Dumpster #3: The Great Pacific Garbage Patch

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Holy shitballs, look at us go. Welcome to Captain America fandom's resident wretched hive of scum and villainy: ROUND THREE. AKA Bad Guys Do Dirtybadwrong Things To Your Faves, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Round 3 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 4.

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Sam is Raped by Rumlow and Rollins in Front of Hostages

[(Anonymous)]

Post CATWS: Hydra has taken a group of diplomats hostage. Falcon and Captain America go on a mission to save them, but the mission goes awry and both are captured. Rumlow/Crossbones is still livid about what happened on the hellicarrier and decides to execute his revenge by publicly humiliating Sam.

Rumlow and Rollins beat and tag team a screaming bloody Sam for hours in front of Steve and the rest of the hostages. Maybe they force some of the hostages including Steve to rape him as well. Steve is secretly turned on by what is happening.

(frozen comment) Sam/Bucky background Sam/Steve rape blood as lubrication

[(Anonymous)]

POST CATWS:

Bucky has a macabre kink. After the adrenaline-charged battles with Hydra when he's is still on a high, he fantasizes about fucking among the bodies before they get cold. He usually just jerks off and ejaculates when he's finished but it's usually not enough to satisfy him.

Sam helps him take out a Hydra base while Steve is on a mission somehwere. The battle gets particularly gruesome and by the end of it Bucky is unable to control himself this time. Bucky uses his super soldier strength to his advantage and violently rapes Sam.

+ Bucky uses blood as lubrication

++ A terrified Sam manages to call Steve while it is happening, but Steve doesn't know where Sam is and is unable to do anything but listen as it happens.

+++ Bucky supersoldier strength gives Sam some internal damage.

(frozen comment) Re: Sam/Bucky background Sam/Steve rape blood as lubrication

[(Anonymous)]

This is pretty clearly dark!good guys, nonnie, and that's not what we're about in this particular trash heap.

steve/bucky, slut-shaming cathartic dirty talk about an actual rape

[(Anonymous)]

So, Steve gets gang-raped by a bunch of nasties (it can be AIM, Hydra, w/e villain of the week). He comes home to Bucky, dirty - he can still feel the come dripping down his leg - and bruised.

After a long cuddle, Bucky gives Steve exactly what he needs: kinky foreplay and a good, hard fuck while Bucky slutshames/dirty talks Steve about his rape the entire time.

Go wild with the fill, anon!

Re: steve/bucky, slut-shaming cathartic dirty talk about an actual rape

[(Anonymous)]

Nnnnngh.

Post-noncon sloppy seconds is one of the few kinks I still feel kind of dirty for liking so much. Which just makes it hotter tbh.

Steve/Sam, Brock/Sam, bodyswap

[(Anonymous)]

WHERE IS THE BODYSWAP BORDERLINE CRACK TRASH

Steve knows who he’s fighting, has his best friend back, and is in a romantic relationship with Sam. Life is good.

Brock is in excruciating pain, has lost all his friends, and is hyper aware that the only reason HYDRA rescued him from the hospital is so he couldn’t talk, so he needs to get useful again fast. Life is not good.

Then because... magic...? they wake up in each other’s bodies. Brock feels great, is safe, has sexual access to a gorgeous guy without having put in any of the romancing work... Things are looking up.

+Brock’s masculinity problems. Maybe he was afraid he wasn’t going to be able to have sex after his injuries, and now he’s got a super- libido. Maybe he’s always been secretive about fucking guys, and now it’s not his rep on the line, just Steve’s.

++Rape “roleplay.” Sam thought it was funny a softie like Steve even wanted to pretend-rape him, but it’s a game, it’s Steve, so he felt comfortable playing along. Except really it was Brock containing his urge to admit the truth/openly rape Sam.

Re: Steve/Sam, Brock/Sam, bodyswap

[(Anonymous)]

Oh no :( I'm so scared thinking about the moment they're having sex and it's just...kind of fucked up and weird but okay, it's Steve, and suddenly something happens that makes Sam realizes it's DEFINITELY NOT STEVE, he doesn't know why or how but it's not. But he's already tied up or something and he just has to wait it out until the sex is over, while trying to pretend he still think it's Steve. Maybe he even realizes who it really is.

The Winter Soldier left in a compromising position

[(Anonymous)]

So what about hydra agents/techs/doctors doing a check up or whatever on the winter soldier, but for whatever reason they get called away. The last order the winter soldier is given for the evening (maybe weekend?) is "wait there."

The trash option 1: The doctors, who were trying to assess the damage from so post mission "fun" were called away, they expected the winter soldier to do his own thing eventually because they legitimately just forgot. But they come into the room the next morning and everything is awfully messy (piss, tears, etc) and the winter soldier is still holding his ass open on the table.

The trash option 2: Some agents are prepping him/playing with him. There is a vibrator in his ass, he is being made to stand is a stress position and they are betting on how many times he will come. They are called away and forget (or do they?) they see the results when the return after however long you want

Feel free to mix it up of course

+ if you could include some emotional/psychological stuff too that would be amazing

Re: The Winter Soldier left in a compromising position

[(Anonymous)]

aaaauuuuuuuuugggghhhhhh YES!

Someone who looks up to Cap has to watch him get the trash treatment

[(Anonymous)]

Another variant on the "captured and forced to watch" trope. A character who still has a bit of a hero complex about Steve Rogers has to witness him being raped and degraded by their captors, and both of them have to deal with it afterwards. Can be one of the new Avengers recruits like Wanda or Scott Lang, Sharon Carter, an AoS character, a SHIELD agent OC, or even a random civilian. (Sam or Tony would also be an option, but the dynamic isn't quite the same--Sam relates to Steve primarily as a bro and a fellow soldier, and whatever hero complex Tony still has about Steve is full of sibling rivalry daddy issues.)

+ Both of them expecting threats of torture/death/mutilation, neither of them expecting rape, at least not with Steve as the target.

+ They stage a daring escape, with Cap unquestionably the one in command, but he's physically injured and/or mentally still in shock and the other character is a little surprised to realize they have to pick up the slack.

+ Initial awkwardness about offering comfort afterwards--it feels presumptuous, like a kid telling the teacher it's going to be okay, and Steve's reluctant to admit he could use it.

+ Author's choice about whether this is a "take me instead" scenario (in which case all the guilt about the character watching Actual War Hero Steve Rogers take what was meant for them), or whether their captors just highlight the unequal power dynamic by zeroing right in on Steve and treating the other person as not important enough to bother torturing.

Re: Someone who looks up to Cap has to watch him get the trash treatment

[(Anonymous)]

SA

Just, like, give me that moment of painful realization that Captain fucking America is human and not invulnerable and could actually use a hand to hold right about now. Coupled with Steve swallowing the hurt and trying his best to hide that exact thing, even though he's just been brutalized in a way he didn't even know was possible, because he hates letting people down and he doesn't want anybody seeing him as weak after what just happened. Just fuck me up, man, just fuck me up.

[(Anonymous)]

Inspired by this amazing (do I even need to warn that it's NSFW?) video: http://masterboibinder.tumblr.com/post/141954032087/youve-still-got-four-more-months-of-training
WS being forced to complete a training regimen that is as more about the trash than it is about actually working out his muscles. I clearly don't go to the gym enough because all I could think of is riding a dildo elliptical, like in the above link, and doing squats onto a dildo. I'm sure there are other exercises that can be trashified, and I'm sure HYDRA would have made Bucky do all of them. All under the close supervision of his trainers who are only there to make sure he's doing everything properly, they're certainly not getting any enjoyment out of watching him squirm through it, no sir. They're only there so they can help him stay in fighting form, not because they're going to go jack off in the other room while he works out.
Up to author on whether he's more or less aware of what's happening to him or if he's all "what is happening to my body right now" confused. Also author's choice on how the trainers acknowledge it (or if they just completely ignore it).
+++++++ If they keep stopping him to take a break/switch machines right as he's about to cum so he's just hard and desperate through the whole thing.

Sexy Exercise Montage

[(Anonymous)]

Oops, I forgot to include my clever prompt title.

trash truth or dare

[(Anonymous)]

Hydra agents love a good round of trashy truth or dare with the Winter Soldier. If he chooses dare, they order him to perform any number of sex acts on them, or to hurt or humiliate himself. But if he chooses truth, there's the possibility that they'll get him to reveal punishable thoughts and actions, and the consequences for that are so much worse...

Re: trash truth or dare

[(Anonymous)]

I can just imagine the team on a boring mission and some bright agent going, "hey, let's play Truth or Dare!"

I love it.

too much to bear: self-harm, self-destructiveness, and suicide

[(Anonymous)]

So Bucky was doing alright, comparatively, when he couldn't remember much. But now his mind is flooded with years' worth of torture and rape, and it's actually too much for him to handle. He can't stand the constant pain, and he will do anything, ANYTHING, for relief.

Drug abuse, bad decision sex, self-harm, violence, he's desperate for anything to take his mind off his memories for even a second. Please give me Bucky totally destroying himself.

+ none of this works well enough, and culminates in suicide attempts

Tortured by sleep deprivation & coerced into agreeing to sex

[(Anonymous)]

So the other night I (like a fool) stayed up all night writing fic, under the assumption that I'd be able to sleep in the next morning, but it turned out my work shift had gotten switched around so that didn't work out; then there were some other things I had to deal with and blah blah... so by the time I was finally able to go to bed I had been up for almost 48 hours straight. And it was sooo painfully horrible - by the end of it I seriously felt like I would do ANYTHING for some sleep.

This got me thinking: what if this was one of the types of torture that Hydra (or your baddie of choice) used against Bucky or Steve, to coerce them into agreeing to sex? I imagine either of them would last a lot hell of a lot longer than me, but at some point even they would crack - sleep is one of the most basic physiological needs, right?

So they are being deprived of sleep by whatever method, and the torturer tells them that the only way they'll be allowed to finally get some rest is if they "consent" to be fucked. And after many many days/nights of this horribleness, they can't take it anymore and agree.

I'm imagining Bucky or Steve, all tired and docile and miserable, allowing themselves to be touched and stroked and manipulated this way and that and finally fucked by the torturer/rapist. And the whole time it's horrible, but at the same time they're so woozy from lack of sleep that it almost feels like an out of body experience, like they're watching it from outside of their own body, half as if it's happening to someone else... You get my drift.

And even though it's painful and humiliating, all they can think (during) is how it's worth it... How blissful sleep will be once it's finally allowed...

THEN: after, when everything is over and they've finally gotten some sleep and woken up in their right minds again, they are absolutely horrified at themselves, completely overcome by shame, at what they had "agreed" to. Maybe they start having flashbacks of half-remembered humiliations, like begging for all kinds of dirtybadwrongs at the torturer's behest. And it's like: I did all that just for some goddamn sleep?? I'm supposed to be a supersoldier and I cracked so easily?? Etc.

+ If they get rescued/escape and have to give a briefing (or have to tell someone else, a friend or lover) about what happened, and they are super ashamed of themselves & think for sure that they'll be thought less of because come on, sleep deprivation, that's like baby torture stuff, right?

++ If someone good (friend/lover/fellow avenger) somehow ends up watching them getting fucked after they finally crack, and it totally looks they're having consensual, slow, trembly sex - basically they look like a complete slut, giving it up to the baddie

+++ if they are both captured and subjected to this kind of torture and are forced to do stuff to each other and RAMIFICATIONS

++++++ if one of them cracks first and begs the other one to give in and EVEN MORE RAMIFICATIONS XD

Re: Tortured by sleep deprivation & coerced into agreeing to sex

[(Anonymous)]

Aw.

Hydra turning Steve into an asset

[(Anonymous)]

Somewhere between the first Avengers and CATWS, Hydra starts the process of turning Steve into another soldier. Everything he does is monitored and most of the people he comes into contact with are Hydra. Maybe they moved him to DC because he was starting to make friends and they wanted to keep him as isolated as possible. Maybe he's so lonely and desperate for approval that he starts clinging to the members of the Strike team, who act friendly but them make subtle jabs and gaslighty comments that make him second-guess everything.

So basically Steve slowly losing himself to Hydra and not even realizing it, to the point where he's willing to do anything to get his teammates' approval. Maybe Brock or someone else in charge basically becomes his handler, and he starts obeying them without question because it's the only thing he can do anymore.

Extra moldy tacos if this results in Steve getting passed around like a party favor and convincing himself that it's fine because he's just helping his teammates.

Re: Hydra turning Steve into an asset

[(Anonymous)]

Pleeeaaaase?

Maintenance milking

[(Anonymous)]

Inspired by another prompt a few pages back. How about, HYDRA's enhancements to the Winter Soldier result in the overproduction of seminal fluid. So the Asset literally needs maintenance milking on a regular schedule. This anon is very partial to prostate stimulation but it can really be anything from handjobs to a penis pump. Extra bonus points if it goes on to recovering Bucky asking others to help him.

Re: Maintenance milking

[(Anonymous)]

Yes please.

Err accidental self- castration maybe by HYDRA

[(Anonymous)]

I just had a dream and am currently squicked out, squirming around with discomfort trying to dislodge the thought, but I really must share it with you in case someone wants it.

In this dream, a guy was so drugged out that he managed to fail to realise his hand was coated in a corrosive substance as he tried to masturbate. He lost his dick and scarred up his ass.

once I woke up, logic demanded to know how he didn't lose his hand too, which led to thinking of our dear friend bucky and his arm.

Ah, so, wherever this takes you, nonniemice!

Sam/Bucky/(HYDRA) body-swap trash

[(Anonymous)]

Sam and Bucky are in an established relationship - whether this is still fairly new or they’ve been together for a while is up to you. As a result of his repeated rapes while with HYDRA Bucky either doesn’t want sex at all (or maybe just doesn’t want penetrative sex) or can only get hard when he’s being hurt/humiliated, and since he’s not yet ready to tell Sam about the rapes (though Sam is intuitive enough to guess that something might’ve happened, though not able to imagine the extent of it) they stick with either blowjobs/handjobs or slow vanilla sex, with Sam constantly checking in to make sure that Bucky’s enjoying himself despite staying completely soft.

Then, Sam!Cap and Bucky!Cap are out on a mission clearing out an old HYDRA base, they get hit by some kind of ray-gun that bodyswaps them i.e Sam is now in Bucky’s body and vice versa. They’re both so disoriented that HYDRA manages to subdue and capture them - not realising that the bodyswap worked. Sam and Bucky agree it’s best if HYDRA a) doesn’t know about the bodyswap, and b) doesn’t know how much they mean to each other. Cue Bucky trying to warn Sam about what HYDRA might do to Bucky’s body and Bucky wanting to take the pain to spare Sam, but also not wanting HYDRA to degrade Sam’s body in that way - and then, Sam’s moment of realisation about what HYDRA’s going to do to him and what they’d done to Bucky for all those years, knowing that he has to stay in-character in order not to give himself away and also, when Bucky in Sam’s body tries to intervene, Sam goading them into just sticking with him, wanting Bucky to be spared the experience at least this one time.

Essentially it’s a lose-lose situation: either way, when they finally switch back, whoever it happened to will be dealing with the emotional aftermath when they get back into their own body, and whoever had to watch it happen will have to deal with the physical aftermath.

So HYDRA does their thing - Sam in Bucky’s body gets fucked on both ends by a lot of men in a row, and with stun-batons, and also gets just straight-up tortured, and the worst part is that he gets hard from it, and comes from it, from the pain and disgust and humiliation, and sees all of those things reflected in his own eyes when he manages to make eye-contact with Bucky at some point along the way.

Eventually they get left alone and swap back and fight their way out then - OR they swap back halfway through things, and Bucky - back in his own body and familiar with this kind of pain, manages to free himself, kills a bunch of HYDRA, gets Sam free and they get out of there.

Cue the aftermath, and how they deal with going through something like that. I don’t want Sam to be in the “caretaker” role i.e solely there to serve Bucky’s recovery - I’d like to see them both dealing with the trauma of what happened, and helping each other work through it - in particular I’d like to see Bucky taking care of Sam (of which there isn’t enough fic), and having had previous experience with dealing with this kind of thing, being able to help Sam work through it. How does this affect their sex life going forward? Maybe they both recognise that Bucky being unable to get hard unless he’s being hurt/humiliated isn’t a thing that needs to be fixed, and having gone through that neither of them are willing to use the hurt/humiliation to get Bucky off. Maybe Sam figures out how to make Bucky come via prostate stimulation (even if he still stays completely soft).

This prompt got really long, mostly because I’m planning to write some of this myself, but I figured I’d share it here just in case anyone feels inspired by any element of it - I’d really love to see what people come up with!

+ 10000 for post-mission bathing/cleaning each other down
+ 10000000 for any kind of aftermath-related fic

Re: Sam/Bucky/(HYDRA) body-swap trash

[(Anonymous)]

I love everything about this.

uncomfortable platonic sex

[(Anonymous)]

At some point after Bucky's escape, Hydra makes a last-ditch attempt to get him back. As an unfortunately literal fuck-you to Bucky, they activate some conditioned safety measures that cause Bucky to imprint on a handler. This process also forces Bucky to need regular fucking from that handler, for a very long period, or bad things start to happen to his body and mind. Through mishap on Hydra's part or willpower on Bucky's, the process is subverted so that Bucky imprints on Steve.

Which would be great, except Bucky and Steve only love each other platonically. Very, very platonically. The idea of fucking each other doesn't feel quite as gross as incest, but it's in the same family. And they have to find a way to fuck like bunnies.

+ awful, unsexy, uncomfortable sex

+ this is why Bucky comes in from the cold, and he immediately hits on Steve, who is so weirded out that his best friend is seducing him -- but after Steve is so obviously uninterested, Bucky has to tell him the truth

+ something where the miserable sex threatens their relationship, but maybe they overcome with the Power of Friendship, and maaaybe even find a way to find intimacy, comfort, and pleasure in their weird platonic sex life. Or maybe it ends miserably for everyone :D

+++ because of his past rapes, triggers, sexual issues, etc., the situation necessitates Bucky spilling a lot of the intimate and unsavory details of his sexual abuse and its psychological fallout to Steve. Which is agony for him to talk about, and it's even worse because he and Steve are platonic friends and Bucky doesn't see him as someone who belongs in the sexual sphere of Bucky's life, which includes knowing about and dealing with his rapes. But he has to talk about it anyway, which is so painful, because that's what I love

Re: uncomfortable platonic sex

[(Anonymous)]

PLEASE.

Heightened senses trash

[(Anonymous)]

Okay, so I read about super healing powers etc frequently, but what about heightened senses? In a trashy context, obviously.

- At a safehouse, the Winter Soldier totally hears his handlers jerking off in the next room. Hears the stories they share to rile each other up, and he doesn't know if they're inventing these things or if he really can't remember that.

- Maybe they're on the way back from a mission, everybody's sweaty and probably hasn't had a chance to shower for a couple of days? Bucky starts gagging the moment someone unzips their pants, not even talking about shoving that dick down his throat.

- Or maybe post CATWS, a mission goes wrong, Bucky (or Steve) gets the trash treatment and when he's rescued he tries to play it down, but the other obviously smells blood and semen and so on.

Wherever your minds take you, nonnies!

Re: Heightened senses trash

[(Anonymous)]

YES PLEASE.

There's always the stuff about heightened hearing, but we need more heightened sense of smell. Smell is so powerful and triggering!!

Huge loads

[(Anonymous)]

Let's say the serum causes supersoldiers to produce a huge amount of cum. Let's say Steve's been fantasizing about finishing inside someone ever since, but we're really talking enema sized loads so, that wouldn't be polite, right?
Let's say Steve and Bucky get caught by HYDRA, and they know about this and decide to have some fun with their toy soldiers.

+++ bonus points if Steve feels super guilty because he's hurting Bucky, but he also gets the biggest shameboner when they tell him to fill Bucky up

Re: Huge loads

[(Anonymous)]

YESSSSS!!!!

Yet another captured Steve and Bucky prompt

[(Anonymous)]

So Steve and Bucky get captured by Hydra, and Steve of course tells them to do whatever they want to him, and he'll cooperate as long as they leave Bucky alone. Hydra decides to take Steve up on this in the trashiest way possible. He expected the beatings. What he didn't expect was all the horrible trashy rape and humiliation, with bonus explanations of how they used to do all this to Bucky, how Bucky was such a good boy for them before Steve got hold of him and started mucking up their toy.

Bucky is, of course, forced to watch Steve be raped and degraded each day by reenactments of all the worst things that were done to him, so Steve keeps doing his best to be STRONG and STOIC and grit his teeth and bear the pain and humiliation, because he can't bear the thought of it happening to Bucky.

Which makes Bucky feel like extra awful scum every day when the Hydra agents come to his cell before they drag Steve in each morning and offer him a choice: He can come back to Hydra, where he belongs, take his punishments for leaving, and be a good boy for them, or he can be responsible for another day of watching his supposed best friend take his place.

Basically, give me all of Bucky's emotional agony over being not as good, not as strong as Steve, enough of a "coward" to let Steve take all the treatment that he "deserves", set to the trashy background music of Hydra/Steve gangbangs.

Does this end with Bucky breaking down and begging them to let him come back (which would probably include forced crawling/bootlicking/other proof of his devotion to Hydra and how sorry he is that he ever tried to leave, while Steve gets moved to a new facility so Hydra can pretend they set him free until they wipe all memory of Steve Rogers from their Soldier's brain)? Does it end with Steve and Bucky escaping/being rescued? Does it end on a delightfully ambiguous note after nothing but emotional porn and regular porn? I am fine with anything, and would be delighted to see what people can come up with!

Re: Yet another captured Steve and Bucky prompt

[(Anonymous)]

THIS

Bucky/Rumlow - Brock is the Asset's favourite toy

[(Anonymous)]

Every time a mission goes well, The Winter Soldier gets to pick someone to be his reward. Rumlow turns out to be his fave, and has been for the better part of a decade. It gets progressively worse when Rumlow becomes the Winter Soldier's handler because if Rumlow runs the mission well, Pierce will allow the WS to 'play' with him (Do whatever you like, just don't break him). If Rumlow botches the mission, both Pierce and the WS will punish him. Since 'Playing' is considerably less damaging than being punished, Rumlow has a lot of incentive to make sure every mission is a success, which earns him a reputation for being a ruthless bastard.

Fast forward to Avengers capturing a bunch of agents.

Rumlow catches sight of Bucky and goes pale. Everyone assumes it's because he's feeling guilty over what he did to Bucky cause Bucky remembers having sex with Rumlow, but doesn't remember the context. Instead, Rumlow's mentally going through a list of 'things the Asset likes' and trying to keep his face neutral cause the Winter Soldier has no patience for crying and Rumlow doesn't really want to find out if the metal arm's inbuilt stun baton is still functional or not.

Bonus: Some of the other Hydra agents who know what actually happened find out that Bucky is being sent to interrogate Rumlow. They're caught between an admiration for the ruthlessness shown; and terror because if Captain America endorsed this sort of thing, then what was in store for them?

Bonus +: SHIELD agents wondering why the captured HYDRA soldiers are suddenly being more cooperative after Bucky's interrogation with Rumlow is mentioned.

Bonus ++: Bucky gets Rumlow alone and confronts him about the memories. Rumlow is quiet for a moment, then laughs, and promptly gets the shit kicked out of him. He doesn't tell them the truth because no one would believe him anyway. Up to filler if anyone figures it out.



BASICALLY: NO COMFORT FOR RUMLOW. NONE AT ALL. PLEASE.

Re: Bucky/Rumlow - Brock is the Asset's favourite toy

[(Anonymous)]

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I'M. SO HERE FOR THISSSSSSS. FUCK. YES.

I just. God I love victimized villains. Being a rape victim doesn't absolve him of his crimes, but his crimes don't excuse him being raped, either.

#TEAM EMOTIONALLY TORTURE RUMLOW 2K16

Bucky doesn't know he was raped...until he starts remembering.

[(Anonymous)]

Basically what it says on the tin.

There's a lot of stuff Bucky does not remember...dates, times, places, people...rapes.

Slowly it all comes back to him, but it's rather confusing. Maybe in the beginning he's not so sure. Maybe after that he thinks HE was the rapist and beats himself up over it. Until he finally realizes that he was the victim - and that is had happened many times, often, in the most brutal of ways.

Mostly what I'm looking for is the sheer horror/shock of realizing this has happened to him, and having to relive it. Maybe added in with a dash or denial, disbelief, and feelings of inferiority, self-blame, and emasculation. Pondering on why he didn't fight them (he was strong enough!) or on how he's less of a man for what happened to him are bonuses.

If he's in a relationship during this trainwreck, I prefer Steve if it's m/m and Nat if m/f (OT3 also works) - but I'm perfectly fine with stuff just being platonic with the Avengers and him suffering flashbacks on his own,scared of what his friends will think.

Obviously extra bonus points if everyone finds out. Extra bonus points if someone inadvertently says/does things that make it worse.

The 40s are calling

[(Anonymous)]

I see a lot of fic (not here, obviously) where Steve is portrayed as the epitome of whatever's the current SJW doctrine on each and every topic. Bear with me, I don't doubt that Steve's got a good heart, but if you're slapped through time right from the 40s, you're not gonna start off with the exact same opinions as someone who has grown up now and seen all the developments and shifts of public opinion about so many things.
(take for example Comic!Steve threatening to spank Bucky for misbehaving, etc, etc)

Anyway, what I want is, for lack of a better word, *problematic* Steve struggling with his recovery from trash stuff even more because his own internalized shit gets in the way. Or, even worse, he accidentally steps on Bucky's (or Sams) toes as he tries to be be helpful in their recovery.

Re: The 40s are calling

[(Anonymous)]

Wow, I really like that!

making Bucky feel physically good and emotionally terrible

[(Anonymous)]

My needs are simple: Bucky endures a rape where his rapist's goal is to make it mindblowingly good for Bucky. The rapist is very skilled and Bucky ends up having the most shockingly pleasurable sex of his life. Except! The entire time this is going on, the rapist is also subjecting Bucky to horrible verbal and emotional abuse. Shaming him for his reactions, calling him a slut, belittling and degrading him, objectifying him verbally, blaming him for the rape by saying he's irresistible and asking for it, etc. So as tears spill down Bucky's cheeks, we have to wonder: is that from pleasure or from shame?

+ Bucky ends up being unable to restrain his reactions to the pleasure; flushing, writhing, moaning

+ Bucky being very vulnerable to the insults hurled at him, believing and internalizing them

+ crying

+ this might work well with Bucky early in his captivity, before Hydra wiped him, where pleasure was scarce and he knew exactly how ashamed of himself he should be

Re: making Bucky feel physically good and emotionally terrible

[(Anonymous)]

I was just thinking about prompting pretty much the same thing. absolutely seconded

Cap 3 spoiler policy + request for temporary co-mod

[trashmod]

Hey there dumpster divers,

Cap 3 is almost upon us, and you know what that means: SPOILERS. Official trashmeme spoiler policy: no Cap 3 prompts/fills in the main dumpster until June 6th, a month after the North American release. A separate post for extra-spoiled garbage will go up shortly and you can put all your Civil War stuff there.

Also, since trashmod is going to have to wait for the North American release, this is an official request for a temporary mod willing to keep an eye on the spoiler post until May 6th. Email hydratrashmod@gmail.com if you're interested, and let me know what your Tumblr/LJ/DW/trashchat username is, just so I know I'm not handing the place off to one of those weird anti-HTP trolls or someone who's left a trail of wank and devastation in seventeen consecutive fandoms. Hopefully it shouldn't get too crazy--I just need someone to keep the spoilers corralled and freeze any subthreads that get wanky. Decisions about what's on-topic in a post-CA:CW world can wait.

Re: Cap 3 spoiler policy + request for temporary co-mod

[(Anonymous)]

I'm in Europe and will be able to see the film around april 27th, so I technically could temporarily mod after seeing it, but I don't want to anytime before, and might just go mostly offline the last few days before Civil War.

Bucky's a biter

[(Anonymous)]

So I have been thinking about Bucky being recaptured (either post CATWS/pre CW or the asset goes rouge for awhile) and he is not happy about being in Hydra's custody again. Fighting, biting, etc.

So that's good trash, right? But what I REALLY want is some hydra person to use a dog catcher's pole on bucky (the kind with the loop at the end of a long stick). What can I say, some of my trash is gear-based? but I would really love this.

Re: Bucky's a biter

[(Anonymous)]

Oh my god, YES. I've seen a couple of fills w/ leashes but this is like 100000x better!!

The winter soldier has a dedicated trash party trigger

[(Anonymous)]

Hydra is all about efficiency, and having an asset whose decades of conditioning could be fucked up by an overly handsy handler is not something they want to deal with. So if anyone tries to fuck the winter soldier as a dare or out of boredom, they're gonna have 200 pounds of pure weapon bearing down on them and fighting back.

That is, unless they have the magic word. The asset's conditioning includes a trigger phrase that turns him into an eager to please fuck toy, whose only goal is to satisfy anyone and everyone in the room until he's given the counter trigger.

And now for the actual prompt:

Bucky is mostly recovered and back with Steve and the others. A mission to take down Hydra goes wrong and they're captured by someone who happens to be a high enough rank to know the trigger. After some pretty fruitless efforts to draw out the obedient soldier once more, the Hydra agent finally settles on the trigger, after which point he frees Bucky's restraints. Cue Steve's horror when instead of punching the guy in the face, he goes right to his knees and starts sucking him off.

What follows is a full fledged trash party with many Hydra agents and Bucky as an active participant, being vocal, fingering himself, the works. If he has to get off Steve (and Sam and Nat), even better.

Super extra bonus points if Steve breaks them out, but Bucky hasn't been given the counter trigger yet, so even though they're out, he's still diligently trying to please Steve who is rejecting the very well practiced advances to the best of his abilities.

++ if Bucky was not in any sort of romantic relationship with any of them, and had no desire to be