Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

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Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Comments

Re: Bucky can only come with penetration -- Smash All Your Mirrors, 11/?

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Loved this update :D

1. The sex scene was smoking hot. Back arching! Bucky with his heels digging in! Shoving his hips up! ALL VERY, VERY GOOD STUFF

2. And actually the sex being so hot and successful makes the downswing that follows even sadder? Like, with all the other attempts at sex that went wrong during or after, there's an obvious cause. There's always a moment that sets Bucky off. Here, though, it all works out fine, and still Bucky has to go off and brood about how humiliated, broken, and undignified he is. There's nothing undignified about what just happened, but sex -- or at least being fucked -- is so indelibly associated with humiliation for him that he can't see that. It's so sad and it's a deeper, longer-lasting problem that Steve's learning curve on where not to touch and what not to say. There's no easy fix here.

3. Also that they're getting better at communication but they still have to work at it. <3 No easy fixes.

4. It is extremely telling about Steve that he thinks having cried after his mom died was a serious indignity -- comparable to the indignity Bucky feels now. I have been known to cry because I got a bad haircut. What the fuck, Steve.

5. I will repeat for this venue: I love how thoroughly you've fucked Bucky over. If he'd just been subjected to repeated command rapes, your good old-fashioned trash party, then he'd come out with a handsome array of deep-seated issues. But that was not enough! He also traded sex for favors, so on top of learning that essentially sex is torture, he gets to learn that his body is a thing to be bartered. But because these two things together haven't yet totally destroyed his sexuality, you also threw in the violation of his mind; they were able to trick and manipulate integral parts of him, his emotions, his perceptions; it's a miracle he's been able to trust and pursue his own desire to the extent that he has (and I wonder how long it took). You haven't left a single square of solid ground for him to stand on.

6. "It's not like I had any cigarettes to trade." I LOVE THIS LINE not only because it speaks to the forced commodification of Bucky's body, but also because I am a sucker for anything hints at how truly devastated and dehumanized he was. Even prisoners have cigarettes. Bucky, on the other hand, had no possessions -- or money, or friends, or memories, or choices in anything from whether he killed to how he wore his hair or when he slept. All these little details that fill out the picture of how controlled and empty his life was keep my black heart beating. My Bucky Barnes Problem is... ongoing.