I'm imagining this like the 'what if things went differently' scene in chapter 12, just more fleshed out and with Bucky actually shamefully masturbating to fantasies like that.
Basically once he's no longer on edge 24/7, his need for touch get worse and his libido starts returning with a vengeance. But because he has no healthy concept of sex at all, he concludes he's craving the things Hydra did to him.
For obvious reasons he tries to fight those urges, but eventually fails. Maybe he starts with Hydra memories and then turns to all kinds of hotwrong dark Avengers fantasies. I could also imagine him being super fed up with the fact that he always got to be everybody's fucktoy, so he starts fantasizing about other people servicing him for once. Maybe Steve and/or Sam first, until he works up to the ultimate power trip with him ordering everybody else around. Thoughts?
Re: Windmills, Fill 11/13 (aka Bucky's sense of tmi is faulty)
I'm imagining this like the 'what if things went differently' scene in chapter 12, just more fleshed out and with Bucky actually shamefully masturbating to fantasies like that.
Basically once he's no longer on edge 24/7, his need for touch get worse and his libido starts returning with a vengeance. But because he has no healthy concept of sex at all, he concludes he's craving the things Hydra did to him.
For obvious reasons he tries to fight those urges, but eventually fails. Maybe he starts with Hydra memories and then turns to all kinds of hotwrong dark Avengers fantasies. I could also imagine him being super fed up with the fact that he always got to be everybody's fucktoy, so he starts fantasizing about other people servicing him for once. Maybe Steve and/or Sam first, until he works up to the ultimate power trip with him ordering everybody else around. Thoughts?