Bucky had gang rape fantasies before he became the Winter Soldier.
When it actually happened, he flip-flopped between "this is my fault, how could I have let this happen, I let my horniness get away with me and now I'm getting raped for real" (like he doesn't remember how it happened and thinks it's a BDSM gone wrong thing? That would open the possibility that he tries to safeword and they laugh and that's a really good possibility) and a "yeah, they think they're raping me, but they don't know they're actually just fulfilling my fantasy, haha, joke's on them, suckers" kind of false bravado (this would be after he realizes it's for real).
I'd prefer first person, but third person is okay as long as it's limited. Or second person? If you think you can make it work, anyway. The point is, I want this to be exclusively from Bucky's perspective.
+ he comes + one of the rapists can't come and yells at him at length ("fucking useless bitch!") instead + he compares his actual rapists to his fantasy rapists (no extreme size kink though, it's really not my thing) + present tense + nausea caused by cognitive dissonance (or he suddenly vomits? but not in detail that's not my thing either)
rape fantasies VS the real thing
When it actually happened, he flip-flopped between "this is my fault, how could I have let this happen, I let my horniness get away with me and now I'm getting raped for real" (like he doesn't remember how it happened and thinks it's a BDSM gone wrong thing? That would open the possibility that he tries to safeword and they laugh and that's a really good possibility) and a "yeah, they think they're raping me, but they don't know they're actually just fulfilling my fantasy, haha, joke's on them, suckers" kind of false bravado (this would be after he realizes it's for real).
I'd prefer first person, but third person is okay as long as it's limited. Or second person? If you think you can make it work, anyway. The point is, I want this to be exclusively from Bucky's perspective.
+ he comes
+ one of the rapists can't come and yells at him at length ("fucking useless bitch!") instead
+ he compares his actual rapists to his fantasy rapists (no extreme size kink though, it's really not my thing)
+ present tense
+ nausea caused by cognitive dissonance (or he suddenly vomits? but not in detail that's not my thing either)