Prewar, Bucky & skinny Steve have an ongoing sexual relationship, preferably with Steve in a dominant role.
Fast forward to Bucky's first captivity, where he's tortured/raped/otherwise brutalized. Afterwards, he tries to brush it off and/or hide the gory details from Steve, trying to pick up where they left off.
Except, Steve's body is different now, bigger now - in, er, every sense. Maybe Steve's still figuring out his own strength and accidentally gets a little too rough. Maybe Steve has no idea that Bucky's been raped. In any case, the second Bucky gets Steve on top of him/inside of him, Bucky panics.
Take it wherever you like, but I'm imagining some good old fashioned repeatedly-trying-and-failing-to-fuck broken-dick angst, with Bucky freaking out but refusing to admit anything is wrong.
Would be down with Bucky's issues being purely sexual (I.e. certain angles, being topped, the feeling of Steve inside of him) orrrr with the issues extending to other facets of their interactions (I.e. panicking when Steve gets too close, comes up behind him, touches him platonically.)
And while there are lots of opportunities for Bucky angst here, I also kind of love the Steve body angst angle as well??? Here he is, still getting used to this new body, probably feeling weird and awkward and kinda alone, just been reunited the person he loves most in the world - and that person panics every time Steve touches him.
Bucky/Steve body/size trash
Prewar, Bucky & skinny Steve have an ongoing sexual relationship, preferably with Steve in a dominant role.
Fast forward to Bucky's first captivity, where he's tortured/raped/otherwise brutalized. Afterwards, he tries to brush it off and/or hide the gory details from Steve, trying to pick up where they left off.
Except, Steve's body is different now, bigger now - in, er, every sense. Maybe Steve's still figuring out his own strength and accidentally gets a little too rough. Maybe Steve has no idea that Bucky's been raped. In any case, the second Bucky gets Steve on top of him/inside of him, Bucky panics.
Take it wherever you like, but I'm imagining some good old fashioned repeatedly-trying-and-failing-to-fuck broken-dick angst, with Bucky freaking out but refusing to admit anything is wrong.
Would be down with Bucky's issues being purely sexual (I.e. certain angles, being topped, the feeling of Steve inside of him) orrrr with the issues extending to other facets of their interactions (I.e. panicking when Steve gets too close, comes up behind him, touches him platonically.)
And while there are lots of opportunities for Bucky angst here, I also kind of love the Steve body angst angle as well??? Here he is, still getting used to this new body, probably feeling weird and awkward and kinda alone, just been reunited the person he loves most in the world - and that person panics every time Steve touches him.