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garbage all the way down ([personal profile] trashmod) wrote in [community profile] hydratrashmeme2015-09-09 07:23 pm

Dumpster #3: The Great Pacific Garbage Patch

Holy shitballs, look at us go. Welcome to Captain America fandom's resident wretched hive of scum and villainy: ROUND THREE. AKA Bad Guys Do Dirtybadwrong Things To Your Faves, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

[Round 1] [Round 2] [Fill post] [Chatter post] [hydratrashmeme Pinboard archive (maintained by [personal profile] greenkirtle)] [Round 3 in flat view (comments in non-threaded chronological order, most recent last)]

Round 3 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 4.

Sex in the mindwipe chair

(Anonymous) 2015-09-09 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Any pairing, as long as it does what it says on the tin.

...but an extra-smelly garbage crown if you can come up with a reason for a freaked-out Hydra operative to get shoved down into the chair and fucked or aggressively sucked off by the Winter Soldier.

Minifill: Sex in the mindwipe chair

(Anonymous) 2015-10-18 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
Here's a double-drabble minifill for you.

Sweat-soaked leather. Antiseptic. Faint copper-charcoal undertone of seared skin. He shivers: memory of being pushed back, strapped down. His spine twinges, skin prickling. The rest of him remains unerringly still.

Counterpoint to the animalistic thrashing of the body in the chair. Mess of flesh, blood, fear. Weakness. Barnes’ lip curls, nostrils flaring. The acrid scent of terror spills, overwhelming, into the small room.

“Please,” quavers the meatsack.

A grin splits Barnes’ face, mouth bowing as if tugged by strings. Independently animated.

“Let’s have some fun,” he says, straddling the begging bag of bones. Voice like sparking current. A live wire running right up out of the center of him, grounded in the sweat of his target’s clammy skin.

The khaki at Rumlow’s crotch darkens before Barnes rips it aside. The chair’s whole frame rattles but holds fast. Barnes wonders if he ever spit and cursed as Rumlow does now. He only remembers silence, submission. Knowing the futility of resistance.

Rumlow’s cock is soft, a fragile flaccid smudge inside the reticulated metal of his fist. “You’re going to come for me,” he states. A thin whine parts Rumlow’s cracked lips. “Once for every time I was wiped.”

Barnes squeezes. Rumlow screams.

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Deserumed Steve/Rumlow

(Anonymous) 2015-09-09 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe post-catws, Steve gets deserumed and picked up by Rumlow and friends. I'm open to whether Steve remembers everything or gets deaged and doesn't know who Rumlow is anymore (though I do love a good gaslighting fic), but what I'd really like to see is Rumlow taking advantage of the size difference to get payback and Steve fighting back as best he can but being physically over powered and angry as hell but not able to do anything about it.

My kingdom of trash if "your Bucky" gets included or if a still-sort-of WS Bucky is involved in rescue or aftermath. Shrinkyclinks post-rape hurt comfort, basically.

Re: Deserumed Steve/Rumlow

(Anonymous) 2015-10-15 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
ugh the gaslighting abuse potential if Steve doesn't remember anything past the age he's deserumed to--Rumlow could take such advantage of him, tell him whatever he wants about what happened to Bucky or even promise that Bucky's on their side/dead/whatever.

OR the absolute helplessness if Steve does remember everything, but physically can't fight off Rumlow. Like Steve barely made it against Rumlow when he was big and had his shield, what's he going to do when Rumlow can just pin him to the floor and laugh in his face? I love all of these things, OP anon.

Rumlow/Rollins/WS hatefuck threesome

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
give me some messed up HYDRA power struggle sex a la To Build a Better world with a Rumlow and Rollins who fuck but are trying to get or keep control of Strike, with Bucky caught in the middle of it. performative violence, hurting Bucky as a proxy for the other one, trying to prove masculinity by how much they hurt Bucky, anything.

Elevator gang-rape: 'it kind of feels personal' remix

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
Steve's been working at SHIELD for two years, right? He probably knows every guy on that elevator and owes his life to half of them, or they owe their lives to him. He knows their skills, their weak spots, what they like for lunch, who he'd be sending the condolence letter to if they bought it on a mission, where most of their scars come from, what Random Goon #3 wanted to name his dog before his now-ex-girlfriend intervened.

How much worse does that make it when the elevator ambush devolves into the gangbang porno it always not-so-secretly wanted to be?

WS/Steve noncon + later Steve/Bucky h/c

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
The Winter Soldier (under orders, or confused as his programming breaks down, or Bucky acting under a trigger phrase à la 'sputnik') rapes Steve. It's brutal and painful, all the more so because they both wanted each other pre-fall but neither of them ever made a move. Later, after he's broken free of his programming and recovered his memories, Bucky avoids Steve out of shame, but Steve finds him and makes it clear that he forgives him. They strike up a reckless, ill-advised sexual relationship, which Steve probably initiates... and sooner rather than later, Steve has to nope out while they're fucking. Maybe not the first time, but the second or the third. He's furious with himself for letting it affect him, Bucky's in a guilt spiral and trying to give Steve space--so Steve, who under normal circumstances would rather have a tooth pulled than seek out comfort when he's hurting, basically tells Bucky to just shut the fuck up and hold him for a while.

Bonus if Steve nopes out due to rage, disgust, or a barely-controllable urge to struggle and fight back--something besides pure undiluted distress. Double bonus if he confesses the urge to fight back to Bucky, Bucky goes "sounds legit, go ahead and hit me," and they have fucked-up sad-angry semi-roleplay fightsex.

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I love your mind.

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Bucky's First Captivity

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
What if, when Bucky was in the isolation wing, there was delicious Hydra trash happening: raping him into submission pre-testing, or fucking him to determine his fitness as a candidate for Zola's treatment or whatever, or general degradation and humiliation in an attempt to make him more obedient: whatever, anon's not picky.

So not only is Bucky struggling with the effects of the experimentation, but also with trash aftermath. I love me some post-WS-recovery Bucky, but I don't often see Howling Commando!Bucky trying to be his brave and charming self while repressing the pain of recent trash happenings. If he tells anyone what happened to him, after all, he might get sent home.

+ If this makes Bucky's second captivity post-fall so much worse, because he knows very well what to expect
+ If post-WS, Steve feels super guilty at having not noticed despite having worked alongside Bucky so closely
+++ For anything involving the other Howlies, whether it's talking to them about what happened or NOT talking to them about what happened.

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I love this. Especially the potential of the third bonus.

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Fuckpotato or Die (tw: body horror)

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
Just the elegant simplicity of Steve being captured by HYDRA and offered a choice between raping, a now quadruple-amputee but conscious, Bucky on the operating table. Or Steve's execution will be the last thing Bucky sees before HYDRA gouge out his eyes.

And by 'HYDRA' I mean Rumlow. Because I'm all about Rumlow taunting Steve with how long he intends to keep Bucky alive, and what else he'll do to Bucky once Steve's dead.

Because who doesn't want Steve emotionally blackmailed into taking the first option - having the worst sex of both his and Bucky's lives - with Steve not being sure if he's trying to shield Bucky with his body during it or if he's keeping close to guarantee that, when Rumlow shoots him, the bullet'll pass through and kill Bucky too.

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I love this because i'm a horrible human being. Though I sort of want them to make it out alive, having to deal with the aftermath of it.

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Keep that dog on a leash, Pierce.

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
I'm easy to please. I want Pierce taking a docile and well-trained Winter Soldier to meetings on a leash. I want him to go on daily walks with his loyal hunting dog. I want him to threaten those who are even considering defying him with the idea of letting the Winter Soldier OFF that literal leash. I want the Winter Soldier's muzzle coming off and him snapping his teeth in people's faces before he nuzzles up against Pierce's leg.

It's not puppy play - the Winter Soldier doesn't need to wear puppy gear. He's just leashed and lead around and always careful to position himself below Pierce so that Pierce can see the Winter Soldier's subservience.

+ for Pierce handfeeding the Winter Soldier
++ for Pierce making the Winter Soldier sleep across the foot of his bed (after the filthy tender sex)
+++ for recover!Bucky trying some of the same mannerisms with *fill in the blank* and his partner is horrified but also popping guilt!boners all over the apartment.

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Pleeeeeeeeeeeeease. I love dog stuff.

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Hydra has scavenger hunts, bondage version

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, this makes sense in my head, but it might sound really weird outside of it.

Sometimes, HYDRA agents get tired of the whole "fightin over who gets to fuck the Soldier today" thing. So they decide to make a game of it. They put the soldier in a room/cage/whatever, and then hide a multitude of sex toys all over the base. Whoever can find a certain combination of toys first (maybe they change up the themes every week? One week medical kink, one week feminization, etc) gets awarded the key to the soldier's cell, and they can take their toys in with them when they win.

Agents can form teams if they wish, but then they have to share their time with the soldier.

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This is a smart organizational strategy, and good for team bonding. If the kink of the week is a turnoff for you, you can opt out of the hunt, so it ensures that no one player will ever dominate the rape schedule. Smart move, Hydra HR.

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(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 11:38 am (UTC)(link)
I have heard several people complain that sometimes Bucky is presented as too child-like in recovery fic, but dammit I want it in my trash.

Basically one time Bucky gets wiped a bit too thoroughly, and regresses to the cognitive level of someone who is pre-puberty.

Someone - I have a preference for Rumlow, but I'm fine with any bad guy - decides it will be fun to fuck him in this state.

What I want from this is Bucky basically not quite realizing what is happening, not really having a concept of what rape really is, while it is actually happening to him.

He wouldn't physically defend himself, he'd cry, he'd beg - but of course he's still a grown-ass man, and his abuser finds this terribly funny and mocks him for it.

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-if Bucky is genuinely horrified that a man "naughty bits" can go up your ass and mouth, and does not remember having sex before, consensual or otherwise.

- Bucky keeps saying it hurts and cries begging them to stop.

- His abuser(s) get(s) into it, and call him "little boy"

- If he's actually given a stuffed toy to hold while being raped (and they mock him for it, but he genuinely clings to it for dear life)

- If he tries to suck his thumb for comfort, but this is incentive to stick a cock in his mouth.

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The Alexander Pierce Should Have Died Slower series by Lauralot on AO3 is right up this alley if you haven't read it yet. It also includes creepy 'daddy' Pierce and a whole lot of post CATWS recovery centered fics.

http://archiveofourown.org/series/114886

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Bucky gets raped while being forced to watch a newsreel of Steve crashing into the ice on repeat.

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What it says on the tin.

Bucky, in his early days of captivity, while still knowing who he is, gets raped while news of Steve's death is being projected on screen. This is his first time getting raped (I prefer it to by multiple abusers, and brutally at that - but I'm open to other things). This rape is basically hammering down the point no-one will come save him, and that he's theirs now. Bonus points if he cries during, from both sorrow and pain.

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This is so horrible and twisted, it's actually a good torture concept

insecurity trash

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Is sweet but trashy a thing? Because I'm dying for a fic where Bucky and Steve both want to be involved, and the only thing holding them back is the deep, deep insecurity that's part and parcel of Bucky's rape trauma. He's used up, he's disgusting, he's scarred, it would be wrong to inflict himself on Steve, he's scared Steve will look at his body the way he does, as a thing other people have used, he's scared that he'll be broken in bed somehow (from flashbacks to sexual behavior learned from repeated rape) and what will Steve think then?

If anyone wants to fill this, you can add as much fucked up stuff for Bucky to feel insecure about as your trashy heart desires. But on top of the pain, it would also be great to have Steve trying his best to help Bucky through this, maybe being really patient and reassuring once he realizes what the problem is, and finally being loving and tender in bed.

(it's also cool if at first Steve doesn't understand Bucky's issues and hurts his feelings accidentally, I love pain)

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This corner of the dumpster is my hoooome. All the shame and pain and lingering damage and eventual recovery, yes please!

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the awkwardness of strangers/acquaintances knowing

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 07:47 pm (UTC)(link)
My overflowing trash bin for a situation where it's common knowledge -- like, public -- that Bucky was subjected to horrendous and repeated sexual abuses in captivity. The public could also be aware of his difficulties with trauma, either through a trial situation or a leak. So imagine Bucky in this kind of milieu having to deal with the fact that not only does everyone recognize certain behaviors of his as trauma symptoms, but they know the abuses they stem from. When he firmly rejects a prostate exam, the doctor knows why. When he's at an event and has to ask a friendly attendee not to touch him, she knows why. The looks of pity, the awkwardness as people try not to interact with him like they don't know such horrible intimate details, and sometimes the invasive questions.

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There's a series on AO3 where Bucky turns little sometimes but there was a televised trial and basically everyone knows exactly like this and it's awful and makes for painful great reading. I would love to see more of this kind of thing!

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(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
My trashy brain would love a fic where the Winter Soldier was used as a test subject when the U.S. gov was experimenting with mental depatterning treatment to break/brainwash enemy soldiers. Or maybe it's right after CAWTSr and it's Hydra's last attempt to keep Bucky under their control.

So they do the whole nine yards: long term sensory deprivation, electro shock treatment, induced coma in order to break Bucky down to a completely clean slate. Bonus if the fic includes the re-mothering part of the process as they try to raise a perfect assassin.

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I am intrigued. What is re-mothering?

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Sam/Rumlow sex pollen

(Anonymous) 2015-09-10 11:33 pm (UTC)(link)
On the hunt for Bucky, while Steve is busy with Ultron, Sam runs into Rumlow who is also looking for Bucky, and they get sex pollen'd together. Violent, bitey horrible hatesex ensues. Anon does not care who does what.
+Rumlow telling Sam what Hydra used to do to Bucky while they're fucking and Sam hating it but getting off anyway
++Bucky hears or otherwise knows what happens, assumes it was either consensual or as fucked up as what happened to him, and the aftermath trash

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self-harm

(Anonymous) 2015-09-11 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
Anything to do with the conceit of self-harm being the only way Bucky knows to distract himself from traumatic thoughts and feelings. Cutting, pinching at himself, subtly digging his fingernails into his palm when he's with company, anything. And then what? Do the wounds heal so well and so quickly no one would ever know -- but maybe he wants to be found out? If he's found out, will he accept help to break himself of the habit, or is it too difficult, or is he defensive? Does it make people worry he's a suicide risk? anythiiiing

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trash past discovered in the middle of sex

(Anonymous) 2015-09-11 11:13 am (UTC)(link)
Steve and Bucky are in a relationship, but Bucky has been hiding his trash past (anywhere from lies of omission to active reassurances that no, Steve, nothing like that ever happened would work for me). Then the truth comes out. And it comes out in the middle of sex, when something Steve does triggers Bucky so badly that there's no denying what's happened and why.

My trash wish is for them to then keep right on fucking. Bucky's still shaking, Steve is reeling, but you know what, to get dressed and talk it out like your average person, that would be admitting defeat.

+ if they have the conversation about what happened to Bucky right there while fucking, so it's 50% actual gauging of the situation and 50% fucked up dirty talk

+ kind of intense and messed up emotional dynamics, like they're freaked out and angry and hurting but they also love each other and want to be there for each other and they're turned on, and so if anyone can write rough-but-intimate-and-tender fucking this is what I dream of

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post-orgasm torture

(Anonymous) 2015-09-11 09:19 pm (UTC)(link)
You're Hydra. You have this excellent specimen in your custody-- he's strong, pretty, and his body assimilates your serums beautifully. Unfortunately, he won't do what you say, and the stronger he gets, the more of a problem that becomes. So you torture him as much as you possibly can. The trouble is that eventually, he gets used to torture; he learns how to go away in his head and just take it without reacting. Obviously, since you're trying to make yourself a compliant asset, this doesn't help you very much. You have to find a new way to make him hurt. How do you do that, you wonder?

Well, first you totally shock him by going down on him. Haha, bet he didn't see a *blowjob* coming! Then, when he's still in shock at his own orgasm-- he probably forgot what pleasure feels like-- you pull out the (insert torture implement here) and go to town on his cock and balls. Finally, sit back and enjoy as he screams at even the gentlest touch to his *incredibly oversensitive* flesh.

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SECONDED SO HARD
THIS IS EVERYTHING I WANT FROM LIFE.

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(Anonymous) 2015-09-11 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
You know what kind of rotting trash I always need more of? HYDRA messing up the whole team by targeting their heart and soul Sam Wilson.

Some vengeful HYDRA agent (Rollins, Rumlow, OC) lies low until he (or she) can get Bucky and Sam alone. Then he (or she) takes control of Bucky's actions with some Sputnik-y code and forces him to rape Sam. Maybe the agent just watches like it's no big deal, or maybe they get involved. (This being Rumlow, who blames Sam for him not getting to Pierce in time, would be great, but it's not key.)

And then, implied or dwelled on, the fallout. Bucky's been raped too but is a guilty wreck. Steve blames himself for them being alone together in the first place. Natasha blames herself for not anticipating the code/that HYDRA would go to rape. (I can't think of why Fury or Sharon Carter would catch the guilt bug but if anyone else can please fil in the blank LOL.) And the guy who'd usually make them laugh and go for a run or eat pancakes until they feel better is a flinching mess.

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oh my god, the recovery trash. Bucky would feel terrible, because doesn't it just prove that he should never have come in from the cold in the first place, he's a danger to everyone around him. And Sam of course would know that it wasn't really Bucky, but wouldn't that make being around him that much worse, because how could Sam ever be truly sure that it wouldn't happen again?

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(Anonymous) 2015-09-12 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
So, I just realized how hot dogshaming it would be if it done to people, but it turns out googling "dogshaming but with people" doesn't yield a bunch of porn like I was hoping. Then I was thinking of circumstances for this and I thought of the Winter Soldier!

Idea:

1)WS does something weird and annoying to his handlers (but probably quite reasonable and sad in his fucked-up, trauma-ridden brain)--for some reason I'm partial to it being animalistic or a fucked up attempt at trying to show or get affection--like hoarding objects or food, hurting himself or wetting himself to get medical attention/cleaned up. Or maybe it's that his old personality/memories resurface in response to certain things that remind him of things or people from his old life. Whatever it is, it's inconvenient and annoying, but funny, to his handlers.

2)To inform other Hydra employees about these issues, they take dogshaming-esque pictures of him holding signs they've written describing his behavior, like, "I will eat napkins because I think they're food," or, "I wet myself for attention, but if you hit me with a cattle prod I won't do it again." Or maybe they record a video of him saying these things. He may not even understand what he's talking about or that this is embarrassing, but that's part of the joke for them.

= profit?

If anyone is with me on this, more ideas on this concept are EXTREMELY welcome.

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I am with you and would like to suggest that Steve conveniently find a pile of these photos in a Hydra nest somewhere. I would also like to suggest that in some of them - perhaps with the particularly ridiculous and heartbreaker signs - Bucky is smiling - either because he's been told to do so or because the handlers around him are smiling and he's mirroring them since this is something where people are paying attention to him without hurting him and he'd like it to continue.

"I collect my targets' ears."

"I kicked Murphy in the face when getting my toenails cut."

"I cry during enemas."

"I can't tell the difference between a houseplant and a salad bar." (Like with the napkins, I have such a weird thing for the WS unwittingly eating gross or non-food items - it's just so desperately pathetic).

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Bucky never broke

(Anonymous) 2015-09-12 08:41 am (UTC)(link)
Bucky has been aware for the entire 70 years before CA-TWS. The chair doesn't wipe his mind, it disconnects his mind from his body, leaving an empty body for Hydra to pour orders into. The effects only last for a certain amount of time (why he started to recognize Steve at times, because the effects were wearing off), so they have to keep "wiping" him, which only happens on missions.

However, the other 80 percent of his time, Bucky's back in his body, stuck as a POW. It's hell. When he's in control of his body, they're either cryofreezing him, leaving him in solitary confinement to wait for the next mission, or raping/torturing him for kicks. Give me all the despairing, angsty Bucky who's still trying to hold onto hope after all these years, yet knows deep down that there's no escape.

+Bucky coming back to awareness with blood all over him, being hosed off by technicians and knowing he must've just killed someone

++Hydra agents loving it when he fights them during a rape, especially when he can't help but cry from the sheer hopelessness of it all

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Yes, give me all of the Bucky angst. Moldy mushrooms and used napkins to anyone who tackles this.

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Just read a non-trash work that included kind of a throwaway line about how Bucky probably hadn't orgasmed in 70 years.

And while classic trash often involves him being forced to orgasm during rape and then being shamed for it, I am now fascinated by the idea that not only has no one touched him in a way meant to get him off, he hasn't even been allowed to get himself off IF IT EVEN OCCURED TO HIM TO TRY in all that time.

Just think: he's literally never alone and people are always hurting him. Otherwise he's being monitored (in the field) or in cryo. During his missions, he barely has room for processing physical sensation - pain doesn't stop him because he doesn't really register it but that means he's also disconnected from the possibility of pleasure.

This could be a variant of Bucky's Broken Dick, where he's essentially been impotent for 70 years - or even longer since maybe he was struggling after Steve rescued him and he/they thought they'd have time for Bucky to "get over it" one day. But it could also be just the regular result of Hydra stealing sexual pleasure away from Bucky, too. Maybe they chemically castrate him, especially when he's going to be awake for any longer than a day or so in order to prevent him from feeling sexual interest at all.

And once he's in from the cold and the chemicals are out of his system, perhaps he's having these dreams that leave him waking up in a wet spot but he can't remember what they're about and everyone is still too careful about touching him because they think it's important to give him his space.

Alternate scenario: maybe he's not even having wet dreams - maybe his first orgasm after all this time is at the hands of *fill in the blank* because they are trying a relationship and it's painful enough that Bucky isn't sure he wants to do that again.

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Natasha is Bucky's rape baby

(Anonymous) 2015-09-13 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
What it says up top. Either Hydra pimped out the Winter Soldier to the Red Room as part of a supersoldier breeding program, or Nat is the result of a female agent's dalliance with the Soldier, and Hydra sold the baby. Nat doesn't know her origins; Bucky never knew what became of his baby. They find out the truth together in the present day from some recovered files.

I am aaall about the awkwardness and pain and weird family feelings that would ensue. How would Natasha, who is so kind and grounded but still wrestles with her identity and history, take this as a new part of her story? How would she feel knowing this traumatized sort-of-friend is her biological father, and would she worry she had become just another reminder of his trauma? On Bucky's part, would that be true? Or is there sweetness to be found here as well?

+ even if we're going the breeding program route, Bucky's semen wasn't extracted medically, or at least not exclusively. I'd prefer for Natasha to be the result of a sexual rape

+ for that matter, the more horrific and traumatizing that rape was, the better. If there are details or terrible implications about what a nightmare Bucky experienced in the files, available for Nat's reading pleasure, that would also be great

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ouuuuch, the sheer emotional pain for Natasha is awful/wonderful! how is anyone supposed to cope with the thought "my very existence is the result of a disgusting, violating, abusive act"?

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bloodplay, humiliation, rape

(Anonymous) 2015-09-13 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
When Hydra was raping/torturing Bucky, they liked adding insult to injury by carving the names they'd call him into his skin.

So maybe they'd carve "filthy whore" on his chest, or "cocksucker" on his cheek.

Maybe other stuff, too, like "insert cock here" on his lower back with an arrow pointing down. Really, the filthier the better.

The serum would make it fade, in a few days, but he'd have it on his body long enough for it to make him feel dirty, and to remind him of his rapes for days on end.

Also possible aftermath where Bucky still feels like those words are visible on his skin, even though his skin is unblemished in that way, and just can't scrub clean. He thinks everyone will be able to see he's a dirty whore by just looking at him.

Bonus if one of the guys doing that carving/raping is Rumlow.

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I want this to be filled so badly.

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Tainted Touch (a.k.a. Bucky's broken dick, Natasha strapon version.)

(Anonymous) 2015-09-13 11:43 am (UTC)(link)
Hey, I hope this is allowed, but I was filling this prompt on Round 2, but I see Round 2 is already barely getting updated. I still have quite a lot to go, so I thought I'd move it here so it doesn't tumblr into oblivion.

This is the original prompt, I have no idea if the OP of it is still around - but hey, I'm having fun with it:

Because decades of man-on-man Hydra rapes, Bucky basically can't get it up with a woman anymore, certainly not if he's expected to be the more active party. He can't get hard during a blowjob, he can't stay erect long enough to actually have intercourse.

He wants to, he tries, but he just can't. The more he tries, the more he can't, of course.

He suspects he might still get gratification from being fucked and humiliated during sex, and in a moment of desperation he ends up asking Nat for help.

Basically he suspects he might need to be dominated, fucked hard with a strapon, maybe be slapped around some and be called names and humiliated.

Nat is sort of cool with that, she's not squeamish about sex, but Bucky is still incredibly embarrassed and full of guilt about needing this (and also remembers penetration being brutal and painful, so he's scared), which causes it to fail at first, too, causing even more angst.

Give me all the angst and tears and emotional pain of trying to make this work. Give me all the embarassment, guilt and feelings of inadequacy on Bucky's end. Physically, it gets him off, emotionally it wrecks him.

Bonus round 1: This starts out as somewhat of a business transaction where Nat sort of sees herself doing therapy for him, but they end up developing genuine, deep feelings for each other, causing it to be harder on both of them.

Bonus round 2: Especially the humiliation part becomes hard on Nat, especially realizing this has actually been done to him. Progressively worse top drop on her end would be glorious. Extra bonus if she actually enjoys fucking him, but feels guilty.

Bonus round 3: Falling in love with Bucky in earnest also brings up feelings of hurt in relation to her infertility. I do not like how it was done in AoU, but maybe someone here can do it better. It's not like she feels like a monster because of it, but she is surprised she actually might *consider* it, but the reality of her own body and the fucked up situation makes it crazy to think it, but she things it anyway.

Bonus round 4: Bucky even-ntually desperately trying to reciprocate and trying to please Nat sexually, but failing. Nat being sad but patient.

Bonus round 5: throughout all this Bucky repeatedly relives his trauma, but he's afraid to tell her in fear she might stop, until he too finally breaks down and Nat is angry but also deeply sad.

Bonus round 6: All the weepy loving and kissing despite broken dicks.


Yeah, I thought about this way too much.

Tainted Touch 3e/?

(Anonymous) 2015-09-13 12:19 pm (UTC)(link)
So this was supposed to be the last of chapter 3, but nope, there will be one more after this.

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It turned out Max had quite the playroom underneath the shop. The shop itself now had a 'Closed' sign in front of the window, and it was just the two of them down here. The basement was filled with strange furniture that reminded Bucky of drawings of torture devices he had seen in a book as a child once.

He could see his own hand, smaller then and eager turn the pages...

No, stop.


He allowed himself one brief moment of joy for remembering something from his childhood, then tucked the memory away for later, so no more of it could be tainted by what he was about to do here.

It struck Bucky the man he was with might be a sociopath, and kill him down here. No one would ever know. So what, said a voice in his head, you get to cum or you get to die, either way you get some peace.

Bucky pulled his hood off, giving Max a good look at his face. He could tell from his expression that he was pleased.

"God, you're beautiful," Max breathed as he put his hand under Bucky's chin. Bucky responded by moving his mouth to Max' hand, taking his thumb in his mouth. He sucked it like it was a cock, bobbing his head, and felt himself react to it instantly. He made eye contact with Max while he was sucking, and saw pure unadulterated lust in the other man's eyes.

If he had ever hoped to avert this, it was too late now. He'd stay in this makeshift dungeon and let this stranger do anything to him...anything at all. And that was the intention, after all, wasn't it? To lose himself to someone's rough touches, so he could stop having to do it himself.

He sunk to his knees, still clothed, his thighs spread apart. He folded his hands behind his head, like he'd do if someone had a gun on him: a sign of surrender. He lowered his gaze, waiting for whatever was coming.

His face was now at Max' crotch level, and he could smell the arousal. He loathed it. The scent of male arousal disgusted him, but yet he felt a conditioned need he could not fight, and he knew that cock would be in his mouth soon enough, regardless of how he really felt about it.

"What do I call you, anyway?"

"My name is James. Some call me Soldier. But you can call me whatever you want, Sir."

He could see Max' bulge grow. He liked Sir, then. That would be convenient. Sir worked quite well for Bucky. He was used to it after all.

Bucky could feel calloused fingers entwine with his hair and pull at it roughly. He gasped, but didn't move from his position.

"I think I'll call you Fuckdoll, James. You look like a Fuckdoll to me."

Bucky simply looked up to him and nodded, still feeling the pull on his hair.

"So what's your safeword, Fuckdoll?"

Bucky just gave him a confused look.

"God, you are new. It's a word you use when you want me to stop what I'm doing."

"What's wrong with just 'stop'?"

"Nothing," Max said and his grip loosened slightly, "it's just that some people don't actually mean 'stop' when they say it. But they still need a way to make it stop sometimes. So they say the word. Do you understand that, James? It's important that you do."

Bucky nodded. He did understand it. And it sounded like the best idea ever.

"Pierce," he managed. "My word is Pierce."

Max' grip on his hair tightened again.

"Good boy. You'll learning fast. I'll go easy on you."

"Please don't, Sir."

Max released his grip on his hair, and then Bucky was backhanded unexpectedly. It wasn't really that hard, but the surprise made him cry out.

"Did you just talk back to me, Fuckdoll?"

"Yes," Bucky spat.

"Max' hand landed on the other side of his face. This time it actually stung. Bucky's eyes teared up, more from humiliation than pain, but he looked at Max defiantly.

"Now whatever made you think that was a good idea?" Max asked as he forced Bucky's face up to look at him.

"I don't want you to go easy on me, Sir. " Bucky replied, despite watering eyes. "I can take it hard. I need it hard."

Bucky couldn't believe the words coming out of his own mouth, but yet there they were, spoken in desperation, driven by pure physical need. He didn't care anymore. He'd let this man abuse him in any damn way he pleased it if would lead to an orgasm.

Max released his grip fully.

"Strip," he ordered, and Bucky did so. It was a clumsy process, trying to do it kneeling down, but he managed.

Once naked, he covered his left shoulder with his right hand - a strange, almost chaste gesture. Max was unsurprisingly taken back by the sight of a metal arm, but to his credit he didn't look put off by it. There was a softening in his demeanor even through his arousal, and Bucky thought he should probably act fast as he could, before it devolved into pity. Because really, pity was not something he could work with here.

"Hence the Soldier," he explained - and lied, but only by omission. "I'm ex-military. Let's not talk about it." Then, realizing he was being forceful while he was supposed to be submissive, he added: "Please, Sir. It ruins the mood".

Bucky felt calloused fingers stroke his hair and then his cheek. The gentleness of it surprised him.

"It's okay, kid. I don't need to know. I can make you get out of your head if you need to."

Bucky leaned into the soft touch. A part of him - a part that ran deeper than the arousal and the anger - wanted to be touched like that forever. He longed for someone's arms around him, cherishing him, telling his it's going to be okay. Only it was not okay. It was never going to be okay again . And who was going to love him if this was he only way...the only way he could...

He swallowed a sob.

"Thank you, Sir."

Max' hand tightened around Bucky's hair again. He closed his eyes. He could hear the sound of pants being unbuttoned and a zipper opening. The sound itself was enough to bring shivers down his spine. It had been ingrained in his memory over decades, and no amount of wiping his brain could remove it. It meant there was no escape for him. The inevitable would soon happen. He'd be fucked in any way the other man deemed fitting.

Bucky could smell the muskiness when Max' cock sprung free from its pants. He opened his eyes again. Max's erection was barely an inch removed from his lips. The man was thick and large. This was going to be unpleasant.

Good.

"Do you want my cock, Fuckdoll?" the man standing over him asked.

"No, Sir," he replied truthfully, "but that's sort of the point."

That was the last thing he could say before a cock was shoved in his mouth, and down his throat.

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