Bucky copes with his past abuse through rape roleplay with Steve. Steve plays the part of the violent, nameless aggressor, brutalizing and fucking Bucky until he's a bruised, begging mess, and eventually leaving Bucky sobbing and alone. When it's all over, Steve returns as himself to "rescue" and reassure him, taking care of him, cleaning him up, telling him that it's all over now and he's safe.
Bonus fun:
+ Steve really struggles with this role, but, for Bucky's sake, finds creative ways to work around his discomfort - i.e. wears a mask so that Bucky can't see his (sometimes pained and horrified) expression, stays mostly silent because he's not actually very good playing the bad guy, uses toys on Bucky because he can't get himself hard while being so violent, etc.
+ Lots of struggling/fighting. Real, genuine fighting where neither of them hold back. (They probably have to prepare in advance for this, so they don't totally wreck their apartment, lol.) Maybe Bucky feels shame that he was never able to fight back when it actually happened, and doing so now kind of flips the script, gives him a chance to resist and struggle.
+ Lots of begging/tears. Bucky was never able to emote/react to his rapes while they were happening, but he can freely do so now.
+ Bucky doesn't even always necessarily get off on it. Sometimes he does (in a shameful badwrong way he hates but also loves), but sometimes it's just about the physical/emotional catharsis.
+ The element of surprise - i.e they decide the scene is going to happen, say, sometime that day, but Bucky doesn't know when, and is anxious with anticipation all day.
+ Idk why this is my kink, but I love stories where you get to see a lot of the negotiation/preparation that goes into a scene? There's something lovely (and hot) about carefully planning out the details, talking it out, compromising, each character mentally preparing themselves - and then getting to see it all play out. It's totally not necessary for that to be part of this story, but I feel like it would work out well here!
+ Maaaaaaaybe every once in a while, Steve comes in afterwards to "save" Bucky in full-on Captain America gear.
Steve/Bucky rape + rescue roleplay
Bonus fun:
+ Steve really struggles with this role, but, for Bucky's sake, finds creative ways to work around his discomfort - i.e. wears a mask so that Bucky can't see his (sometimes pained and horrified) expression, stays mostly silent because he's not actually very good playing the bad guy, uses toys on Bucky because he can't get himself hard while being so violent, etc.
+ Lots of struggling/fighting. Real, genuine fighting where neither of them hold back. (They probably have to prepare in advance for this, so they don't totally wreck their apartment, lol.) Maybe Bucky feels shame that he was never able to fight back when it actually happened, and doing so now kind of flips the script, gives him a chance to resist and struggle.
+ Lots of begging/tears. Bucky was never able to emote/react to his rapes while they were happening, but he can freely do so now.
+ Bucky doesn't even always necessarily get off on it. Sometimes he does (in a shameful badwrong way he hates but also loves), but sometimes it's just about the physical/emotional catharsis.
+ The element of surprise - i.e they decide the scene is going to happen, say, sometime that day, but Bucky doesn't know when, and is anxious with anticipation all day.
+ Idk why this is my kink, but I love stories where you get to see a lot of the negotiation/preparation that goes into a scene? There's something lovely (and hot) about carefully planning out the details, talking it out, compromising, each character mentally preparing themselves - and then getting to see it all play out. It's totally not necessary for that to be part of this story, but I feel like it would work out well here!
+ Maaaaaaaybe every once in a while, Steve comes in afterwards to "save" Bucky in full-on Captain America gear.