First off, kudos to the author of "Drinking Games" for tearing my heart into pieces :( this prompt is totally inspired by that fic and all the pain it caused me.
I'd like to see a take on suicidal!Bucky where Bucky tries to kill himself, and comes very very close to succeeding, but is ultimately saved. I want all the pain of Bucky being there in the aftermath, having to live with his own agony and be the target of Steve's. Other than that, I'm not picky. Was Bucky at a moment of crisis and he feels better now that he's survived? Is he just numb now, but he knows he could feel suicidal again? Was he not entirely in control of himself, and now he doesn't want to die but he could have an episode anytime? Is he insistent that he has to kill himself, and he's going to do it the moment he escapes the supersoldier-strength cuffs Steve has on him?
attempted suicide
I'd like to see a take on suicidal!Bucky where Bucky tries to kill himself, and comes very very close to succeeding, but is ultimately saved. I want all the pain of Bucky being there in the aftermath, having to live with his own agony and be the target of Steve's. Other than that, I'm not picky. Was Bucky at a moment of crisis and he feels better now that he's survived? Is he just numb now, but he knows he could feel suicidal again? Was he not entirely in control of himself, and now he doesn't want to die but he could have an episode anytime? Is he insistent that he has to kill himself, and he's going to do it the moment he escapes the supersoldier-strength cuffs Steve has on him?