Ok, so it seems post Winter Soldier comic!Bucky gets into bar fights a lot, and I gather that’s his repressed superhero-y way of dealing with emotions. Talking’s overrated, really. But for the sake of trashiness let’s for a moment imagine that’s useless, because holy cow, he’s so much stronger than everybody else, and even if he takes on the entire bar, the one or two socks to the jaw hardly register. Thanks, increased pain tolerance. Alcohol isn’t doing the trick either. But alas, turns out HYDRA left him broken in other ways. Maybe he has this irrational fear of small spaces now, or he panics when he feels immobilized, and let’s not even start with touches. (Because trash past of your choice.) So when he has his dark moments, he figures that’s as good a place to start as any.
Tl;dr: Bucky punishes himself by seeking out (sexual) situations that give him horrible HYDRA flashbacks.
Bucky's guilt trips
But for the sake of trashiness let’s for a moment imagine that’s useless, because holy cow, he’s so much stronger than everybody else, and even if he takes on the entire bar, the one or two socks to the jaw hardly register. Thanks, increased pain tolerance. Alcohol isn’t doing the trick either. But alas, turns out HYDRA left him broken in other ways. Maybe he has this irrational fear of small spaces now, or he panics when he feels immobilized, and let’s not even start with touches. (Because trash past of your choice.) So when he has his dark moments, he figures that’s as good a place to start as any.
Tl;dr: Bucky punishes himself by seeking out (sexual) situations that give him horrible HYDRA flashbacks.