Dumpster #4: I Don't See How That's a Party

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Okay, kids, you know the drill. Don't be a jerk except to fictional characters. Warn if you want, but read at your own risk, because hydratrashmeme is about as far from a safe space as you can get. Garbage we like: noncon, whump, aftermath, violence, mind control, inappropriate uses of Bucky Barnes' metal arm, bad guys doing dirtybadwrong things to your faves. Garbage you should find a different trashcan for: a/b/o, D/s-verse, soulbonds, mundane AUs, OOC evil!good guys doing dirtybadwrong things to your faves, rotting leftovers dressed up as a romantic gourmet meal. Nothing wrong with 'em, but this isn't the crowd you should be pitching to if you're trying to sell Brock Rumlow as anything but a human dumpster fire.

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Round 4 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 5.

Comments

Great Depression Trash (Bucky/various, prostitution, kidnapping, sex slavery)

[(Anonymous)]

Bucky's lying to Steve about the night job he's picked up. He's not moving cargo, he's turning tricks. And frankly? He fucking loves it. He gets to take all the dick he can handle and then come home with a wet, sore ass and his pockets full of cash. It's the most fulfilling job he's ever had. And if he tends to fantasize about his tragically straight* roommate while he's taking some anonymous sailor's cock, no one has to know about that, either.

Then he picks up the wrong client.

This guy takes Bucky back to his place, down to a cellar with a mattress on the floor, and locks a collar around his neck attached to a chain linked to the floor. Kinky but kinda hot. The guy fucks him a few times, and it's nice...but then the john doesn't let him go! He leaves Bucky down there for who knows how long before coming back to fuck him again, and still doesn't let him go. Other men come down to fuck him from time to time. Eventually he grasps what's going on: he's walked right into a trap and now he's being whored out as a prisoner. Try as he might he can't escape, but neither does he want to accept his fate. Who will come to his rescue?

I'd love some conflict between the horror of being held captive & used and the (unwelcome) ecstasy of getting fucked! It'd also be great if his captor is into some things Bucky is NOT into, like fisting, breathplay, hole punishment, or bestiality (but please, I'm begging you, no underage or watersports/scat).

*guess who's dead wrong about THAT

Re: Great Depression Trash (Bucky/various, prostitution, kidnapping, sex slavery)

[(Anonymous)]

Omg, I need this LIKE AIR. I am so into this idea, anon. Especially the part about the conflict between Bucky's horror over being a prisoner and the pleasure of being fucked (because guhhh, I love me some cockslut!Bucky). That is utterly delicious and I really hope someone fills this!

Not sure how you'd feel about this nonny, but I think it would sweeten the pot even more if the random fellows who come down to use Bucky whilst he's being held captive engaged in some verbal humiliation and slut-shaming...sort of tied into those warring emotions. Especially if/when he gets off on it, and even more especially if there are multiple men in the room at the time and/or he's being used at both ends.

Just a few cents from a fellow trash denizen, pls feel free to shoot the ideas down if they don't tickle your fancy, OP. The prompt just got me thinkin'. :D

Steve successfully passes it off as not liking to bottom

[(Anonymous)]

Steve/anyone, although I think it'd be more interesting with someone whose "you're full of shit"-o-meter isn't as finely calibrated as Bucky's.

What the title says. Steve keeps it a secret that he was once violently raped by Hydra agent(s), even from his partner. They ask if he's ever been fucked before, he says "Just once, but I didn't enjoy it" and leaves it at that. He willingly experiments with bottoming, but he can never relax enough to get any pleasure out of it. No obvious trauma reactions--Steve represses and compartmentalizes like a champ--but it's clearly not his thing, so it falls out of their repertoire over time. But his partner has no idea, so every once in a while he'll wheedle Steve into taking it up the ass, with no idea of the real reason it gets Steve so tense.

Bonus: the first time they have drunk-sex after Steve's discovery of Asgardian liquor, he does loosen up enough to get turned on and enjoy it. And that's what wrecks his careful compartmentalization and finally, finally makes him freak out.

Re: Steve successfully passes it off as not liking to bottom

[(Anonymous)]

I'd also love to read this!

I just wanted to let everyone know there is an active fill in the (mostly abandoned) spoiler thread!

[kallanda_lee]

https://hydratrashmeme.dreamwidth.org/1801.html?thread=4007689#cmt4007689

Prompt: T'Challa vs Bucky's trigger-word sex pollen

T'Challa gets Bucky out of cryo so his specialists can start working on his triggers. This is a complicated and risky process, and at some point, one of Bucky's trigger words gets accidentally tripped instead of removed. It doesn't incite him to violence, however. It's his trash party trigger, and it functions basically like sex pollen: Bucky's desperate to get fucked, there will be consequences if he doesn't, and he won't come out of his triggered state until he does.

T'Challa is forced to take care of it for him.

+ for Bucky not being scary or violent in this state, but rather behaving how he would for a handler; pliant and anxious above all to please. Scared even though he's panting for it. Maybe also weirdly sweet and extremely reactive to kindness

++ T'Challa picking up a lot of horrible details about Bucky's trash past through implication, and feeling worse about having tried to kill this guy and also even more dedicated to defending him

Re: I just wanted to let everyone know there is an active fill in the (mostly abandoned) spoiler thr

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks! I go back and check the other threads occasionally but it's good to have a heads up!

Steve/Bucky rape + rescue roleplay

[(Anonymous)]

Bucky copes with his past abuse through rape roleplay with Steve. Steve plays the part of the violent, nameless aggressor, brutalizing and fucking Bucky until he's a bruised, begging mess, and eventually leaving Bucky sobbing and alone. When it's all over, Steve returns as himself to "rescue" and reassure him, taking care of him, cleaning him up, telling him that it's all over now and he's safe.

Bonus fun:

+ Steve really struggles with this role, but, for Bucky's sake, finds creative ways to work around his discomfort - i.e. wears a mask so that Bucky can't see his (sometimes pained and horrified) expression, stays mostly silent because he's not actually very good playing the bad guy, uses toys on Bucky because he can't get himself hard while being so violent, etc.

+ Lots of struggling/fighting. Real, genuine fighting where neither of them hold back. (They probably have to prepare in advance for this, so they don't totally wreck their apartment, lol.) Maybe Bucky feels shame that he was never able to fight back when it actually happened, and doing so now kind of flips the script, gives him a chance to resist and struggle.

+ Lots of begging/tears. Bucky was never able to emote/react to his rapes while they were happening, but he can freely do so now.

+ Bucky doesn't even always necessarily get off on it. Sometimes he does (in a shameful badwrong way he hates but also loves), but sometimes it's just about the physical/emotional catharsis.

+ The element of surprise - i.e they decide the scene is going to happen, say, sometime that day, but Bucky doesn't know when, and is anxious with anticipation all day.

+ Idk why this is my kink, but I love stories where you get to see a lot of the negotiation/preparation that goes into a scene? There's something lovely (and hot) about carefully planning out the details, talking it out, compromising, each character mentally preparing themselves - and then getting to see it all play out. It's totally not necessary for that to be part of this story, but I feel like it would work out well here!

+ Maaaaaaaybe every once in a while, Steve comes in afterwards to "save" Bucky in full-on Captain America gear.

Re: Steve/Bucky rape + rescue roleplay

[(Anonymous)]

i LOVE this

[(Anonymous)]

Jesus this is incredible. I am here for all the Bucky whump trash filled shenanigans and this hits EVERY button. Well done and I can't WAIT for more!!!

Natasha gangrape fantasy (Nat/Sam/Steve/Bucky/others)

[(Anonymous)]

This is sort of similar to some other prompts, only with Nat instead of Bucky.

So Natasha underwent lots of sexual abuse while she was with the red room / KGB, and now as a free person, finds that she's developed a bit of a fantasy about being raped and approaches Sam, Steve, Bucky (and/or others if you prefer) about fulfilling the fantasy for her. She's not otherwise romantically or sexually involved with them, it's more about their strength and the fact that she trusts them to stop if she does safeword out.

I imagine it's very violent (hair pulling, breast torture, spanking, facefucking, double/triple penetration, bondage) but really gets Natasha off.

Re: Natasha gangrape fantasy (Nat/Sam/Steve/Bucky/others)

[(Anonymous)]

Yes please especially breast torture

Steve/Bucky, pig play

[(Anonymous)]

Inspired by this tweet. (https://twitter.com/Nicole_Cliffe/status/941673174982209536)

Steve's new look is really doing it for Bucky, and is making him need to scratch that trash party itch inside of him. Steve is kinda getting off on the way Bucky is looking at him now, which leads him to unleash his inner nasty dom: face-sitting, armpit-sniffing, spitting, piss, you name it.

Teamwork

[(Anonymous)]

I would like a nice story please where Bucky is reluctant of penetration after being raped by Hydra but determined to get over it so that Steve can "use" him. Please make Steve supportive with good communication and collaborative problem solving. Thank you.

Re: Teamwork

[(Anonymous)]

Do you mean just the initial penetration or penetrative sex in general?

Soldier seeking handler remix: not Steve

[(Anonymous)]

i’ve been thinking about a stucky ‘verse where post-TWS soldier doesn’t ‘imprint’ on steve as his new handler. steve is too nice, too soft, too unpredictable to fill that role, as much as the soldier wants to be near him.
so instead, the soldier is following around someone else who acts more like rumlow. someone who is scared of him deep down but covers it with bravado and disdain, someone who makes the soldier feel miserable and exhausted and inadequate — THAT is a handler.

okay, yes, i’m thinking tony who is trying to deal with the murder of his parents. but it could be anyone! as long as steve is pining and doubting his own value to bucky and bucky is pining and trying to be good and trying to hide the fact that steve is the centre of his universe and everyone is sad.

Re: Soldier seeking handler remix: not Steve

[(Anonymous)]

Seconded! That said, there are several fics along these lines with conflictedhandler!Tony already. More would be lovely but a fresh take with someone else would be welcome too.

Bucky didn't think the rape was that bad until he saw others' reactions

[(Anonymous)]

So... compared to all the other stuff (the torture, the drugs, the forced assassinations, etc), Bucky doesn’t think the rape that he endured was that bad -- sure, it hurt, but it hurt less than the torture, and he didn't have to hurt other people. What's another loss of body autonomy amongst so many others?

And then he sees how other people react to it. Maybe he mentions some of the rape stuff off-hand, or maybe the general topic of rape comes up in discussion, or maybe he sees something in media. Basically, Bucky was fine about his rapes until he gets a barrage of society telling him it was the worst, most shameful thing that could happen. Plus a dose of victim-blaming.

I'd be interested in seeing how Bucky'd react. Self-blame? Rage? Confusion? Who would he turn to to guide him? (Steve? Natasha? Sam? Someone else?) How would it affect his existing relationship(s)?

Bonuses:
- his existing partner seeing very drastic changes in Bucky's behavior and having to investigate
- the Avengers are not immune to this, and react in a way that further reinforces Bucky's new understanding of rape
- Bucky being very clueless/confused by a lot of the social reactions to his mention of rape

mute/nonverbal/aphasia WS trash

[(Anonymous)]

Okay, obviously the Winter Soldier isn't very chatty in the first place. But I'm interested in any/all trash where he literally, physically cannot speak at all. (Or very, very little.) I love the psychological aspect (not being able to voice resistance even if he wanted to, not being able to express basic needs, etc) and the dehumanizing aspect (a lack of speech exacerbating the way in which he's seen as a weapon/thing/it.)

Ideas include:

+ An early, mouthy Bucky who talks back far too much being punished by having his tongue cut out/voice box removed, and it breaks him

+ The Soldier losing speech - and possibly his ability to understand it - as a result of the wipes

+ If his speech comprehension is compromised, give me all the nastiness of a trash party in which the asset can't quite understand the terrible things being said to him and/or misunderstands the orders he's being given, messes up, and is laughed at/mocked/punished for it

+ Sort of same as above, but the misunderstanding of orders happens in the field, and he's punished for it

+ Someone (Pierce?) taking time and effort to establish a means of communication with the WS, which makes the Soldier feel almost human for the first time in years, buuuut it's ultimately just one big trashy power play (i.e. gaining a special means of control over the asset that no one else has) (and/or it's for like, weird sex games)

+ The Soldier developing a heightened sensory understanding of the world / becoming very skilled at reading body language, micro-movements, facial expressions, etc to make up for not understanding language

Not looking for a woobified/child-like Bucky in this, but rather an intelligent, capable Bucky/WS who has lost this one specific way of relating to the world.

Re: mute/nonverbal/aphasia WS trash

[(Anonymous)]

YES PLEASE omg I love the last bonus.

(I trust you've read http://archiveofourown.org/works/5619853 ?)

the born super-soldier

[(Anonymous)]

So hydra figures out a way to create more super-soldiers the natural way. Because if the super-soldier is the father and the normal human the mother the child will either kill the mother with in five months or the mothers body will abort the child. If the mother is a super-soldier and the normal human the father, the mother will flush the sperm out from there system or consume the fertilized egg seeing it as a parasite.

The only way to create a super-soldier is if both parents are super. Lucky enough hydra has some of Steves old genetic samples stolen from shield and one super-soldier asset.

Though the asset is male a little thing like gender has never stopped hydra. Cue successful experimenting on allowing the asset to Carry a child. Seven months later hydra is successful but sadly during the onset of early pregnancy the assets Scientifically made womb was mangled. It’s Lucky enough to even have one child or a healthy one at that though it is premature.

Turns out they’re experimenting still wasn’t up to par to successfully change the assets gender enough, The asset would no longer be able to carry children in the future.

But they did get one child out of all of this a baby girl with Irish red curls and stormy blue eyes. The asset named her Sarah after a long forgotten woman. When hydra took her away and gave her to the red room her name was turned to Natalia.

Basically Natasha Romanoff is the child of Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes. Go as angsty or as fluffy as you want. Pairings don’t matter and the story line for the characters and weather they figure out the truth is up to you.

Bonus++ if when the asset was pregnant with Natasha he was still Bucky Barnes hydra hadn’t managed to break him yet but when he’s gone through this dehumanizing and in his eyes humiliating experience only to fall in love with the baby growing inside him then to have her taken away ( or maybe he’s told she died.) is when he finally breaks.( you can totally explain the age and time difference through super-soldier aging.)

Side Bonus++ if the reason she and the asset are pulled apart when he’s training her is because Bucky starts remembering. And begins to act like a father to her or mother.

Extra Bonus++ The asset manages to tell her the truth before she gets away from the red room. While He’s re-wiped and setback into cryo.

Awesome Bonus++ if Natasha has Steve’s heart and stubbornness with Buckys charm and mind.

Re: the born super-soldier

[(Anonymous)]

well there one with this idea but its quite short

and its this https://archiveofourown.org/works/650276

Steve/WS cagematch fuck or die

[(Anonymous)]

Steve and the Asset (either CATWS era or a recaptured/reactivated Bucky) are forced to fight in some sort of semi-public HYDRA setting - party, room of goons, whatever. The more spectators the better. Winner fucks loser. Holding back results in pain/punishment (mostly for the Asset, regardless of who does the holding back.)

+ One or both of them are already badly injured at the start

+ One or both of them become badly injured in a way that makes the sex painful (Would be interested in seeing whoever tops be injured/in pain tbh)

+ Bucky begins to become self-aware (and subsequently panic) while fucking or being fucked

+ An actual cage isn't strictly necessary. But could be fun!

Re: Steve/WS cagematch fuck or die

[(Anonymous)]

yESSSSSSSSSS

Teasing Winter Soldier

[withinmelove]

I've got such a desperate need to see Winter Soldier getting teased sexually to distraction. I'm happy with this being female and/or male guards testing how long Bucky can stay hard for, how sensitive they can get him, and most especially getting him to orgasm (bonus points to those who can get him to whine, whimper and beg for it) because of course he'll try to resist as he wasn't given permission to get off from the pleasure.

+Bucky starts to get stiff whenever a guard puts hands on him in a not sexual manner after this constant teasing
++Bucky comes in his uniform multiple times because of how sensitive they've gotten him to be.

Re: Teasing Winter Soldier

[(Anonymous)]

yesssss this is so good

Hydra tries to convince WS they're "helping" him with trash

[(Anonymous)]

So I was recently having an interesting experience at work and it made me feel a little sick/gave me an idea for some trash... Basically I was working with a lady who is notoriously difficult to work with, gives everyone all kinds of attitude, etc. And while we were working on a project she wasn't entirely on board with, I was bending over backwards, bending the rules, and breaking a few promises I made to other people to help her out. All she did was give me more attitude until I finally said, "Do not roll your eyes at me, I'm doing this to help you." Almost immediately I felt a little sick, because she obviously did not think I was helping her. In fact she thought the exact opposite, and I realized how quickly something like that statement could be used in a weird/unhealthy/abusive situation and, ta-dah! Trash.

TL;DR
Give me Bucky being turned into the WS through torture and brainwashing and typical Hydra trash. And while some Hydra asshole is doing terrible things to him, he's claiming (whether sincerely or otherwise) that he's "trying to help him".

+1: Bucky doesn't fall for it at first but as time wears on and he starts to lose himself, he begins to sincerely believe it.

+10: Post CA:TWS or CA:CW, Steve (or Sam or anyone, really) is trying to help Bucky recover but is being a little too overzealous and when they realize Bucky isn't responding how they hoped, they say something like "I'm doing this to help you," and of course it brings back all the sad trash feels.

sex doll Captain America

[(Anonymous)]

STRIKE gives the Asset a Captain America Real Doll and order the Asset to fuck it as they watch and jeer. It's all very hot and also very sad.

Steve/Rumlow or whoever. Jizz in the Captain's suit.

[(Anonymous)]

alright so i don't care about background details, but give me anything where Rumlow comes down the back of Captain America's stealth suit, and for ~reasons~ the suit gets zipped back up and Steve has to manage until he can get cleaned up.
Would also be happy with a group of hydra goons going in there. Throw in any characters you want as long as Captain JizzSuit hates it. Buckets of mouldy apples if there's a scene where he has to run around with it all oozing around inside his suit with him.

Re: Steve/Rumlow or whoever. Jizz in the Captain's suit.

[(Anonymous)]

wow i agree wholeheartedly

electric current required to achieve erection and ejaculation

[(Anonymous)]

HYDRA has fried the Asset's brain circuitry so much over the years that they notice/realize he can only get an erection and ejaculate when he is in the chair or is being zapped with a stun baton (at first it's just on the body, then they overdo it and have to resort to more direct application to the groin). Ejaculation and orgasm is ALWAYS excruciatingly painful. This can be about trash parties employing electric current (have some fun! maybe some adventurous folks have another person zap the Asset while they are fucking him and get a little bit through their own bodies) and/or aftermath trash where Steve and a recovering Bucky try to deal with this new reality (again, maybe Steve can get zapped a little, maybe they learn to enjoy the pain).

Re: electric current required to achieve erection and ejaculation

[(Anonymous)]

YES PLEASE

Rumlow's (re)broken dick

[(Anonymous)]

Nonny has had a terrible week that consists of exams, head trauma and getting unfairly blamed for everything inluding the kitchen sink, and Nonny wants Brock to suffer.
So how about, Brock is a survivor of sexual abuse, among other kinds, when he was a child/teenager.
His coping mechanism is Not Thinking About it and porn and machismo and having lots of rough sex with everything that doesn't run away. But something triggers him, and suddenly the sex seems disgusting, his composure is all but gone, and he Can't Stop Remembering That Shit.

Bucky's guilt trips

[(Anonymous)]

Ok, so it seems post Winter Soldier comic!Bucky gets into bar fights a lot, and I gather that’s his repressed superhero-y way of dealing with emotions. Talking’s overrated, really.
But for the sake of trashiness let’s for a moment imagine that’s useless, because holy cow, he’s so much stronger than everybody else, and even if he takes on the entire bar, the one or two socks to the jaw hardly register. Thanks, increased pain tolerance. Alcohol isn’t doing the trick either. But alas, turns out HYDRA left him broken in other ways. Maybe he has this irrational fear of small spaces now, or he panics when he feels immobilized, and let’s not even start with touches. (Because trash past of your choice.) So when he has his dark moments, he figures that’s as good a place to start as any.

Tl;dr: Bucky punishes himself by seeking out (sexual) situations that give him horrible HYDRA flashbacks.

Re: Bucky's guilt trips

[(Anonymous)]

oh yes please!

Post-TWS amputation and mutilation as punishment

[(Anonymous)]

After the events of TWS (or AoU or CW, I'm not picky), what is left of HYDRA find Bucky and decide to take their revenge on him. Since he is no longer useful as The Asset, they decide to have their fun with him...

When Steve and Sam find him, he is lying unconscious on a dirty warehouse floor, bound and naked. His arms and legs have been messily cut off, his eyes have been cut out, his tongue has been removed, and his vocal cords have been burned out. (I'm open for other mutilations, those are just the ones I really want to see!) There is also very strong evidence that he has been brutally sexually abused.

I'm open to the direction from here, whether the fic focus on Bucky's torture, or whether the fic focuses on Bucky's recovery, I just love all the trash.

Re: Post-TWS amputation and mutilation as punishment

[(Anonymous)]

*slides in next to you* always here for a fuckpotato prompt!

WS-on-Steve marathon rape

[(Anonymous)]

Hydra sets the Winter Soldier loose on a captive Steve. With orders to rape him, brutally, over and over again until the Soldier physically can't get it up anymore.

It takes a long, long time to reach that point.

Re: WS-on-Steve marathon rape

[(Anonymous)]

I might try to write a short fill for this. Just one thing, do you have any preference as to whether Steve knows it's Bucky or not?

Winter Soldier's ass training

[(Anonymous)]

Inspired by a line in that amazing Red Room story about Natasha: "You never know what will be required from you in the field."

So, I would like something about the Winter Soldier's brutal and thorough ass training, similar to that story, not for trash party purposes (although that certainly could be included), but more along the lines of the times the Asset has had to put things in his butt, for mission purposes. Smuggling objects? Extra weapons?

TL;DR Hydra uses the Winter Soldier's butt as an additional compartment.

Re: Winter Soldier's ass training

[(Anonymous)]

I will pay in dumptruck loads for any variation on this theme.

Steve's elevator scene, groundhog day style (with gangrape)

[(Anonymous)]

The STRIKE team pile up on Steve in that elevator and gangrape him, you know the drill. But, in the style of the Groundhog Day, Steve starts reliving this day over and over again. Right after the rape, the day is reset. At first he tries to avoid the rape in any possible way, but they always get him SOMEWHERE during the day. The longer he manages to delay the rape, the more brutal it gets. And there is no way to avoid it completely.

Along the line, things get out of hand and he starts enjoying the pain and the humiliation or he admits to himself that he does. He gets off on the mistreatment, and it doesn't matter because it's not 'really happening'. He starts going to the STRIKE team almost willingly (tomorrow it won't have happened anyway, so who cares). He figures out ways to GOAD them into being more brutal or into prolonging the experience. (He's sad and lonely and going crazy, and this is the only thing that still makes him feel something).

At one point the things culminate. The rape and abuse go on for hours on end, and Steve keeps screaming from pleasure and pain until he's completely out of it, a total wreck. Right then, the spell is broken and the time is back to its normal flow and Steve has to deal with his new need to be abused big time.


+for hole spanking/whipping
+for cbt
+for orgasm denial once it's clear Steve likes what's happening (because of course they won't give it to him if he wants it)
+++for any kind of sadism and painplay (the harsher, the better)
+++if Steve jerks off before letting the STRIKE team get him so that he'd already be raw and sensitive even as they start
+++++if Steve deliberately delays the rape till the very end of one day, so that it would be worse, and then goes to be raped early tomorrow, while he's still sore, because he WANTS it that way

Re: Steve's elevator scene, groundhog day style (with gangrape)

[(Anonymous)]

*piles loads of garbage at your feet* YES PLEASE

Ruined asshole rape aftercare Part 6

[(Anonymous)]

Since it's waaaay back on page two (I doubt anyone's still hanging out there) and no it isn't actually abandoned I've got the next part of the Ruined asshole rape aftercare saga! Wahoo!! Sorry, this isn't really refined but I figured my fellow trashies would want an update more than beautifully flowing prose. There's one more installment after this- I need to write some transitions- and then a cheesy recovery follow up which will be posted on AO3 along with an edited and completed fill... if I can come up with a title.
~~~
"Gɐtə pIk ju ʌp, kɛi?"

He nods, still not knowing what he's agreeing too. Maybe if he's lucky he'll be held?

The crackly not-cloth is rearranged around him, carefully wrapped around his bottom as if to protect him from prying, lustful eyes. He's lifted from the neither bed nor table springy thing into the man's arms. He clutches the not-cloth tight in hand.

The man kicks at what must be a door making something creak. Sunlight blinds his eyes, and he can't help burying his face once more into the navy blue chest. It does little to mitigate the light induced pain. Air so cold it reminds him of the moments before blissful cryo bites at his face and toes while something crunches beneath their combined weight.

The man carrying him like a bride ready to be devoured makes soothing sounds in his throat, adjusting his arms so he can curl his face into the dark cloth just a little more. In the distance, he can hear a dull roar. It gets louder, echoing in the oppressive silence of the outdoors. Something large crunches whatever is beneath them.

He steals a look and sees an aircraft.

A woman exits. The woman who has bright red hair, and a feminine jawline echoing the one he sees whenever he looks into a mirror. She moves with the confidence of a killer, and suddenly he knows the last little asset, the one he'd shot, survived.

He quickly turns to the side, vomiting onto the snow beneath him. Some of the bile dribbles down onto the blue cloth of Captain America's suit.

She says something to the Captain, who replies quietly, adjusting him in his arms.

She nods, and looks to him. "You are safe now, comrade." She says in Russian untainted with a foreign tongue.

He understands the words, but not the concept. Safe? Safe is cryo, and numbness. Safe is not knowing or caring what happens to his body. He is not safe whilst awake and aware.

Safe is not in an area unknown, handled by unknown not-handlers and not-scientists.
He's grateful that he's covered in the not-blanket, naked but clothed so that his shame can't be seen. He knows he's shaking. Fear Adrenaline is pumping through his system faster than he can run, faster than the rapid-fire of an automatic weapon. He might not have any bruises, but he's covered in scars and memories of failure and surely they're going to take him back and continue shoving things inside him and electrocuting him and starving him and abandoning him-

And suddenly he's inside the aircraft, revving it's engines as it lifts from the frozen tundra.

He's in what might be a chair, but it's softer and more comfortable than anything he's ever sat in before. The first half hour he's alert, waiting for something to change but eventually he's lulled into a sense of security as they fly over clouds and the scenery below cycles between water, cloud and land. He doesn't remember the last time he was in an aircraft.

He'd fought Captain America, Steve, on what was probably an aircraft, but that crashed. (He'd almost killed the same man who had rescued recovered and treated him. He doesn't know what that means.)

The blue of what must be an ocean gives way to a grey shoreline filled with high rises and aircraft maneuvers to a towering rooftop to land.

Captain America, Steve lifts him from the comfortable chair into his arms. A metallic whoosh sounds and they step out of the aircraft. The air smells different but familiar, and the faint sound of honking, sirens and city drift up from below.
He closes his eyes again.

"ʋɞd ju laik ɛni hɛlp?" The woman in black asks.

Captain America Steve shakes his head. "ail kal ju If ai nid ɛniðIŋ."

The woman in black must answer non-verbally, because he hears her footsteps clicking away.

It's darker now- probably indoors, so he opens his eyes.

They pass through several different rooms before Steve places him on the floor unwraps the metallic, crackly not-blanket exposing him to not cold and not hot air. In front of him is a strange elevated basin, and directly behind him is a wall. To either side is a door, and a sink. If he were capable of defending himself he's sure he'd appreciate this vantage point all the more. Right now though, it only gives him a clear view of what's happening.

Steve steps around him, boots padding softly on powder blue tile.

He reaches into the basin, which strangely has what appear to be paws carved into it's base, and turns a brass handle to the right of a facet, then the opposite one to the left. The sound of rushing water reverberates the tiled room. He puts a hand under the stream, then adjusts the handles and repeats this process several times. To what end, he doesn't know (he'd never seen anything like this in his time with hydra). When whatever he's checking is to his liking, Steve leans into the large basin, doing something which makes the slightly hollow sound of draining water cease.

"Stay hir, bək, ail be right back."

Not knowing what else to do he leans back into the also blue tiled wall, ceramic cool against his back and not insulated by the not-blanket. The cadence of the water echoing in the tub gradually increases in pitch when the door to his right opens.

Steve returns without the suit, chest bare and hair damp. He's not wearing any pants, just boxers, but he doesn't see any hint of arousal; no flushed skin, partial erection, dilated eyes; in fact, his eyes are malfunctioning too. Maybe watering eyes aren't a malfunction for actual real people?

In his arms are folded blue fluffy textiles which match the tiles. He places the fluffy blue fabrics on the fluffy blue covered toilet, before turning to him. He doesn't speak this time, just reaches and gathers him in his arms.

The floor lifts away from him as Steve picks him up and walks over to the strange basin. He looks down and sees it's filled with water. He doesn't like water. When it's not being pumped into him, or leaking from his malfunctioning eyes it burns or freezes; not that it matters, he'd heal anyway.

He's descending, and before he can panic he's in the strange basin. The water, like the air is neither hot nor cold. It is.. pleasant. He sinks into it, surprised to find it only deep enough to reach his navel. (Hydra had never drowned him. Not on purpose, anyway. Forced him into water until his lungs burned with the need for air, sure, but never actually drowned him.) The arm behind him pushes him back on a slanted also not-cold surface and he's grateful because he knows he's too weak to hold himself upright.

Re: Ruined asshole rape aftercare Part 7

[(Anonymous)]

Final part, hooray!!
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Steve, lathers something in his ungloved hands. His skin is not reacting to the bubbles, so it probably isn't caustic. Smells he can't even begin to identify percolate the room.

Surveying himself, he can see he's in far less than optimal condition. He's lost numerous kilos, and each rib is easily visible though sallow skin. His stomach, usually flat with corded muscle is now concave. The bones of his pelvis flare outwards, and his penis and testicles are bruised around the base. The muscle in his thighs has deteriorated significantly. The arm is missing entirely and will need replacement.

It will take a long time to get back into working order again. (He's not sure if he even wants to.)

Steve takes the bubbly glob in his hands and presses it into one of the fluffy blue cloths.

With the wet, no longer fluffy blue cloths Steve wipes down his chest, over his nipples (not pinching or scratching) and down his stomach. His breath catches as Steve moves the cloth near to his groin, and the creases between his legs and hips.

"Forward,"

He leans into the strong arm keeping from slipping into the water. Even if he wanted to, he couldn't resist. With his other hand Steve tenderly rubs the cloth down his back and bottom, dipping in between his cheeks and tickling what must be a suture poking out from his hole.

He doesn't mind. It doesn't even hurt really, just feels a little raw. (A memory of hands, two hands that he knows are his even though both are flesh flashes before his mind's eye. A sickly young man complains feebly as he cleans away filth from his loins. He quiets the protests with a quick peck on his sallow lips.)

A wet splat jostles him out of the memory. A soiled rag, brown with dried blood landed on the floor on the opposite side of the room.

A new bottle that smells vaguely fruity squirts out something creamy and pink with bptptptp sound onto Steve's waiting hands. Small, white bubbles froth from between Steve's fingers, who then massages the suds into his hair. It feels.. good? He's had his hair pulled before, and he doesn't like it. This though, this is. . alright.

"Close your eyes now," Steve orders.

He complies, and warm water pours over his head rinses away the soap and grime. When the water is no longer flowing over his head and face, he opens his eyes.

Steve takes a new fluffy blue textile and presses the tangled mess of hair with it, wicking away the remaining water. Reaching by his feet, Steve takes something out of the bottom of the basin and the water begins to recede.

When the water is no deeper than a few centimeters, Steve gently takes his penis in hand and retracts the foreskin revealing a white, gritty substance. He fills the cup with fresh water from the tap and rinses the head, washing it away before tenderly moving the skin back into place. (No one has ever been careful handling his reproductive organs before. They usually either don't pay any attention to it, or actively try and harm it.)

He looks up to Steve's face, questioning. Why is he taking care of him? Is this normal maintenance?

"All done," Steve says smiling even though his eyes are puffy and red.

Steve lifts him from the water and reaches for yet another larger fluffy blue textile, wrapping him in it. They exit the tiled room with the basin into another, softer room where he's laid down on a massive bed.

He's feeling so good he doesn't even think sex would hurt that much. Beds are for sex, after all.

Steve goes back into the blue tiled room with the basin and turns on the sink. He's doing something with his hands, but he can't see what. Before long though, he comes back in and goes to the dresser.

Propped up against the headboard he watches as Steve riffles around in the drawers, eventually pulling out a similar pair of boxers to the ones he's wearing.

Steve unwraps him like a fragile family heirloom, precious and irreplaceable.

From the damp towel Steve lifts him and carefully directs one foot and then the other into the legs before pulling them up and over his hips. The underwear hang loosely on him, not clinging to his skin like they do on Steve. Steve gets a quilt from the shadows of the closet, shaking it out flat.

Steve pulls back the sheets of the bed and positions his clothed body beneath the blankets and his head on the pillow. The bed smells of the same generic not-steve-but-steve scent that seems to infuse this entire base. He drifts away in the warm bedding that smells like what he can only describe as home, the word as foreign as the language everyone's speaking.

He wonders if this is death, and if by some, inexplicable miracle he's not been thrust down to hell or purgatory. If Grace really does exist, and somehow, he's attained that mercy. (To his limited knowledge he's never renounced a god, even if he doesn't really believe anymore.) He certainly doesn't smell any heat, or soot, or sulfur. The air doesn't taste burnt, and the only screams are the ones still echoing in his head but those aren't anything new.

He falls asleep contemplating life after death.
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Fin