Dumpster #5: We didn't start the trashfire

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Welcome to the latest, greatest, scummiest iteration of hydratrashmeme. Come on in and please check your sense of shame at the door.

Rules in brief: Don't be a jerk except to fictional characters. Warn if you want, but read at your own risk, because this is emphatically not a safe space. Link your fills on the fill post. Unprompted fills: make a prompt or a header comment and reply to it with the full text. Continuations of fills from earlier rounds: just make sure you link in both places.

What's on-topic: Filthy and perverted twists on all the quality whump served up by Cap: Winter Soldier. Noncon, aftermath, uncomfortably sexualized violence, mind control, inappropriate uses of Bucky Barnes' metal arm, bad guys doing dirtybadwrong things to your faves.
What's off-topic: a/b/o, D/s-verse, soulbonds, mundane AUs, shippy/romanticized noncon, MCU heroes repurposed into OOC or edgydark delivery vehicles for your fave's suffering. If you've got a prompt for one of those burning a hole in your brain, head on over to mcu_trash.

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Comments

Re: Sad masturbating in the sad Romanian apartment, with bonus sad notebooking

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, honestly it will be about his horrible guilt over killing people and how he doesn't deserve to feel good, vs how he keeps remembering all the good sex and sexual stuff and he tries to focus on the dirtybadwrong because he doesn't deserve nice things, but winds up sexually responding... and then embracing he is messed up, but he comes to terms with that. He vows to not do the harming anyone thing anymore... including himself. He decides instead, he will feed the pleasure. He has a killer in him and a cockslut, both predate HYDRA. Honestly I was thinking I'd go Stucky but Stucky more open pre-war with this.

If I follow the thread long enough it probably ends up more like combo of this prompt and the gangbang prompt, but with Bucky making the best of his trash, and embracing the good things he can manage to salvage from all the trauma. Basically reclaiming his sexuality and taking an almost perverse joy in getting off to the HYDRA memories,because something that was about degrading and breaking him is now being used to help him. A fuck you HYDRA through wanking and feeling good.

Re: Sad masturbating in the sad Romanian apartment, with bonus sad notebooking

[(Anonymous)]

(OP) *squishes fic summary excitedly* Bucky making the best of his trash is exactly the vibe I got from that apartment scene. It just touches me so much -- the fact that it's really kind of crappy, but it has candy bars, and newspapers taped to the windows for privacy, and a sleeping bag for warmth and a mattress for softness, and a secret compartment to keep memories safe so they can't be taken from him any more. That apartment is Bucky having a shit time and no emotional resources to make things look "normal" or put together, but he's still trying to learn to be good to himself even despite all the shame and guilt and trauma.

Oh, and any kind of Stucky would be lovely. I would LOVE to see something of Steve's reaction to all of this, if you decide to include something like the CW scene where he snoops through the apartment. But wherever you decide to take this will be fine!