so, kind of thinking about this post:http://advicefromsurvivors.tumblr.com/post/138906074674/being-abused-can-seriously-affect-your-ability-to going around tumblr. ("Being abused can seriously affect your ability to distinguish between “not obviously pleased” and “obviously displeased” because abusers go from Neutral to Hostile for absolutely no discernible reason, and eventually you start worrying that everyone is going to be like that and you start feeling this urge to make absolutely sure that the people you actually care about aren’t mad or upset, because to you, “there’s no evidence that they’re not angry” is the same as “there’s evidence that they are angry”")
In the CATWS vault scene, Bucky seemed pretty perceptive of Pierce's anger/Pierce's "no evidence that he's not angry". Everything about Bucky's situation takes away his ability to make a distinction between neutral and actively displeased/punishing. But on the other hand, he doesn't seem to have the ability for a wide range of fawn response--back to the vault scene, he's been so tortured and wiped that he doesn't even have the capacity to conceive of something like " please don't hurt me" or cringing before Pierce slaps him.
So, dear trash friends: if Winter Soldier Bucky is so severed from his own trauma/the ability to conceive of non-torture, but he's intensely aware of the moods of people around him, how does Winter Soldier Bucky do fawn response and try to placate the abusers around him if your classic aim-to-please is off the table? Like maybe there are some super sadistic Strike goons who go from amiable to sadism in the blink of an eye (haay Gather Ye Rosebuds Rumlow) and some who go along with it but don't initiate on their own, but Bucky has no way of differentiating between them--how does he try to please or placate or figure out emotions if he can't come right out and invite non consensual sex on his own?
idk how much sense this actually makes, but I'm in a lot of emotional pain over this post and I'd like bucky to be in a lot of pain as well.
Winter Soldier fawn response
In the CATWS vault scene, Bucky seemed pretty perceptive of Pierce's anger/Pierce's "no evidence that he's not angry". Everything about Bucky's situation takes away his ability to make a distinction between neutral and actively displeased/punishing. But on the other hand, he doesn't seem to have the ability for a wide range of fawn response--back to the vault scene, he's been so tortured and wiped that he doesn't even have the capacity to conceive of something like " please don't hurt me" or cringing before Pierce slaps him.
So, dear trash friends: if Winter Soldier Bucky is so severed from his own trauma/the ability to conceive of non-torture, but he's intensely aware of the moods of people around him, how does Winter Soldier Bucky do fawn response and try to placate the abusers around him if your classic aim-to-please is off the table? Like maybe there are some super sadistic Strike goons who go from amiable to sadism in the blink of an eye (haay Gather Ye Rosebuds Rumlow) and some who go along with it but don't initiate on their own, but Bucky has no way of differentiating between them--how does he try to please or placate or figure out emotions if he can't come right out and invite non consensual sex on his own?
idk how much sense this actually makes, but I'm in a lot of emotional pain over this post and I'd like bucky to be in a lot of pain as well.