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Filthy anon dumpster for sad hobos to fling moldy pizza crusts, raccoon eye makeup tips, and garbage about their sad trash kinks at each other.
AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. One hundred percent Hydra Party Favor Bucky Barnes, Is It Sexy Violence Or Violent Sex?, and Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves: Winter Soldier Edition. BLANKET NON-CON/DUB-CON WARNING, not safe for work, not safe for life, not safe for anyone, read at your own risk
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Up Close Ache 4.4/5
(Anonymous) 2014-10-14 04:28 am (UTC)(link)"Whole new level of mad," it continued. "Distilled to a higher plane of existence kind of mad. I think it went so far you circled back around to calm again. And you never did raise your voice, not even once. I couldn't get over that.
"The quiet way you got to talking, it was like something straight out of a book, or like you hear in church. Me, I was there to serve witness. I could see you, really see you: this one true thing moving through a sea of ugliness and hate. Not perfect, not pure, just... good. And I don't know how, but the worse the ugliness got, the brighter you burned. Nothing they did could stop you loving them. The rot couldn't touch you, and all you wanted was to help lift the rest of us out. It's always been like that with you, but for the first time I saw how impossible it was, that you could be this way. But it was real. Hit me like a truck. You were the realest thing I'd ever laid eyes on."
One flesh arm and one metal wrap around Pierce. The soldier burrows its forehead into his shoulder while it shudders in a few breaths. "I, I saw you were meant for something great. All the Freunde saw was a skinny little punk with a mouth on him, still limping from a tussle with Robbie Salzberg. They were stupid enough to think you were weak, and low enough to think that's something needs wiping out. Because you terrified them, those grown men. They were afraid, so they were gonna snuff you out. Now comes my job, besides witnessing.
"You hated me dragging you out of there. I had to throw you over my shoulder in the end, which pissed you off worse, but pride was gonna be the least of our wounds in another minute. So I hauled you out of there and made for Vinegar Hill like my ass was catching fire.
"You couldn't stop wheezing by then. We get out from the Ortsgruppen just in time for your own fucking body to start attacking. I had to cool you off, calm you down. Keep you safe. Would do anything for you.
“That’s why I brought you here.”
Pierce frowns. “Here?”
“Was supposed to be a surprise, hahh,” the soldier murmurs, “I was savin’ it, but I guess we can celebrate your birthday a week early if means you not blowing your top. Anything for you.” It presses its lips to the hinge of Pierce’s jaw.
The Winter Soldier never kisses without being prompted, but now it’s peppering the side of his face with them. The Winter Soldier always struggles to maintain composure -- the stoicism of a weapon -- but this thing is rutting itself on Pierce’s lap in earnest, and gusting moans against his skin between sentences.
Pierce finds he doesn't care for the change much. His gasps taken from the soldier are hard-won; these sighs are freely and cheaply given.
Pierce turns his mouth away from it and says, “Tell me more about this place.”
“It’s something, ain’t it? Who knew all this was hidden down under the Bridge anchorage? All the stone arches and vaults, feels like being in a castle almost. Real Count of Monte Cristo stuff. Thought you’d like that.” It ducks to hide a shy smile. “Nice and cool, too. It's always cool like this. I’ll sneak you in when the weather gets too boiling to stand, but we gotta keep it a secret. It’s ours, our blue grotto.” The soldier tips its head back; Pierce's pool house ceiling dances with light like an underwater cave. “See?”
"It's beautiful." He reaches between them to jerk the soldier a few times, and something close to laughter rasps against his ear.
"I've been so afraid to tell you." It offers him a wobbly grin. "I'm not-- I know you're better in a way I'll never be. I know I can't be like you, but I'm not such a fool I can't recognize a good thing when I see it. I'll try harder, I promise," it husks, nosing Pierce's hair. "I want to be good, too, I want. Ah, that. The way you feel in me."
When Pierce shivers, the smile flips to concern, and in a second its streamlined bulk is curling around him. Even now, it's careful to spare him most of its weight. "Are you cold? Let me keep you warm. Please." A titanium thumb ghosts over his cheek, and its expression crumples. "Just, let me keep you,” it begs.
He cups the soldier's face, does the smile: "Always."
It lights up for him with the untarnished bliss of ignorance. The soldier is so young in this memory, and Pierce realizes he must have looked the same way once, back when he was still Alex. Michelle had too, when they’d thought world had been something worth loving as well as protecting.
Pierce says, "You love me, don't you? It's okay."
And just like that, the soldier is weeping with broken joy. Its heartbeat thunders through the bare chest it presses against Pierce. Its grin is flushed, dizzy.
This time he lets it kiss him on the mouth, and Pierce can all but taste the salt blowing off the East River, see the clear sky of a long-dead June. He knows the soldier can. Its eyes are distant but alive, and the light they reflect is blue, blue, blue.
Pierce knows this is the original file: flawless as if the soldier is still living that moment, in mind if not in body. This is its perfect memory.
The Winter Soldier rides him -- tight and young and enthusiastic, with full parted lips and streaming eyes. Were he a younger man, Pierce would have lost control. "More," he gasps. He digs in the pocket of his robe. "Tell me more."
"Relieved. That's what I am, so relieved." It laughs again wetly. "Thank you, thank you." It won't stop clutching at him. Pierce fucks it harder. "All I ever wanted, to keep you safe and loved. I promise. You can be you, and do great things, and I'll stay out of the way. But please just let me have this. I'll do anything, Steve." It sobs around Pierce's fingers when they slip into its mouth, it trusts him completely.
"I know." Pierce places two little white pills on the soldier's tongue.
If it were in an MRI, its brain would be incandescent with the lacework of memory. The shape of this moment is paved in forks of lightning, in Christmas lights, it’s the Brooklyn Bridge on New Year's Eve.
The pills are less direct than the chair, but the language translates. Neural connections collapse in their wake, bridges burn in a storm of fire and ash and disordered proteins.
A line of confusion appears between the soldier's eyes. There’s a catastrophe unfolding in its skull -- the funeral pyre Pierce lit for James Barnes, for Michelle-that-was, for Alex. For Steve Rogers and the dream of a world that has no need for HYDRA. (Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.)
The soldier goes rigid. There’s a convulsion, then it releases Pierce to touch its own damp cheeks in bewilderment.
Pierce comes.
In the brief throes of orgasm, he clamps his fingers into a muzzle over its mouth. The hand gripping its face is marked by age in a way the soldier never will be, and this suddenly strikes Pierce as cruel. For whom, he couldn't say.
"I'll tell you a secret,” Pierce whispers. Its skin is clammy under his grasp, wheezing hot against his palm. Huge eyes lock on him, and confusion gives way to terror as Pierce pulls it in close as a lover. "I wish I was the man you think I am. I wish I could have been."
All falls away. This is how things must be: the soldier's brow smooths, mismatched hands drop to its sides, breath slows to an even rhythm. Its expression glazes over and withdraws. The visiting ghost drowns again in the cold black lake of the Winter Soldier.
When the soldier climbs off him, its erection has gone all but completely soft. It steps back and stands at attention among the islands of body armor scattered across the tile. Just another shadow, a drugged-up jungle cat laid out for his inspection. After a few moments it begins surveilling the room again, attention darting from corners to exits and back again. Restless again, battle-ready. It takes no notice of the spent semen trickling down its thighs.
A swill of bourbon remains in Pierce's glass. He's not sure he wants it. "Go clean off in the pool," he orders, finally.
The surface barely ripples as it wades up to its chest in turquoise. Outside, the snow turns to ice pellets. Pierce listens to them chiming against the glass wall facing his garden while the soldier scrubs itself mechanically. Streaks of old blood fan out from its skin, then dissolve into nothing. It disappears into water as warm and salty as tears.
Re: Up Close Ache 4.4/5
(Anonymous) 2014-10-14 05:15 am (UTC)(link)I love everyone in this goddamn forsaken dumpster, especially you right now, author!anon.
I have no trash gift for you, just admiration.
Re: Up Close Ache 4.4/5
(Anonymous) 2014-10-14 05:18 am (UTC)(link)(So glad you're back!)
Re: Up Close Ache 4.4.1/5
(Anonymous) 2014-10-14 06:45 am (UTC)(link)"You’d gotten into it with the Ortsgruppen. Not for the first time, but never this bad. Ridgewood, Bushwick? I don't... Some kind of rally out in the square, I’d have have taken us a different way if I’d known. Freunde des Neuen Deutschland. Friends of the New Germany. Of course you had to wade right in like a reckless idiot." The tension in its wide shoulders relaxes, and the soldier melts against Pierce. "So prouda' you."
"Whole new level of mad," it continued. "Distilled to a higher plane of existence kind of mad. I think it went so far you circled back around to calm again. And you never did raise your voice, not even once. I couldn't get over that.
"The quiet way you got to talking, it was like something straight out of a book, or like you hear in Church. Me, I was there to serve witness. I could see you, really see you: this one true thing moving through a sea of ugliness and hate. Not perfect, not pure, just... good. And I don't know how, but the worse the ugliness got, the brighter you burned. Nothing they did could stop you loving them. The rot couldn't touch you, and all you wanted was to help lift the rest of us out. It's always been like that with you, but for the first time I saw how impossible it was, that you could be this way, but it was real. Hit me like a truck. You were the realest thing I'd ever laid eyes on."
One flesh arm and one metal wrap around Pierce. The soldier burrows its forehead into his shoulder while it shudders in a few breaths. "I, I saw you were meant for something great. All the Freunde saw was a skinny little punk with a mouth on him, still limping from a tussle with Robbie Salzberg. They were stupid enough to think you were weak, and foul enough to think that's something needs wiping out. Because you terrified them, those grown men. They were afraid, so they were gonna snuff you out. Now comes my job, besides witnessing.
"You hated me dragging you out of there. I had to throw you over my shoulder in the end, which pissed you off worse, but pride was gonna be the least of our wounds in another minute. So I hauled you out of there and made for Vinegar Hill like my ass was catching fire.
"You couldn't stop wheezing by then. We get out from the Ortsgruppen just in time for your own fucking body to start attacking. I had to cool you off, calm you down. Keep you safe. Would do anything for you.
“That’s why I brought you here.”
Pierce frowns. “Here?”
“Was supposed to be a surprise, hah,” the soldier murmurs, “I was savin’ it, but I guess we can celebrate your birthday a week early if means you not blowing your top. Anything for you.” It presses its lips to the hinge of Pierce’s jaw.
The Winter Soldier never kisses without being prompted, but now it’s peppering the side of his face with them. The Winter Soldier always struggles to maintain composure -- the stoicism of a weapon -- but this thing is rutting itself on Pierce’s lap in earnest, and gusting moans against his skin between sentences.
Pierce finds he doesn't care for the change much. His gasps from the soldier are hard-won; these sighs are freely and cheaply given.
Pierce turns his mouth away from it and says, “Tell me more about this place.”
“It’s something, ain’t it? Who knew all this was hidden down under the Bridge? All the stone arches and vaults, feels like being in a castle almost. Real Count of Monte Cristo stuff. Thought you’d like that.” It ducks to hide a shy smile. “Nice and cool, too. It's always cool like this. I’ll sneak you in when the weather gets too boiling to stand, but we gotta keep it a secret. It’s ours, our blue grotto.” The soldier tips its head back; Pierce's pool house ceiling dances with light like an underwater cave. “See?”
"It's beautiful." He reaches between them to jerk the soldier a few times, and something close to laughter rasps against his ear.
"I've been so afraid to tell you." It offers him a wobbly grin. "I'm not-- I know you're better in a way I'll never be. I know I can't be like you, but I'm not such a fool I can't recognize a good thing when I see it. I'll try harder, I promise," it husks, nosing Pierce's hair. "I want to be good, too, I want. Ah, that. The way you feel in me."
When Pierce shivers, the smile flips to concern, and in a second its streamlined bulk is curling around him. Even now, it's careful to spare him most of its weight. "Are you cold? Let me keep you warm. Please." A titanium thumb ghosts over his cheek, and its expression crumples. "Just, let me keep you,” it begs.
He cups the soldier's face, does the smile: "Always."
It lights up for him with the untarnished bliss of ignorance. The soldier is so young in this memory, and Pierce realizes he must have looked the same way once, back when he was still Alex. Michelle had too, when they’d thought world had been something worth loving as well as protecting.
Pierce says, "You love me, don't you? It's okay."
And just like that, the soldier is weeping with broken joy. Its heartbeat thunders through the bare chest it presses against Pierce. Its grin is flushed, dizzy.
This time he lets it kiss him on the mouth, and Pierce can all but taste the salt blowing off the East River, see the clear sky of a long-dead June. He knows the soldier can. Its eyes are distant but alive, and the light they reflect is blue, blue, blue.
Pierce knows this is the original file: flawless as if the soldier is still living that moment, in mind if not in body. This is its perfect memory.
The Winter Soldier rides him -- tight and young and enthusiastic, with full parted lips and streaming eyes. Were he a younger man, Pierce would have lost control. "More," he gasps. He digs in the pocket of his robe. "Tell me more."
"Relieved. That's what I am, so relieved." It laughs again wetly. "Thank you, thank you." It won't stop clutching at him. Pierce fucks it harder. "All I ever wanted, to keep you safe and loved. I promise. You can be you, and do great things, and I'll stay out of the way. But please just let me have this. I'll do anything, Steve." It sobs around Pierce's fingers when they slip into its mouth, it trusts him completely.
"I know." Pierce places two little white pills on the soldier's tongue.
If it were in an MRI, its brain would be incandescent with the lacework of memory. The shape of this moment is paved in forks of lightning, in Christmas lights, it’s the Brooklyn Bridge on New Year's Eve.
The pills are less direct than the chair, but the language translates. Neural connections collapse in their wake, bridges burn in a storm of fire and ash and disordered proteins.
A line of confusion appears between the soldier's eyes. There’s a catastrophe unfolding in its skull -- the funeral pyre Pierce lit for James Barnes, for Michelle-that-was, for Alex. For Steve Rogers and the dream of a world that has no need for HYDRA. (Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.)
The soldier goes rigid. There’s a convulsion, then it releases Pierce to touch its own damp cheeks in bewilderment.
Pierce comes.
In the brief throes of orgasm, he clamps his fingers into a muzzle over its mouth. The hand gripping its face is marked by age in a way the soldier never will be, and this suddenly strikes Pierce as cruel. For whom, he couldn't say.
"I'll tell you a secret,” Pierce whispers. Its skin is clammy under his grasp, wheezing hot against his palm. Huge eyes lock on him, and confusion gives way to terror as Pierce pulls it in close as a lover. "I wish I was the man you think I am. I wish I could have been."
All falls away. This is how things must be: the soldier's brow smooths, mismatched hands drop to its sides, breath slows to an even rhythm. Its expression glazes over and withdraws. The visiting ghost drowns again in the cold black lake of the Winter Soldier.
When the soldier climbs off him, its erection has gone all but completely soft. It steps back and stands at attention among the islands of body armor scattered across the tile. Just another shadow, a drugged-up jungle cat laid out for his inspection. After a few moments it begins surveilling the room again, attention darting from corners to exits and back again. Restless again, battle-ready. It takes no notice of the spent semen trickling down its thighs.
A swill of bourbon remains in Pierce's glass. He's not sure he wants it. "Go clean off in the pool," he orders, finally.
The surface barely ripples as it wades up to its chest in turquoise. Outside, the snow turns to ice pellets. Pierce listens to them chiming against the glass wall facing his garden while the soldier scrubs itself mechanically. Streaks of old blood fan out from its skin, then dissolve into nothing. It disappears into water as warm and salty as tears.
Re: Up Close Ache 4.4.1/5
(Anonymous) 2014-10-15 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)(I'm the OP, BTW).
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(Anonymous) 2014-10-15 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)god. i’m holding my breath again. the terror behind the soldiers appearance – a ghost – the horror of what pierce does to him, how you write pierce. the end. the pool. this is superbe, and i would love to read more of your work. are you willing to share anything else?
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(Anonymous) 2014-11-16 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)"Pierce thrusts up twice and is rewarded with a stifled sob. Each time, it rocks down to meet his hips. Pierce wonders if the soldier is aware of how it bares its teeth."
And this is one of the sexiest lines in history, I might have sprained my brain at this. I just, I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH RIGHT NOW I'M SORRY FOR ASKING NOW BUT ARE YOU GONNA POST MORE? OMG PLEASE. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3
Re: Up Close Ache 4.4.1/5
(Anonymous) 2014-11-26 01:48 am (UTC)(link)Long story short: I am hecka slow, but hecka committed.
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(Anonymous) 2014-11-28 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)So yeah, THANK YOU I LOVE YOU. <3
PS: I would give my left arm to know which BB story you are writing tbh.
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Re: Up Close Ache 4.4.1/5
(Anonymous) 2015-02-09 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)I hope this doesn't turn into one of those stories I bookmark and check once every few months only to find it languishing away unfinished years later. Like, no lie, I'll probably reread it regardless because it's beautiful, but I'd really appreciate closure.
This bit:
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“So angry.” The Winter Soldier still has its eyes squeezed shut. Its head lolls back, and the grimace slackens closer to pleasure. "So angry that day. You seemed… it was you, but bigger. Not on outside, but you: the important parts. All of you huge and lit up, on fire. Beautiful,” the soldier gasps. “Mad as I’d ever seen you. Thought you were gonna sock me one right in the mouth, best day of my fuckin’ life.”
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AND THEN THIS FUCKING THING:
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Pierce says, "You love me, don't you? It's okay."
And just like that, the soldier is weeping with broken joy. Its heartbeat thunders through the bare chest it presses against Pierce. Its grin is flushed, dizzy.
-
Gah. Stab me right in the throat, why don't you. Just put me out of my misery.
[muffled sobs in the background]
...
I HAVE DEEP EMOTIONAL FEELINGS
D:
Re: Up Close Ache 4.4.1/5
(Anonymous) 2015-03-10 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)okay enough unnecessary backstory, just, here it is:
Hurt me.
No, not that way. Not with your fists.
Nor with a cane. Nor with a knife.
I didn't mean my body.
Make me bleed.
My heart. Make it bleed.
Crack it open and poke
all the tender spots,
get it nice and sore and
unbearable.
Best if you can do it all at once.
Take too long and I'll start to adjust.
Be clever.
I'm not naïve; I know pain when I see it
coming at me.
I want you to shock me.
Be eloquent in torture.
I have an artist's soul, so make me
complicit in my own undoing,
reluctant to unravel
such beautiful misery.
And make it last.
I want to feel the echoes
for a lifetime,
the throb of a sudden wound
as fresh
in a year's time, in a century,
as it was only a moment after the breaking.
I want to be crippled by pain.
Make me beg for release,
for death.
And every now and then,
just so I don't forget,
give me a quick jab in my ache,
remind me what pain
really feels like.
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(Anonymous) 2014-10-17 12:04 am (UTC)(link)The over-all arc is killing me! With each piece, the asset is de-humanized further, HYDRA ever grinding him away in the task of polishing their weapon.
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