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garbage all the way down ([personal profile] trashmod) wrote in [community profile] hydratrashmeme2014-12-07 08:43 am

Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Round 2 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 3.

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 4/?

(Anonymous) 2015-04-04 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
Ohhhh, the image of Bucky lying in bed with a look on his face like he's expecting pain. Of course it would be terrifying, after seventy years of terrible experiences. I feel so bad for Bucky -- what a painful dilemma, to want something, and to be terrified of the only way of getting it.

The entire paragraph where Bucky tries to convince Steve to get back into it is amazing, because it's subtle, but you've got him crossing all his own boundaries and pulling his own triggers -- the open-mouthed kissing, enlacing their fingers. It's brilliant that Bucky's fake sex persona is tender. It's also super trashy in its implications; I'm with Steve, thinking about how the hell you program that response into someone, and the kinds of things he must have gone through, and how nightmarish it would be to carry those memories around.

Also omg he didn't mean to say something that would turn Steve off so clearly he should just GAG HIMSELF. BUCKY

Bucky's so insecure about not what being what Steve wants and it's so great to watch him express those insecurities in such a healthy way: by attacking Steve with them. Like, I love it. The virgin territory line! And bypassing Steve's actual concern about emotional hurt to be like, you can't hurt me, I've taken WAY WORSE. BUCKY

Steve still can't say the word 'rape' when it comes to Bucky, oh no. Man, this fic frustrates (in a very engaging way) when it comes to the communication thing; on the one hand I'm so happy to see them talking honestly and openly about their desires, needs, boundaries, etc., and on the other hand they're still absolutely skirting around the root problem. I want to see them work it out, but I also want to be emotionally tortured forever, sooo...

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 4/?

(Anonymous) 2015-04-04 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I nearly made my author's note "Dear anonymous commenter, here's your fawn response." (Um, assuming you are that anonymous commenter, of course). He's already transgressed, and whether it's from fear of rejection or fear of reprisal, what Bucky wants doesn't matter anymore. He guesses Steve wants it sweet and tender, but if it had gone on much longer he probably would have tried something else. I went back and forth on the gag line – it was either that or offering to let Steve tie him up. Maybe the idea that Steve might want mutually-satisfying sex with an enthusiastically consenting partner did occur to him, but it doesn't seem like an option just then – he doesn't know how to play that. And then once he's had a moment to calm down, of course Steve's reticence has to do with his issues, and any consideration of Bucky's safety has to be contemptible, because anything else would mean questioning what I think were lies he made himself believe to survive. Steve can't say the word 'rape,' but neither can Bucky. He's totally seeing how far he can push it, too. Steve says he'll come back? He says he wants the truth? Let's see him handle this.

Well, if all goes to plan there are depths of emotional torment (and, I hope, love and mutual support?) yet to be plumed even if/when they have a frank conversation, so stay tuned. :D

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 4/?

(Anonymous) 2015-04-05 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
I am SO tuned--DA

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 4/?

(Anonymous) 2015-04-05 09:34 am (UTC)(link)
Yesss, that was me. Oh no, everything about this is terrible -- Bucky being afraid even though it's Steve, and being so afraid he dismisses his own consent (because he doesn't even know how to PLAY consent, haaaa it's so terrible). And of course he would have learned to read his abusers' desires so he could play to their expectations, so the the fact that the "sweet and tender" he falls back on is a sick mockery of willing participation provides a lot of horror through implication.

I'm totally tuned to the emotional torment channel, all day every day.