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garbage all the way down ([personal profile] trashmod) wrote in [community profile] hydratrashmeme2014-12-07 08:43 am

Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Round 2 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 3.

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 2/?

(Anonymous) 2015-01-27 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
I do think there was some naïveté on Steve's part in the past in the sense that he was assuming that of course Bucky was being honest and of course he'd tell Steve if anything was wrong. It's one thing to know that in these situations rape is a possibility. It's another to think about the idea that your oldest and dearest friend (with whom you have recently begun a sexual relationship) has been raped so often and for so long that it's become his dominant experience, and as part of his abuse has had his sexual response re-wired for maximum humiliation on his part/pleasure on his rapists'. I also wonder if Sam's version of that conversation might be "I tried to bring it up bring it up and Steve didn't want to hear it."

Well, Steve is definitely wondering if that was what happened. For the record I think Bucky was 100% enthusiastically consenting every time – the whole problem for him is that he does genuinely feel desire, it's just that his body and/or mind can't go with it. There will be more actual Bucky talking next segment and I don't want to give the game away as to that, but a lot of "things could be different" is "I thought I could have a satisfying sexual relationship without revealing the extent of my trauma and/or doing things that I find incredibly triggering and degrading." (Don't worry, dear reader, it's not as much of an either/or proposition as he thinks, this is not that kind of trash). If Bucky could have kept lying forever I think he would have. He certainly didn't want Steve to hear it in the same terms his torturers used, but that stuff's in deep. They both have a long way to go.

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 2/?

(Anonymous) 2015-01-27 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
It's another to think about the idea that your oldest and dearest friend (with whom you have recently begun a sexual relationship) has been raped so often and for so long that it's become his dominant experience, and as part of his abuse has had his sexual response re-wired for maximum humiliation on his part/pleasure on his rapists'.

I feel incredibly sorry for Steve and Bucky and really excited about this fic.

It makes me happy that Bucky was in fact consenting, and also I love that you see Bucky as having wanted to hide this shit forever but then, when it came out, accidentally talking about it in the degrading language that's been ingrained in him, and then being pissed with himself for that. This is just a good.

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 2/?

(Anonymous) 2015-01-27 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
Seconded, I am so excited too!