Yeah- the watersports was a surprise to me too. The joys of typing into the reply box on a kinkmeme, the subconscious sprawls out like some sort of lesser demon across the page. I have no clue what will crawl out- only what I edit it into when I reread and tweak it.
TBH Tony voice is generally quick to flow out if hit and miss on execution. I take myself into the moment, crank narcissism to 11, slap on male socialization and every flavor of privilege over it before I go full mania with depreciating humor + ptsd sprinkles and record what I can of the results. Part of why I chose to write it from his POV was I thought I could do the material the best justice that way- just the entries didn't feel impactful enough without the ability to see it affecting someone- and it'd wreck Steve forever.
Bucky voice fluctuates, but generally I can capture it with enough build up. Punk skinny Steve I can, sometimes sidle up to sideways and clobber into submission. Everyone else? It's a mystery.
So, having you pick up on a lot of the little techniques and bits I used to try to capture the rolling storm that is Tony's brain, makes my day.
A lot of my time as a writer is spent going "everything except this line/mechanic here is trash" when I re-read my own works. So to have the mechanics I was most proud of, (Specifically here, word choices and interactions kept in focus vs what he zones out for) not only be noticed but have it verified that they work for others? Oh, yeah. I am still a little giddy over this fill and these comments.
Thank you so much, and I do hope you enjoy the slight edits to the fill as it goes up on AO3, probably when finals are done in 3 weeks. Sooner if I lose my damn mind. (Aka take on an editing project when I have 4 classes in the air)
Re: BARFing Out Hurt (7/7)
TBH Tony voice is generally quick to flow out if hit and miss on execution. I take myself into the moment, crank narcissism to 11, slap on male socialization and every flavor of privilege over it before I go full mania with depreciating humor + ptsd sprinkles and record what I can of the results. Part of why I chose to write it from his POV was I thought I could do the material the best justice that way- just the entries didn't feel impactful enough without the ability to see it affecting someone- and it'd wreck Steve forever.
Bucky voice fluctuates, but generally I can capture it with enough build up. Punk skinny Steve I can, sometimes sidle up to sideways and clobber into submission. Everyone else? It's a mystery.
So, having you pick up on a lot of the little techniques and bits I used to try to capture the rolling storm that is Tony's brain, makes my day.
A lot of my time as a writer is spent going "everything except this line/mechanic here is trash" when I re-read my own works. So to have the mechanics I was most proud of, (Specifically here, word choices and interactions kept in focus vs what he zones out for) not only be noticed but have it verified that they work for others? Oh, yeah. I am still a little giddy over this fill and these comments.
Thank you so much, and I do hope you enjoy the slight edits to the fill as it goes up on AO3, probably when finals are done in 3 weeks. Sooner if I lose my damn mind. (Aka take on an editing project when I have 4 classes in the air)