Dumpster #2: ...'Cause a Hydra Trash Party don't stop

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Unholy hell-miracle achieved! Welcome to Bad Guys Do Bad Things To Your Faves 2: Electric Boogaloo. AKA the seamy sexual-violence-and-violent-sex underbelly of Captain America fandom, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Round 2 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 3.

Comments

Re: Bucky doesn't remember feelings

[(Anonymous)]

So to clarify, he doesn't know how to identify his feelings and he doesn't really exhibit emotions? Like he feels things but he doesn't display those emotions in terms of like facial expressions?
I think it's an interesting prompt. There are similar prompts, like one where Bucky doesn't show when things upset him.

Re: Bucky doesn't remember feelings

[(Anonymous)]

(OP) Yeah, so like, he doesn't even know when he's feeling something. He feels things but if someone asks him if he's happy he's like idk? He can't tell if he's safe or in danger because he has no clue what safe feels like so his body's always on high alert? And because he can't identify his feelings no one knows how to tell if he's getting better or worse or help him properly.

Re: Bucky doesn't remember feelings

[(Anonymous)]

This actually makes a lot of sense - he'd definitely be suffering from hyper vigilance and think it was just totally normal, so he'd have no real way to differentiate between safe and not safe. His normal is FUBAR. And that flows through all the rest of his emotions, which he's suppressed because they just led to him being horrifically punished.