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garbage all the way down ([personal profile] trashmod) wrote in [community profile] hydratrashmeme2014-05-30 05:23 pm

Trash Party Dumpster #1

(Will be continued in a Dumpster #2 post if by some unholy hell-miracle this post hits the 5000-comment limit.)

Filthy anon dumpster for sad hobos to fling moldy pizza crusts, raccoon eye makeup tips, and garbage about their sad trash kinks at each other.

AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. One hundred percent Hydra Party Favor Bucky Barnes, Is It Sexy Violence Or Violent Sex?, and Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves: Winter Soldier Edition. BLANKET NON-CON/DUB-CON WARNING, not safe for work, not safe for life, not safe for anyone, read at your own risk of becoming one of us.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, etc. are off-topic.

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Rumlow pretends he's Steve while raping the asset

(Anonymous) 2014-09-29 03:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Rumlow has a serious thing for Cap, but he doesn't want him. He wants to be him.

The closest he can come is fucking Bucky.

I'm not looking for Rumlow trying to convince the Soldier that he's actually Steve, though maybe he orders the Soldier to do things that play into his own fantasy. He's just getting off on the roleplay.

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not OP, but my mind immediately went to the oh so convenient face disguiser mask thing that Natasha used to be the old lady...

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WS is terrified of hurting his handlers. This includes Steve.

(Anonymous) 2014-09-29 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Way back when the soldier was first undergoing conditioning/programming by Hydra, they taught him that Handlers Are Not To Be Harmed. Any violation of this rule resulted in pain and humiliation so severe that he could never forget it, despite the wipes.

So when the Soldier accidentally hurts a handler in even the most minor of ways (steps on their foot, knocks their shoulder during a transport, etc.), he reacts with immediate fear (pleads, shakes, maybe even pisses himself, whatever you want). Hydra doesn't get rid of his instinctive response because it ensures the safety of their handlers.

Later when Bucky is reunited with Steve, he and the Avengers think he's doing a lot better. He's made progress in recovery and starting to act like a human being again. Then one day he accidentally hurts Steve and his fear response kicks in, showing that he still thinks of Steve as his handler.

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STRIKE/WS Nice Guy douchebaggery

(Anonymous) 2014-09-30 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Phrasing orders for WS to perform sex acts as questions and statements ("I know you want it"). Giving WS things he has no capacity to want or ask for (cigarettes, coffee, candy) and pestering him for sex in return. Checking WS for injuries during a mission becoming an excuse to grope and kiss him ("one thing lead to another").

WS being permanently stuck in the 'sharing a room with one bed' situation. And no matter how embarrassed about it the other person pretends to be, the only question is whether they expect to have sex with WS before they sleep, if they wake him for it later, or both.

And doing all of this while taking advantage of WS's memory wipes in a "we had a thing together" way.

Of course, STRIKE make a competition out of it and compare notes: Number of orgasms (with the STRIKE women racking up unbeatable high scores), fastest time for getting WS naked, filthiest thing they've made WS do, if WS cried before or afterwards, whether they got WS to do 'that thing' he always does, did they get WS to say "I love you", points for douchey moves graded by difficulty or subtlety.

Meanwhile, WS always feels uncomfortable, embarrassed, and tricked into a cycle of gratitude and shame that the wipes can't completely eliminate. Basically, STRIKE've found the nerve that runs straight through WS's programming to Bucky Barnes' good nature and are exploiting it.

tl;dr

I just want WS trembling, and on the verge of crying, while drinking coffee, because he knows what'll happen next. Deep down, in his heart and banks of suppressed memories, WS just KNOWS he's going to have to pay for the kindness in ways that make him feel sick, dirty and used.

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*pastes moldy gingerbread cookie star on prompt using a half-eaten bit of chewy marzipan*

This is terrible and wonderful and needs to happen.

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Bucky/Pierce, naptime means lep time!

(Anonymous) 2014-09-30 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Pierce permitting the Asset to doze with his head resting on Pierce's lap.

Advantages: there's no greater demonstration of power for Pierce than having a nonagenarian super-assassin asleep on his knee, hair-petting (very creepy hair-petting), nonagenarian super-assassins are lower maintenance than pedigree Persian cats.

Disadvantages: power is an aphrodisiac, tears (and other bodily fluids) are incompatible with bespoke tailoring, nonagenarian super-assassins sometimes pretend to be asleep so they won't have to deal with Pierce's hard-on.

Yeah, I'll take hair-pulling and Pierce grinding his crotch in Bucky's face for 500, Alex.

Unprompted Fill: Kill, Repeat [German]

(Anonymous) 2014-10-01 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
Not sure if this is the right place but saw to other unprompted fill-links here. If any of you speak German, this is on AO3 and the first half is basically 100% Hydra Trash Party compatible.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1742663

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Woah, love your Winter Soldier, I seldom read stories where he's such a perfect mix of dangerous and vulnerable!

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WS not actually gay but conditioned to love gay sex

(Anonymous) 2014-10-01 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Bucky wasn't attracted to men before he was captured by Hydra. During his time as the WS, he was used as a sex toy during his time with Hydra, mostly by men who fucked him in every way imaginable. He learns to enjoy it, mostly as a coping mechanism. After he escapes from hydra and recovers in the company of SHIELD, he becomes close to Steve. Steve was always attracted to Bucky, and Bucky imprints on him, wanting to pleasure him sexually. Steve resists for a long time, until Bucky seems more or less recovered, and then they start a sexual relationship which quickly becomes overshadowed and twisted by the fact that Bucky was never attracted to men to begin with.

Hydra husbands - Rollins Tops.

(Anonymous) 2014-10-02 01:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I' just love to see Rollins topping Rumlow, thanks in advance

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There were plenty of rp threads of that on tumblr...

It's not over yet (More love for the scientists)

(Anonymous) 2014-10-02 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
When the Strike team returns the asset for cleanup and cryo after they're done with him, the scientists secretly throw their own party.

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Not OP, but +100 if you add Brubaker.

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Someone had to teach him how to give great head.

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You mean teach him like have him practice a lot or like demonstrate? :)

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Daily Recommended Value

(Anonymous) 2014-10-02 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Pierce gives the Soldier milk. In a bowl on the floor. That he has to lap up like a dog.

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Bucky kills Steve

(Anonymous) 2014-10-02 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Meme, is there any fic where Bucky ends up killing Steve on the helicarrier? If not, does anybody want to write one? For some reason I'd really love to read memory-recovery trauma in this scenario.

Re: Bucky kills Steve

(Anonymous) 2014-10-09 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
Hope this is close-ish to what you wanted. :3

http://archiveofourown.org/works/2428337

Winter Soldier/other, rubber/latex fetish

(Anonymous) 2014-10-03 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
The Winter Soldier uniform is the stuff of fetish wet dreams: all black, leather, boots, straps, fingerless gloves, THE MUZZLE.

I'd like to take it a step further and have Hydra Employee of Your Choice (literally ANYONE, from Pierce to STRIKE team member to Ed Brubaker cryogenics and brainwashing technician no. 2) utilizing the asset for their latex/rubber/PVC kink. They dress him in the garments they had custom-made to his measurements, put the muzzle on him, make him pose while they drag their hands all over the texture that covers yet displays his body. Maybe they fuck him and take pictures too (and maybe upload them to the internet and Steve finds them later lol).

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this muzzle thing is confusing the hell out of me. are we talking about the teflon mask? is there some earlier fic i missed where we decided that there was a muzzling component inside of it? if there is, someone please link me!

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Bucky + badwrong + food or lack thereof

(Anonymous) 2014-10-03 10:05 am (UTC)(link)
trash party, i want some bucky with food issues and i hope you do too!

i have considered

- hydra starving him to test his capacity, then gangbanging him when the super-metabolism makes him weak, and promising him they'll feed him if he stays conscious throughout

- the winter soldier being programmed to only eat in a specific way (on his knees, from a plate on the floor, from rumlow's hand) and now he doesn't understand why steve keeps making him sit at a table and putting food in front of him. is it a test?

- the winter soldier being programmed to punish himself for things like eating or drinking without permission, so they put food in front of him and he has to figure out if he's hungry enough for it to be worth putting a knife through his hand afterward etc.

idec if this turns into a fill or if people just want to discuss their trashy food-related bucky feels, i'm here for it.

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(Anonymous) 2014-10-03 11:06 am (UTC)(link)
Ugh yes.
Trashy food headcanon: the Winter Soldier's senses are enhanced, so while he's lockend into the basement of some safe house, he can hear them chew and smell their food and he doesn't understand what's happening to him.

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winter soldier as a rapist

(Anonymous) 2014-10-03 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
its not like he has a conscience anymore. he murders anyone they tell him to. he doesnt really see other people as actual people, just a means to an end-- mostly, the target he must eliminate to complete his mission.

sometimes, if he did particularly well on a mission and hasnt acted out in a long time, they reward him with kind words or a good meal or a warm shower. sometimes, informally, a strike member will give him a cigarette or allow him in on the card game.

and this time, when theyve got a prisoner that the winter soldier has been eyeing, they let him have her.

winter soldier rapes a prisoner, considering her his reward as opposed to a person, and violently/roughly shuts down any resistence. bonus where a post-catws recovering bucky is absolutely horrified with himself and acts strangely around women

party favors: the gift that keeps on giving

(Anonymous) 2014-10-03 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
There's already an amazing fill for a prompt very much like this, but I am greedy and want more. So.

Post-CATWS. Bucky and Steve are an item, but Bucky's time as a Hydra party favor left him basically unable to get it up unless he's being hurt, humiliated, or otherwise degraded. Steve is so very, very not on board with doing that, but Bucky's alternate suggestion -- that Steve can just make love to him how he likes and Bucky doesn't mind never getting off, he swears -- is also a no-go.

All the sadtrashywrong shame, self-hate, etc., on both their parts.

Bonus: they're captured by some Hydra-affiliated bad guy who reenacts the good old days on Bucky in front of Steve. Bucky gets off and hates himself for it.

Extra bonus: relationship fallout then ensues.

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Aw yes, esp the first bonus!!

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Bucky secretly hates Steve

(Anonymous) 2014-10-04 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
If there is anything that matches this dynamic already please let me know....

Bucky hasn't fully recovered his memories. Perhaps they are coming back slowly as time goes on. As they creep in something slowly dawns on Bucky... that if it weren't for Steve he might have gone home after he was recovered the first time from Zola's lab in WW2. See, Bucky was offered a discharge, but he didn't take it so he could stay and watch Steve's back. Steve's also reached the same conclusion about the discharge, but keeps this horrible guilt to himself, like a sword of democles hanging over him. He doesn't think that Bucky remembers any of that, and is afraid that it might fuck with Bucky's recovery. They just don't talk about it. So as Bucky pieces the memories together he keeps this new knowledge to himself. Perhaps all the cruelty at the hands of Hydra warps and twists these thoughts around in his mind, so much so that he starts to feel like he should be punishing Steve, as Hydra punished him when he did something bad. Things escalate.

What I really want is the dynamic where Bucky grows to hate steve as he recovers his memories, yet Steve is blind to it for reasons of guilt. They could be in a sexual relationship already so Steve just thinks Bucky's growing kink list is an outcome of the therapy sessions (that Bucky secretly doesn't go to anymore), and perhaps if sometimes things get a bit out of hand that's ok, it's just Bucky re-asserting his agency. Bucky didn't mean to leave him naked and tied up and gagged for 5 hours, he was just lost in his own thoughts. What does Steve mind if he never seem to get-off much anymore, the focus should be on Bucky. Sure it's humiliating to have a plug in for 12 hours, but there's got to be a reason Bucky asked him not wash himself....I'm open to most flavors of humiliation.

Bonus points - Maybe other people around them observe some signs that not all is quite right.

(frozen comment) Some Happy Thoughts 4 Bucky Lovers. You're Welcome.

(Anonymous) 2014-10-04 05:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I had an emotional trauma recently and since the cause of it is totally relevant to this meme's interests, I thought I would share, because, you know, misery loves company.

Basically, I had reason to do some learning stuff about WWll serial numbers, by which I mean, the numbers that soldiers were given to identify themselves with. I wanted to know what Steve's number would be, but I found several different numbers and none of them came from a source that could cite any reason they should be trusted. So I decided to make up a number for him, but I wanted it to be a realistic one. How do you do that? Turns out there's a WWll serial number generator on an old fansite devoted to Hogan's Heroes, and all you need to do is put in the state the person is from, the year they enlisted, and whether they were a doctor or an officer or whatever. Also, you have to put in whether they were a draftee or a volunteer.

For the state of New York, draftee serial numbers start with 32. All of them. Volunteer numbers start with 12. Do you guys see where I'm going with this? Everyone remembers the ultra-romantic rescue scene from First Avenger, where Bucky's laying there, reciting his serial number when Steve comes and gets him like a princess locked in a tower. Bucky's interrupted before he can finish but you hear the first five digits of his eight digit serial number - 32557... so he was drafted.

This is actually a super-cool, super-real, absolutely canon easter egg because if they didn't give a fuck, they would have skipped it or given him any random number they could pull out of their asses. And another thing - who gets drafted and immediately made sergeant? No one. So when Bucky finds Steve in the alley and punches random asshole dude and then kicks him in the butt and then they're alone and Steve looks at him and says "You get your orders?" and Bucky says something along the lines of, "Yeah, Sergeant James Barnes. One-o-seventh. Shipping out to England first thing tomorrow morning." that's entirely fucking bullshit. He's not a sergeant, he's not even a volunteer. He may have become one, because his marksman talents are so rad, but that was much much later.

My headcanon (and I'm fairly sure I share it with many of you) is that Bucky has saved Steve from several ass-kicking events as they've grown up as best friends. When your best friend is a skinny asthmatic nerd with brontosaurus balls you sort of expect to get into a lot of fights, especially in 1930s Brooklyn. But it's easy to overcome the sort of shitheads that would regularly attack Steve, so Bucky would have lots of reasons to feel like Mr. Hero.

And who wouldn't love that feeling? Not only love it, but base their entire sense of self-worth on it. Especially if you're like me (scared of dying) and then a horrifying war comes and your balls-out little friend wants to join even though he can't, meanwhile you're a healthy candidate scared shitless of the horrors of war because you're thinking straight and have that weird thing called "a sense of self-preservation."

I've reviewed the movie as many times as you guys have, and there's totally this sense that Bucky JOINED the war when he never did. His cute little ass was drafted.

All right, this is where it hurts - Bucky goes to war and lets Steve think that he volunteered, because he's supposed to be the big hero who isn't afraid of the bad guy. But, it turns out that Bucky's pretty good at war (marksmanship)even though he can't keep himself from being held down, poked at, and injected by creepy nazis.

So... Steve saves him. Can you imagine? The little tiny friend that you always saved, the reason you felt good about yourself, saving you. And not only that, since he's in the army too and since he probably heard your ass babbling when he came to rescue you he knows that you lied about "enlisting."

So from that perspective, the whole "No! Not without you!" scene makes more sense. At first we're like, seriously find a way to save your life, it's not like standing at the rail and being really cute is going to help Steve in any way, but now I see that Bucky absolutely refuses to do anything that would let Steve think he's a coward. He would, quite literally, rather die than look like a wienie. To Steve.

Bucky's entire self-esteem is wrapped up in the way Steve views him and he never gets that Steve will love him no matter what. Also, his insecurity is compounded with the guilt about lying over the draft and the fact that he's been found out and the fact that he was never brave enough to actually enlist like Steve did and making up some weird bullshit about being a sergeant.

He'll spend the rest of the movie almost trying to get himself killed honorably and then he manages to fuck that up too. This character is so beautiful and tragic I just can't...

Okay. have a good weekend guys.

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Well, fuck you too.


*sob*

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Just the tip, Rumlow/Rollins or Rumlow/WS

(Anonymous) 2014-10-04 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
This is taken directly from tumblr, but this trope is so hot:

"If there’s all this promising like “We can’t! We can’t do it!” and all this reason why it can’t happen. And the reader buys it.

And then there’s this slow, almost coercive making out where both want to but CAN’T, yet they keep shoving through boundaries anyway like, as long as we have our clothes on, it’ll be fine!

And then their clothes start getting tugged off between teeth and trembling hands and their making out gets rougher, more desperate. And then it’s like, as long as your dick doesn’t slip anywhere between my legs, it’ll be ok—and then all the sudden, there’s intercrural sex with mouths panting together and hips moving like it’s penetration, flexing strongly, frustrated.

And then like…DEEP, HARDCORE, INSTINCT-DRIVEN, SURPRISE!DICKING, all dubcon and frantic, with wide-eyed shock like, oh god we were just playing, how did your dick suddenly sink so deep inside me??"

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yes please

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I know you have random trashy ideas or headcanons that aren't developed enough to be actual prompts. Put them here.

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from earlier in the meme: someone gives the WS glue and tells him it's lube.

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trashy, trashy dirty talk

(Anonymous) 2014-10-05 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
I'm kind of laughing now because with all the gross trash kinks in that Steve-gets-gangbanged fill, the one I was not expecting to hit me like a freight train? Steve narrating the whole thing back to Sam in the middle of frantic handjobs. Hello, kink I did not know I had.

Please, please give me more of this. Post-Hydra-trash-noncon Steve (or Bucky, if it's easier to make that work) talking about what was done to him in filthy, graphic, disturbing detail during sex. Maybe even asking his partner to act it out on him. Not because he liked it or is okay with it, but because he gets a reckless thrill out of engaging with the memories like this or it's a way to cope with the fact that there was physical pleasure involved at the time. Both partners experiencing some combination of arousal, disgust, burning shame at how hot it is, realization that the sheer wrongness is what's making it so hot, both attempting to hold back in the beginning to keep from upsetting the other, etc.

*scurries back into the deepest, darkest corner of the dumpster*

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Oooh, love this one.

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test subject

(Anonymous) 2014-10-05 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
So, that amazing gangbang fill someone just mentioned? (it starts here: http://hydratrashmeme.dreamwidth.org/587.html?thread=331083#cmt331083) They mention testing their sex pollen on the Winter Soldier.

That would be relevant to my interests.

"Remember who you are."

(Anonymous) 2014-10-05 04:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Via some sort of tesseract ex machina, or a cosmic cube, or whatever, Steve makes Bucky remember.

Everything.

Not just the things Hydra wiped, but the things his own brain was protecting him from with its grab-bag of evolutionary tricks like dissociation and repression and forgetting.

Thanks, Steve.

Bucky + Tony + learning about Bucky's issues

(Anonymous) 2014-10-05 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
One of my shameful emotional kinks is people coming to understand just how traumatized a character is. Usually, with Bucky, this is done with Steve, and I love it, except Steve's empathy is too strong, so it's not that he comes to understand that Bucky went through terrible things -- he figured that out right away. I'm interested in the exact same scenario you usually see in post-TWS fic -- Bucky goes to live with someone, and that person helps him through his recovery -- but this time it's not Steve. It's not even someone who knows or trusts or likes Bucky. Maybe this person even has very legitimate reasons to be angry with Bucky. Let's say it's Tony. What would happen if Steve had to disappear for a while, and, for whatever reason, Tony was the only person who could take Bucky? Tony's doing it as a favor to Cap, but he has serious doubts about keeping the Winter Soldier in his tower. Except now that Tony's spending so much time with Bucky, he's getting slapped in the face with the awful depths of Bucky's Hydra trash trauma. The screaming nightmares. The food issues. His inability to be touched. The way it becomes obvious that he was tortured and raped, and that he's terrified Tony's gonna do those things to him now, but he feels compelled to stay because Steve said. How he doesn't even see himself as a person. I want so much exploration of Bucky's trauma through the eyes of someone who has to learn how deep that trauma runs.

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Yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

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the arm is not enough

(Anonymous) 2014-10-05 09:12 pm (UTC)(link)
More cybernetic limbs.

I can't decide if it's betterworse as a threat held over his head ("be good or we'll take your other arm") or a reward ("be good and we'll give you another upgrade").

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*holds breath* A reward, oh god, do you want to kill me? Now I imagine him sitting there thinking "ok, that's gonna hurt, BUT"

Brock can't control himself when it comes to the Soldier's dick

(Anonymous) 2014-10-06 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
I need a fic where Brock is basically a disgusting perv who has a thing for sucking the soldier's cock. i would prefer if it's not like the soldier is regularly abused so he's really freaked out about being left alone with brock because he's scared he's going to do THAT THING and then whenever brock starts going at it he gets himself excited and then starts jerking off during it and talking dirty and at the same time he's yelling at the soldier to stop whining and making so much noise and please just make brock as pervy as possible and i want him to know what he's doing is wrong and shameful.

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I love this prompt. Overwhelmed writhing Soldier+ perving self-shame Rumlow torturing him with pleasure....

It would be wonderful from either perspective.