Dumpster #5: We didn't start the trashfire

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Welcome to the latest, greatest, scummiest iteration of hydratrashmeme. Come on in and please check your sense of shame at the door.

Rules in brief: Don't be a jerk except to fictional characters. Warn if you want, but read at your own risk, because this is emphatically not a safe space. Link your fills on the fill post. Unprompted fills: make a prompt or a header comment and reply to it with the full text. Continuations of fills from earlier rounds: just make sure you link in both places.

What's on-topic: Filthy and perverted twists on all the quality whump served up by Cap: Winter Soldier. Noncon, aftermath, uncomfortably sexualized violence, mind control, inappropriate uses of Bucky Barnes' metal arm, bad guys doing dirtybadwrong things to your faves.
What's off-topic: a/b/o, D/s-verse, soulbonds, mundane AUs, shippy/romanticized noncon, MCU heroes repurposed into OOC or edgydark delivery vehicles for your fave's suffering. If you've got a prompt for one of those burning a hole in your brain, head on over to mcu_trash.

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Comments

Re: Steve thinks he is wrong for liking to bottom

[(Anonymous)]

I picture this like this:
Bucky isn't comfortable with manhandling and dirty talk anymore, so he goes in overdrive with praise, telling Steve how good he is at this and how nice he is talking it. Which is exactly what Steve can't take anymore. With a wrapped need to be punished he wants Bucky to be nastier which him. Of course refusing aftercare. This kicks of a vicious cycle of bad sex and angst.

Re: Steve thinks he is wrong for liking to bottom

[(Anonymous)]

Sorry, anon, I like your ideas but not for this prompt. I might have been confusing when I mentioned BDSM in the prompt. What I meant for their relationship is like, Steve is a bottom, and he likes it a little rough (emphasis on a little, bruises and hickeys and the occasional hands held behind back + slap on the ass combo okay, full on spanking + name calling + serious use of "yes sir" not okay), and he gets off on Bucky being bigger. By manhandled I mean Bucky is strong enough to pick him up, or pin him down on the bed. Dirty talk is optional, but I'd prefer it along the lines of what you mentioned, actually, praise like "fuck, doll, you take it so good". So it wouldn't be anything Bucky might have a problem with post HYDRA, in fact, he would be eager to do it because it's what they liked before and also because it's so different from what they did to him.

And then during the rape they end up making Steve's kinks into triggers: Steve likes Bucky pushing him down X they hold him down and he can't fight back, Steve likes being smaller than Bucky X they tell him he is weak and not a real man, Steve likes being fucked X being slutshamed for it (bonus forced orgasm), Bucky's praise of how he is so delicate and pretty X teasing about it.

I wouldn't like it for punishment kink to be involved in their relationship. What Steve really wants is for Bucky to hold him and pet him and fuck him, and Bucky wants to do that for him, but whenever he tries Steve remembers how they made him feel dirty for wanting those things. So he thinks what he should want, as a real man, is to fuck Bucky (like those people that go "It's not gay if I don't take it up the ass"), except he doesn't, and Bucky doesn't particularly want it either, both because it's not his preference and because he is dealing with his own rape, and he doesn't want to do to Bucky something that in his mind is wrong and humiliating. Cue disastrous sex attempts that end up with either or both of them curled up into balls of self-loathing / semi-successful sex where Bucky is good but Steve is a curled up ball of self-loathing for getting off on the things he is not supposed to.

Re: Steve thinks he is wrong for liking to bottom

[(Anonymous)]

DA

Hey, OP! Amazing prompt. I had a couple of questions -- is it okay for Bucky's trash past to be optional, or is that a prerequisite? Also, after the self-loathing/semi-successful sex, can there be eventual catharsis and a happy ending, or would you prefer it to end on a sad note?

Re: Steve thinks he is wrong for liking to bottom

[(Anonymous)]

I'm fine with Bucky not having a trash past. My mind just always drifts to that with him, but the focus here is Steve. And I always love a happy ending!