All the Steve feels! I'd never quite articulated it that way to myself, as selfishness/selflessness, but I love it. It can't be fixed, losing Bucky, it is just inescapably sad, but now Steve has James, who is also worthy of love. Good for Steve for realizing what he's doing to James, and realizing that it's unacceptable. Good for him for realizing that this new relationship is just as deep as the old one, he just hadn't let himself see it for what it was.
God, "Out of the Dead Land" was the story that dragged me into this fandom, and "Memory" pretty much ripped my heart out. I remember that line. So good.
Also I forgot to mention how much I love the way Steve has the insight about himself that hopefully he'll one day be able to appreciate applies equally to James . . . in bed. ;) To care for James, to love him and trust him and help him -- that is a pleasure. A duty, certainly, but something he *wanted* to do. Surprise, Steve, that's sort of how Asset-identified James is going to feel about sexytimes with you!
I wanted to offer you a trash present in the grand dumpster tradition because I am so over the moon about this fill, so I made you something very small and entirely silly out of broken crayons and moldy construction paper. I left it out in the rain for you here: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6298378.
Re: Mini-fill [2/2] Re: The Asset is genuinely thrilled with his new handler
God, "Out of the Dead Land" was the story that dragged me into this fandom, and "Memory" pretty much ripped my heart out. I remember that line. So good.
Also I forgot to mention how much I love the way Steve has the insight about himself that hopefully he'll one day be able to appreciate applies equally to James . . . in bed. ;) To care for James, to love him and trust him and help him -- that is a pleasure. A duty, certainly, but something he *wanted* to do. Surprise, Steve, that's sort of how Asset-identified James is going to feel about sexytimes with you!
I wanted to offer you a trash present in the grand dumpster tradition because I am so over the moon about this fill, so I made you something very small and entirely silly out of broken crayons and moldy construction paper. I left it out in the rain for you here: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6298378.