Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

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Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

[Round 1] [Fill post] [Chatter post] [hydratrashmeme Pinboard archive (maintained by greenkirtle)] [Round 2 in flat view (comments in non-threaded chronological order, most recent last)]

Round 2 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 3.

Comments

Re: fill: walk & never tire (2/?)

[(Anonymous)]

Oh this is really really helpful, thank you, teasing out the themes like this definitely gives me a better sense of where we're going. <3 How do you unfuck your head . . . when the person who's supposed to be in it with you is who you're terrified of? is exactly the question that needs answering now. Bucky made his choice (that wasn't really) but then it got taken from him, he's already broken the promises he made to himself, not to show fear or pain, and he's set up to break the promises he made to Steve as well, starting with when it wears off I'll still be here. Steve is going to have to push through his self-hatred enough to help his friend if they're going to fix this—Steve, who also got raped. Branching paths of emotional torture FTW!

That sex pollen story is also interesting and helpful in terms of giving shape to Steve's guilt. He's Captain America, and whatever the effect of the drug on other people it shouldn't have affected him like this, he's supposed to be stronger and less vulnerable, he should have been able to fight it, like if anyone should have had the inherent goodness and instinctive gentleness and moral groundedness and sheer physiological resilience to be able to make gentle love after being dosed with violent-rape-sex-pollen, it should have been him! And then it turns out that in this way, against this weapon, he was just completely ordinary, with no special defenses at all.

Re: fill: walk & never tire (2/?)

[(Anonymous)]

Oh hey, if my ramblings are actually useful, that's great! Also the world of layered implication in the idea of Bucky breaking his promise "I'll still be here" is giving me the good shivers. Is it about Bucky not being able to be the physical caretaker in the aftermath? Or withdrawing emotionally? Or?? I am UP FOR IT

This is a great idea for Steve's reaction, I think, and also, actually, that's similar to how I conceptualize Bucky's Winter Soldier trauma as well. Like, okay, maybe it would have been humanly impossible for any person to have resisted the methods Hydra used to transform him. But he should have anyway.