal

(Anonymous) 2015-08-02 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Is this super messed up? I feel like this is super messed up. Oh well. *Wallows in moldy banana peels and greasy pizza boxes*

Anyway, I need more WS-as-urinal situations. Whenever the strike team needs to piss on a mission (or just around base?), they just put the WS on his knees and use his mouth instead. If the WS fights them, they'll take away his water rations until he's ready to beg for any liquid at all. That includes piss, come, whatever.

+Bonus for STRIKE making the WS lap piss off the floor after denying him water for days

++ Extra Bonus for Post-WS Bucky thinking this is normal. The first time he's in Avengers' Tower and someone says they're going to the bathroom, he gets on his knees and opens his mouth in preparation. Queue horrified/pissed off Steve trying to explain to Bucky that he doesn't have to do that anymore.

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YES. YES PLEASE. Especially with that first bonus. I don't know what it says about me but someone being forced to lick piss off of the floor is such a kink for me.

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Bucky's wrecked asshole

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So here's another prompt for hole abuse, but in the other direction, namely gaping.
All I want is just anything to do with Bucky's worn out and loose and droopy asshole. He's probably got fat grey leathery asslips (to borrow a turn of phrase from my fav porn blog) that can't close up from all the stuff Hydra has done to him. Just, anything focused on how huge and worn out his asshole is
Strangely enough I'd prefer it if there was no prolapsing of the rosebud variety. I'm not a fan of how bright red it is.
+1 for his loose asslips to be either deadened to sensation because they've been tortured so much or conversely maybe they're super sensitive and he's hard and leaking from someone rubbing at them. Maybe they tease him in the field by just making him sit in a moving car, no additional work required.
+10 if someone rubs off over his loose sphincter, not even penetrating him, just using that huge worn out ring of flesh that protrudes like labia to envelop their dick. Maybe they pinch and tug at it to get it to gape and droop more.
+100 if he could probably heal up if they'd let him, but they prefer degrading him like this and always keeping him open and slutty and gaping. Maybe they froze him with his asshole open and wrecked to keep him that way so they wouldn't loose all their work when he defrosted. Idk maybe even after Bucky is out of Hydra's clutches his asshole takes a long time to recover and every time he has sex with Steve they are reminded of all the things they did to Bucky.

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Oh god, yes please

Also umm maybe share a link to this porn blog you speak of?

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