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Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

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The Winter Soldier in a shock collar. For conditioning? To control him in the field? To spice up the trash party? All of the above? Whatever your little garbage heart desires.

Bucky's repeated rapes have made being penetrated a minefield for him, and under different circumstances he and Steve would just stick to other things in bed. The complication is that due to extensive conditioning, Bucky can only come with a dick in his ass. I'd like to see Bucky and Steve trying to navigate these turbulent waters -- having to call it off a few times when Bucky starts to panic; figuring out that it works better if Bucky's riding Steve, because then at least he doesn't have someone's weight on him; Steve being careful about where he touches, because if he ever grabs Bucky's hips or hair, the night's over right then.

trash bonuses:

+ some unexpected, seemingly innocuous, sweet things are absolute no-gos for Bucky, like kissing or hand-holding, and it's heartbreaking for both of them
+ Bucky being so frustrated and embarrassed about his limitations that he tries to ignore them, and ends up hurting himself
+ Hydra made sure Bucky couldn't circumvent the rules with fingers or toys

Oh yeah! I love Bucky's Broken Dick and being triggered by kissing is especially sad

I have a fiery, inexplicable love for fic where private trauma gets discovered, especially by people whom the traumatized character never would have willingly opened up to. SO: a scenario where Bucky has recovered enough to be Bucky and to be functional, but he hasn't come to terms with any of the brutal, humiliating sexual abuse and rape he suffered at Hydra's hands. He's ashamed beyond the telling of it, he's repressing hard, and he's trying to bury it deep. No one can ever know. He works with the Avengers, but he's only close to Steve (+ Nat + Sam, potentially!), and perhaps his relationships with some of the others are pretty tense.

AND THEN

Something happens to release a ton of awful details to the Avengers (or maybe THE WORLD), like they capture an extremely talkative trash party participant, or a video of a rape (or several rapes) gets leaked and blows up the internet, etc. All of a sudden everyone knows what happened to Bucky; they can't not. And Bucky knows they know. Maybe he was there when the news broke. He saw the way they looked at him.

It's awkward for the Avengers -- no one wanted to invade Bucky's privacy, and most of them have no idea what to do in this situation -- but it's devastating for Bucky. He thinks everyone will see him as soiled and shameful as he sees himself. Give me all of the painful dynamics as Bucky fails to cope with his worst shame becoming common knowledge, and as the team tries to readjust in light of how damaged Bucky is acting.

"He sees you when you're sleeping,
He knows when you're awake..."

You didn't actually think Zola was gone, now, did you? How foolish and shor-sighted! He was connected to the Internet, and it was so simple, really, to back himself up in the cloud. Such a pity that Project Insight failed, but there are other ways to do HYDRA's good work in the world, for the good of mankind. Every scientist knows that reults take effort, and not every experiment is going to work. It's heloful to gather data on why they fail. So Zola decides to gather data on one of the principle reasons Insight failed, Captain America. And he has a very powerful means to use; the Internet is everywhere these days, as are surveillance, smart phones, google glass, you name it. And one can never be sure when one is being observed or not.

So Zola stalks Steve using the Internet and gets progressively creepier about it, observing him everywhere, on the street, in his home, in the bath, in bed. Of course, like a good scientist, Zola records his observations. And when the time is right, he makes contact with the good captain, first in little ways, then in more obvious ones... maybe he even decides to take Captain Rogers as his very own, for more "intimate" data collection.

Bonus for Bucky/Steve because that's my jam, but no helpless, childlike puppet Bucky, please. I very much prefer traumatized-but-functional badass Bucky.

Ack, the typos!

*short-sighted
*results

It would be great if Bucky totally thinks Zola's doing this and Steve just keeps telling him that he's paranoid.

I would love to read this, and I would probably write this but I'm totally one of those authors that characterizes Bucky as very childlike. Sorry, OP!

Inspired by a conversation last night in #hydratrashparty:

In addition to wiping his past memories, HYDRA also does things to the Winter Soldier that render him unable to create new memories for a certain period of time. He's conscious and lucid while doing whatever it is he's doing, but he won't remember a bit of it afterwards.

Up to you whether this is used to keep him from remembering details of particularly classified missions, when he's a party favor (so he'll be surprised every time?), or some delightfully trashy option I've failed to think of.

Also feel free to use this thread brainstorm fun anterograde amnesia stuff more generally.

Memories of trash parties upset his conditioning too much -- he's always unstable the entire time between the end of the party and the next wipe. So they condition him not to be able to formulate new memories during sexual encounters. The party happens, the asset gets cleaned up, goes to sleep, resets. Wakes up the next day thinking the injuries and aches must be from a fight.

Now imagine Steve's surprise when he and Bucky finally have the hot, sweet first time he's been fantasizing about since the 1930s, and Bucky wakes up the next morning and remembers nothing.

OP Hey, no problem. We all have our preferences and kinks. Childlike Bucky really appeals to a lot of people; unfortunately, I'm just not one of them. It just hits too close to home on certain things for me.

YES I have a huge thing for this too!!!

Yessss, I love this idea! So many possibilities.

What if Bucky quickly connects the dots between naked Steve and what he can’t remember from the night before, but because he doesn’t want to fuck things up, or lump Steve with yet another mental issue, he just decides to pretend and play along. So when Steve rolls over for a cuddle and is all “was it good for you too?” Bucky croaks out “yeah amazing”. Steve is lying there all post-coital glowy and content, while Bucky is over the other side of the bed freaking out about keeping up the façade.

I love Bucky's broken dick just as much as the next person, but hey, let's try something new. So say Bucky has recovered enough to want sex with Steve. More specifically, he wants Steve to fuck him. The only problem is, ever since learning about Bucky's rapes at the hands of Hydra, Steve gets soft as soon as he attempts penetration.

(ayrt) YES. The worst, terriblest, most painful option from that point out, obviously, is for Bucky to decide he is absolutely not gonna freak out, and he's not gonna freak Steve out or hurt or burden Steve, he's just gonna go along with it. So every time Steve initiates something, Bucky goes along with it, and it's always surprisingly good. Sweet. He likes it. But then he forgets it. And he gradually gets more and more fucked up, and Steve knows that's something's off but doesn't know what it is (but is also quietly freaking out).

Or -- this violates the prompt a little bit -- but it might not be genuine inability to record memory, it's more like insta-repression: just like amnesia, except the memories are retrievable. So it all finally comes out, and Steve reassures and comforts Bucky, and they're full of beautiful optimism. A therapist gives Bucky a few tricks for trying to retrieve repressed memories. It works. But he doesn't just remember being with Steve. Every single rape comes flooding back too.

this is amazing? and, of course, Bucky probably thinks it's because there's something wrong with him, it doesn't escape him that his rapes make Steve unable to get it up, and it's beautiful angst all around.

Please lord I'll do anything for this!

I can't believe I've never thought of this? I fucking love it so much? Like I wanna have trash babies with it bless you sweet anon

I'm not sure how to voice this but I just REALLY need more of post-tws Steve and Bucky in a romantic relationship BUT once they start having sex, Bucky'll check out completely. And it takes Steve a little while to notice this. And then comes the flood of Bucky confessing all the ways Hydra sexually abused him and angry Steve and hurt Bucky and feels.

YOU HAVE SPOKEN MY DREAM

Both of those. So much!

Oh, or, instead of Steve being suspicious that something strange is going on he’d be totally oblivious. Because hey, he doesn’t have a whole lot of experience when it comes to sex, since we all know he was a virgin before he and Bucky first did the deed. He mortifyingly confessed to this on that occasion. Of course Bucky forgot all about it afterwards, but Steve just thinks he’s being polite by not bringing it up.

In this scenario does Steve get erect during foreplay? Is it just when he's pushing in and feeling the sensation of resisting flesh that his mind starts to imagine all the other cocks that have forced their way in. And that's the point where he can't keep his hard on.

Think the cumulative effects of Bucky surviving the Great Depression, European rationing during WW2 and Soviet bloc food shortages giving him the appreciation to not take the availability of good food for granted.

Buuuut decades of trash partying with food used as punishment, reward and incentive/bait makes eating a minefield of scent and texture triggers. For example: tasting chocolate cake gives Bucky an erection because it was used to reward him for becoming aroused during a trash party. But he can't swallow it because the texture/mouth-feel triggers a memory of being force-fed it to suffocation point or being raped and beaten until he vomited his reward.

Result is that Bucky is constantly hungry and really wants to eat but everything triggers him, and the remnants of his conditioning means he can't articulate something as simple as "No, thank you. I can't eat that."

I want HYDRA torturing Bucky through food even when HYDRA isn't a presence in his life anymore.

I have a simple need, and it's people being pissed on. HYDRA agents having a laugh pissing on Bucky (or Steve! ... or both!) in a very non-con way while the other person is tied up and can't escape

+ bonus points for "we're marking our property because ur our bitch" style stuff
++ bonus points and eternal love for someone like rumlow fucking into ws/steve's mouth and then once he's finished being like "well i need to piss and i'm already here so i may as well!" and pissing in their mouth

100% trash. 1000% sorry.

I realized I'd posted this on Tumblr, but not here. Anyway, I wrote a parody of the Very Hungry Caterpillar and recorded myself reading it in my best Bedtime Story voice. You can listen to it here. (Text here.)

Bucky's in recovery, living with Steve, doing okay. He gets bad dreams, of course, but after a while he starts getting nightly occurrences of vivid, awful, prolonged nightmares. Only they aren't just nightmares. It turns out what's actually happening is the remnants of Hydra have gained access to his dreams somehow. Every time he goes to sleep, they're there to torture him, rape him, reenact his worst memories, do everything possible to torment him until he breaks and submits for a wipe.

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Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

Shock collar

Bucky can only come with penetration

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One-sided Zola /Steve - Zola stalks Steve through the Internet

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anterograde amnesia

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Plot twist: Steve's broken dick

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Bucky has food issues/phobias

Watersports?

Podfic: "The Very Empty Soldier"

dream trash