AA- YAY!!! Super glad this worked despite being redone. Tony's words were so much better the first time through- *hand waves*
TBH just the right level of top- not over it at all. It feeds my positive attention addiction and balances out how shit I feel. (Depressed writer is a trope, ayyy.)
I am so very glad to hear I am doing your prompt justice. Happy early Bday- As Bucky comes to grapple more directly with what was done, more of him comes back. He doesn't find that to be comforting.
I have about four thousand songs I want to use for Bucky feels- because every day is Bucky feels day for me, and that means songs too. Someday I will do the awful fic that goes with NIN - Only. On that day, I may have to stop though- so instead- Into the Void will wrap up the journal music fest.
You may scream at the ending I have planned. Tony grows a heart, but I don't think Steve really approves of the kind of support Tony gives as a result of that heart. Then again, maybe someone will take up the gauntlet of Steve finding the journal or another one, and he might understand after all.
As it is I have a headcanon ending for this, but I plan to leave it at the title.
As for Tony- if he doesn't wiggle a little, grow a little, he wouldn't be Tony. He's just as human as Steve, just as flawed. (Okay a lot more flawed. He's a human disaster and I shamelessly love Clint Barton in the comics. Human disasters attrac me.) He's coming from a very upset place. He was trying to do the right thing, and for a certain value, he could be seen as in the right- could see himself as in the right, and, without actively seeking windows into other perspectives, he holds only that he was betrayed.
He holds all that hurt and pain, and he doesn't have the emotional maturity to set that pain aside, right at that moment. Also a lot of his asshole is also his coping mechanism. He assholes like a skunk stinks.
The journal acts as a window, letting him see a part of the events from another perspective, and by doing that, lets him re-evaluate himself and his own actions. Not that he goes that far in this fic, because he is a stunted manchild who more toddles towards being a functional human bean one pratfall at a time. BUT the potential is unlocked for him.
Re: BARFing Out Hurt (4/?) antisemitism ahoy
TBH just the right level of top- not over it at all. It feeds my positive attention addiction and balances out how shit I feel. (Depressed writer is a trope, ayyy.)
I am so very glad to hear I am doing your prompt justice. Happy early Bday- As Bucky comes to grapple more directly with what was done, more of him comes back. He doesn't find that to be comforting.
I have about four thousand songs I want to use for Bucky feels- because every day is Bucky feels day for me, and that means songs too. Someday I will do the awful fic that goes with NIN - Only.
On that day, I may have to stop though- so instead- Into the Void will wrap up the journal music fest.
You may scream at the ending I have planned. Tony grows a heart, but I don't think Steve really approves of the kind of support Tony gives as a result of that heart. Then again, maybe someone will take up the gauntlet of Steve finding the journal or another one, and he might understand after all.
As it is I have a headcanon ending for this, but I plan to leave it at the title.
As for Tony- if he doesn't wiggle a little, grow a little, he wouldn't be Tony. He's just as human as Steve, just as flawed. (Okay a lot more flawed. He's a human disaster and I shamelessly love Clint Barton in the comics. Human disasters attrac me.) He's coming from a very upset place. He was trying to do the right thing, and for a certain value, he could be seen as in the right- could see himself as in the right, and, without actively seeking windows into other perspectives, he holds only that he was betrayed.
He holds all that hurt and pain, and he doesn't have the emotional maturity to set that pain aside, right at that moment. Also a lot of his asshole is also his coping mechanism. He assholes like a skunk stinks.
The journal acts as a window, letting him see a part of the events from another perspective, and by doing that, lets him re-evaluate himself and his own actions. Not that he goes that far in this fic, because he is a stunted manchild who more toddles towards being a functional human bean one pratfall at a time. BUT the potential is unlocked for him.