Dumpster #3: The Great Pacific Garbage Patch

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Holy shitballs, look at us go. Welcome to Captain America fandom's resident wretched hive of scum and villainy: ROUND THREE. AKA Bad Guys Do Dirtybadwrong Things To Your Faves, AKA the Hydra Trash Party kinkmeme. As usual, BLANKET NON-CON AND NSFW WARNINGS apply: just assume going in that everything in this landfill is unfit for human consumption.

Rules in brief: don't be a jerk except to fictional characters, warnings for particularly fucked-up garbage are nice but not required, thou shalt not judge the trashiness of thy neighbor's kinks unless thy neighbor is trying to pass off their rotting banana peels and half-eaten pizza crusts as a healthy romantic dinner for two, off-topic comments may be chucked out of the dumpster at management's discretion, management's discretion decrees that omegaverse, soulbond AUs, D/s-verse, non-superpowered AUs, and dark!good guys AUs are off-topic.

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Round 3 is closed; comments and fills in existing threads are still welcome, but all new prompts go to Round 4.

Comments

HYDRA puts a camera in Bucky's eye

[(Anonymous)]

So I was rewatching Agents of Shield (don't need to have seen it to get this prompt, assuming I explain it well enough) and there's an early episode where they encounter this woman who has a camera embedded in her eye. Someone is controlling her by watching her through it so they see everything she sees and can send her messages by having text appear at the bottom of her vision (also there's a kill-switch in it and she can see through walls and stuff when she closes her eyes for some reason I don't remember). I immediately thought about HYDRA using a similar device to keep track of the Winter Soldier. It would be a convenient way to give him commands while he's in the field and keep an eye on him to the extant that he has absolutely zero privacy and autonomy.

The trash: I have two scenarios in mind. I am open to others, really the creep factor of watching his every move and being able to give him commands wherever he is is what's most appealing about this to me (in the episode, the team finds out what is going on with the camera after they've hacked into her video feed and watch her write the phrase "can I sleep?" on a piece of paper and I was immediately like "that is some depressing shit right there. Now make it into porn!"). One is pre-TWS, he is assigned on a honeypot mission for whatever reason and someone has to use it to actually coach him through not just interacting with people, but seducing someone and having sex with them. Like, some agent is literally instructing him on the mechanics of sex (and also probably jacking off at the same time and saving these videos for later).

Second scenario is post-TWS somebody *cough*Rumlow*cough* is still using this device to control Winter/Bucky (mentally he's still the obedient Soldier but Rumlow is coaching him to act more like human-like). Rumlow gets him to go back to Steve, ostensibly to get info but really so that Rumlow can force Bucky to initiate sex with Steve and watch while telling Bucky what to do to him (and also save those videos for later. Maybe someday share them with Steve).

Re: HYDRA puts a camera in Bucky's eye

[(Anonymous)]

What if Hydra kept all the recorded footage, and when Steve and co find video of Bucky's rapes, this time it's from Bucky's own perspective?

revictimization trash

[(Anonymous)]

I'd like to see a fully recovered, happy Bucky recaptured by Hydra and punished or beginning to be re-broken. Hydra gets the Asset back and treat him with as much dehumanization as they did before, except that this time it's both surreal for Bucky because he's solid in his understanding of himself as a person and how they broke him the first time around, and horrifying because he knows exactly how and why they're doing what they're doing but there's no getting out of it. Bucky knows he's a person, he's been treated as a person by everyone else for months or years, and yet here he is again with no control over his body, his food, anything, being talked about like an object (not even talked TO) and beaten, drugged and raped into compliance while slowly going crazy wondering if he ever got away at all.

+Rumlow and Rollins talking about Bucky like he isn't even there, about how funny it was that Steve or the avengers had the Asset pretending to be a person
++ Bucky slipping back into his old compliance when they order him around or rape him even though he's still very much still his recovered self, because it's less bad than if they have to beat him into compliance but he hates himself for it
+++ Bucky being painfully aware of how humiliating things like being hosed down or given an enema before cryo are, even though he remembers going through those things, he didn't experience any emotion about them the first time around and so didn't have to deal with the first hand emotional experience of it when he started recovering
++++ Bucky gets rescued, but Steve/Sam/Nat interpret everything he does as him being re-broken or reprogrammed even though he wasn't, and Bucky starts to doubt whether Hydra really broke him or not

(and yes, I've read Reunion Tour and the other one whose name I'm forgetting where Bucky gets blackmailed into going along with a Hydra gangbang, but if there are other fics in a similar vein I'd love links)

Re: revictimization trash

[(Anonymous)]

I WILL GIVE WHOEVER FILLS THIS MY FIRSTBORN.

Peggy knew

[(Anonymous)]

Sort of inspired by the Howlies find out about the trash prompt a few pages ago, what if Peggy was the only one who knows about Bucky's abuse during his first captivity. Everyone knows he was tortured, sure, but maybe Peggy translates/decodes some files that detail brutal rapes, etc. Does she destroy them? Does she believe them? Maybe Bucky somehow knows she knows and begs her on his knees to not tell Steve or Phillips or have him sent home because he'll do anything, Agent Carter, anything to not be separated from Steve

Re: Peggy knew

[(Anonymous)]

:) :) :)

promiscuous Bucky

[(Anonymous)]

There was another prompt for promiscuity a bit ago, but I think this idea is different enough to warrant its own thread.

Once he starts remembering his rapes, Bucky's coping method is to go out and have as much meaningless sex as he possibly can. His subconscious reasoning: if he acts like sex doesn't matter, then what happened to him didn't matter, and he doesn't have to truly face the overwhelming horror of decades' worth of sexual abuse. There's nothing wrong with being promiscuous, but the way Bucky's going about it isn't healthy; it's less reclaiming his sexuality and more trying to continue his own dehumanization so he doesn't have to acknowledge the depth of his violation.

+ Bucky has sex with several of his teammates

+ sometimes he ends up in messy situations where one or both/all parties have to bail, or there are hurt feelings afterwards, because obviously Bucky isn't in this for tender emotional sex or a relationship, and that's not the page every hookup will be on

I'm totally open for ideas on where this should go from there. Does he continue repressing forever? When the impact of his abuse hits him, does he close up shop and take a vow of celibacy? Does he continue being promiscuous for fun, but learn to do it in a healthier, more positive way?

Re: promiscuous Bucky

[(Anonymous)]

Oh man this is so heartbreaking and I am so here for it

Bucky sleeping his way through the Avengers and with several strangers he meets in skeevy bars across NY. It starts when he begins getting flashbacks to/nightmares about his past rapes, but he's already got so much trauma on his plate that he just can't stand to add this to the already overwhelming heap he has to deal with. So instead, he tries to desensitize himself by having as much rough, meaningless sex as he can and convince himself that it isn't as bad as he thinks.

Except, it doesn't work as well as he hoped it would. On more than one occasion, he unintentionally lashed out at his partner or burst into tears and they had to stop whatever they were doing to comfort him. But no! Bucky's stronger than this, he knows he is, he has to be! He tries to laugh it off and make it seem like nothing, but he can tell they don't believe him, and eventually they have to say they're not comfortable continuing and they leave. Now, he feels like a failure in addition to feeling weak. He can't even pretend to not be fucked up! Then, a particularly nasty incident happens and he ends up throwing his partner off of him, they hit their head on the opposite wall and fall unconscious. He just bolts.

He stops having sex after that, terrified of hurting someone else, but still refusing to admit to himself, let alone anyone else, that he has to work this out and get some help. His nightmares double, now with images of him beating his partner to death. He can't even touch himself without feeling guilt and revulsion. And what if soon after this, Steve/Sam/Nat figure out he was sexually abused, and they're not sure if they should talk to him about it before he's ready, but they hate seeing their friend so messed up over this. So they decide that it's worth the risk to bring up the convo, slowly and calmly and respectfully, but Bucky blanches. The last thing he wanted was for someone, especially someone he cares so much about, to see how weak he really is. They tell him he's not weak, he's the strongest person they know, that he survived so much and he's doing so well, but it's like he's deaf to their words. He doesn't believe them, and the anxiety is too much, so he shuts down. He doesn't notice when someone moves him to his bed, he doesn't notice that days are passing. It's all just a long white haze, not even nightmares or thirst or hunger to keep him present, just an overwhelming blankness

raped to death

[(Anonymous)]

This is the worst thing I've ever written, but Bucky and Steve are captured, and, while Steve is forced to watch, they rape Bucky, over and over and over, endlessly, until, despite all his struggles and pleas and capitulations, his body can no longer sustain it and he dies. Then they keep fucking his corpse until rigor mortis sets in, just to watch Steve suffer.

Re: raped to death

[(Anonymous)]

Now I'm having flashbacks to GOOSH GOOSH.

inability to comprehend language

[(Anonymous)]

Something slightly different in the theme of Hydra having badly damaged Bucky before Steve could pick him up:

Hydra fried Bucky too hard, but this time his normal motor skills and cognitive functions weren't impaired. No, what was broken was his ability to comprehend and produce language, any language at all; he can't speak, he can't understand when spoken to, he can't write or read, even sign language is too much for him. For the hardest difficulty setting, he could also be badly touchphobic.

I can't decide what interpretation of Bucky would work better here: amnesiac Bucky who doesn't understand Steve isn't a handler, in which case their challenge would be making him feel safe and get that he's free; or a Bucky who remembers and identifies as himself, but is still so traumatized and scared, and his condition makes him feel even more broken and worthless and helpless, and he wants to rebuild the bridge with Steve but doesn't know how or if he even deserves to.

emotional torture

[(Anonymous)]

I need and want for several Hydra goons to have made one or more rapes the worst kind of emotional torture, so that the rape itself just hammers in the humiliation. They mock him, gaslight him, confuse him, make him try to please them except he's been set up to fail, force him to degrade himself, dredge up levels of shame he shouldn't even be capable of, and it's only once he's sobbing in sheer hurt that they finally fuck him.

++ Bucky tries to tell this story to Steve, and cries

++ the things they taunted him about are insecurities Bucky carries to this day

they stopped raping him and Bucky feels kinda bad about it

[(Anonymous)]

Bucky was never exactly twinky in adulthood, but when he was first captured, he was younger and smaller and prettier. He was attractive to the men, and he was raped enthusiastically. As the decades wore on, though, and he got scruffier and bigger and older-looking, the rapes tapered off.

This has left Bucky feeling innately undesirable, but it's for such a fucked up reason he feels he can't explain it to anybody. I will give you my firstborn if this involved rejecting Steve's romantic overtures; Bucky knows he's disgusting and feels Steve must be making fun of him or doing it out of pity.

Re: they stopped raping him and Bucky feels kinda bad about it

[(Anonymous)]

Jfc this x 10000000

Come dump

[(Anonymous)]

Sometimes, when the Asset is on a mission, he and his handlers have a lot of downtime where they're just waiting around for orders. Hydra needs to finish recon or put some players in place before the assassination happens. To pass the time of course, his handlers use the Asset for entertainment. They rape him repeatedly, and when they're done they always plug him up nicely, trapping all the come inside the Asset until the next time they want to fuck him. Over time, with the fucking and the plugging, the come builds up until the Asset is so stuffed with come that his stomach is swollen and grossly distended, he can't move without cramping, and he just wants to take the plug out but he can't or he'll be punished and oh look Rollins is ready for another go.

Basically, the longest, slowest come enema of all time.

+If the only food he gets in this time is also come, so his insides are literally full of spunk and nothing else

++his handlers put a catheter in, and the pressure in his stomach (both to void and to piss) is so painful it makes him cry

Re: Come dump

[(Anonymous)]

+++ Murphy or somebody won't shut up about their new "juice cleanse" so Rumlow decides to put the asset on one too. It's maybe a little heavier on the jizz and a little lighter on the kale and garlic or whatever bullshit Murphy keeps yammering about, but it's still liquid, right? Right.

Steve actually IS bothered by Bucky's past.

[(Anonymous)]

So basically I want a scenario where Steve and Bucky have feelings for each other, and Steve absolutely is his own sweet and selfless self - but on some basic, primal level, he's just so disturbed and disgusted by Bucky's past.

Not just the trashy bits, but the assassinations and the mind wipes, too.

And Bucky is absolutely worried about Steve being disgusted by him, so Steve can't/won't let it show - but every time they touch, he just can't stop thinking about it: those hands have killed, that mind has been wiped and might not be his own, that mouth and ass have serviced dozens of Hydra cocks...and he just can't let it go.

It's even worse when Bucky remembers something and tells him, especially if he's in his arms. Steve wants to comfort him, but really it makes Steve want to run away, but he can't, because Bucky would see it as rejection.

Until, I guess, he comes to a breaking point and can't handle it anymore and things blow up in their faces.

(Oh, and, he does genuinely love him. he's just disturbed and disgusted, too. So it's all just fucked up)

Re: Steve actually IS bothered by Bucky's past.

[(Anonymous)]

I can't tell if I like this or am really disturbed by it or both. I can see Steve having this horror, and the compulsion to fixate on the horror Bucky experienced (isn't that what we've been doing this past year and a half? and these guys aren't even our real and beloved childhood friends), but it's so unfair and dehumanizing to reduce Bucky down to his body, specifically what his body experienced when it was completely out of his control. This could be very painful if done right.

teaching the asset to be a person

[(Anonymous)]

So sometimes Hydra needs the Asset to act like a person for long enough to make a kill or whatever. Someone--Rumlow and Rollins, preferably--have to dress and groom the Asset and teach him how to act. Except teaching the Asset how to flirt and be charming brings out the old Bucky personality (though maybe not the memories), so you have R+R with their gross no homo toxic masculinity trying to teach charming Bucky Barnes how to act like A Real Man.

+weird Asset knows how to shower and dress but will only do exactly as much as he's told because he's kind of a defiant asshole still
++Rumlow and Rollins being kind of weirded out by the whole thing, especially as Bucky starts acting more like himself but they have no idea where it's coming from--like, did you teach him that faggy shit? No, I thought you did
+++corrective rape after the Asset practices flirting with them a little too well

Re: teaching the asset to be a person

[(Anonymous)]

Apparently punitive rape directed at Bucky's very personality is all I need in life

mermen, body horror tw

[(Anonymous)]

First of all, I want to apologize to all medics and biologists here for the following craziness.

This idea is kinda inspired by two gorgeous pictures:
http://bluandorange.tumblr.com/post/89944600285/secretary-pierce-is-treating-everyone-to-sushi (merman-Bucky by bluandorange)
and
http://zeroafterdark.tumblr.com/post/94284177022/makeshift-mermaid (merman by zeroafterdark)

So what if Hydra needs to perform some tricky underwater operation which seems to be impossible for a regular human being or just some authorities have pretty crazy ideas... tbh, the exact reason doesn't really matter, but. Hydra scientists try to create a "merman" by sewing together Bucky's torso and a tail of big fish (maybe shark, idk), manipulating with his respiratory tracts and putting him on meds or hormones of some kind to help him "adapt" to new conditions. Will those experiments just leave Bucky hopelessly maimed? Or will the scientists succeed, and what will Steve do if he finds out?

Re: mermen, body horror tw

[(Anonymous)]

Oh my god though, that last link.

I never knew I needed something like this until now! If it was in Pierce's time, he could show off his "creation", keep Bucky in a huge tank as a centerpiece for a party. And when they take him out of the tank, they don't even need to tie him down because he physically can't run away. Everyone wants to touch the tail of course, and feel where the tail joins with the body, and they're just treating Bucky like some dumb, exotic animal in a zoo. Maybe the tail (or the joined part) is extra sensitive too, because they fucked up the nerves when they attatched it to him, so all the hands on him are unbearable.

I am so down for this prompt

Sam/Natasha, HYDRA made them do it

[(Anonymous)]

Sam and Natasha get captured by HYDRA during the search for Bucky, and HYDRA decides to have a little fun with them. They both end up stripped naked and given the ultimatum of: they can either fuck each other while the HYDRA agents watch (and they'd better put on a good show, while they're at it), or they can watch each other get tortured and then raped by the HYDRA agents.

I'd prefer a Natasha who is very uninterested in romance and also asexual, and no prior relationship between the two, though fucked up aftermath coping Sam/Nat would be totally fine.

I just really, really want more fics with both Sam and Natasha.

Also, I don't know how they escape, but
++Aftermath bonus hiding what happened from Steve, because he would only pile endless guilt on himself for "letting" it happen and not going off entirely alone to search for Bucky.

Fill: Cry When You Get Older (1/3)

[(Anonymous)]

Content warning: non-graphic reference to attempted rape of a minor.


She's huddled against the wall in the corner of her cell when they bring Sam in. It's been three days and fourteen hours since they took her clothes. Her left arm is broken, as are two of her ribs. The back of her head is sticky with blood. They haven't fed her.

They keep their guns trained on her until the cell door slams shut: Sam locked in with her, six HYDRA agents safely outside the bars. Natasha could laugh at that, almost, if the smallest movement didn't send agony lancing through her skull. She is an Avenger, and an exquisite fighter, but she is human through and through. No training can make her less small, less breakable: her style depends on not getting hit. She can't take punishment like Thor, or mend her shattered bones like Steve. The HYDRA goons are still afraid of her, which is gratifying, but she is crippled with pain and nausea. She doubts she could stand, and doesn't try.

Sam stumbles over to kneel at her side. The bullet wound in his thigh has been bandaged. The skin of his wrists is ugly, abraded, and one eye is swollen nearly shut. Like her, he is naked.

They listen while the ringleader explains what is going to happen. His voice has a hollow, muffled quality, like a sound heard underwater. She is not surprised, but Sam jerks back from her and struggles to his feet, turning to face their tormentors. She hears him refuse, hears the horror in his voice.

"You fuck her, Wilson, or we do. All of us. And we'll do it mean. Think she'll survive that? I don't know: looks like a nasty head wound to me." He leers at them, enjoying himself. Two of the others already have their pants open. One has his cellphone out. "She might—she's tough. Up to you."

"You want to—" Sam's voice breaks. "Fuck. You want to do this sick shit to someone, do it to me. Leave her alone. She's hurt."

The ringleader laughs. "Tempting. But no. This way, we get the whole fucking lot of you." Inwardly, Natasha winces. "What are you so worried about, anyway? You got to figure this ain't her first rodeo."

And that's—well. Not true, not the way this vicious bastard means it, although she knows it's something certain people assume about her, based partly on rumors about the Red Room and partly, she thinks, on their own bitter familiarity with the way power over children is too often exploited. But none of their handlers had hurt the little Widows like that. Or rather: one had tried. She'd been ten, and she had killed him.

Still, it might be easier for Sam to think that rape holds no terror for her, or at least, no novelty. He has fallen back to his knees. His head is bowed, his face turned away from her. "He's right," she says, and has to stop. Her own voice grates against the inside of her skull. "It's okay. Sam, it's okay."

"It's not." The word is a sob. He directs another glare at their audience. "How the fuck do you even think—fuck. I can't."

More laughter. The ringleader explains the options. Sam can get himself hard, or they can drug him. "HYDRA's got some good shit, too. You won't like it, though. Might make you lose control. Forget she's hurt." And that's no choice at all, not really. When his hand starts to move between his legs, she looks away.

Viktor had broken her nose, broken her wrist, gotten her dress off, bruised her and scared her badly before she managed to snap his neck. In the days afterward, her other handlers had come one by one to sit beside her bed in the infirmary and comfort her, praise her.

We're so proud of you.

But I hate that everyone knows.

Why? A man who would do that to a child—or to anyone, against their will—is a bad man. He deserved to die.

I'm embarrassed.

Why? You didn't do anything wrong. Even if he'd succeeded, you'd have nothing to be embarrassed about. You're our good, brave, strong girl. No evil man can change that.

Sam fucks her on her back, her broken arm folded like an injured wing across her chest. The stabbing pain of it is sickening. She closes her eyes, so she will not see his face. He is careful, but every thrust jolts her body, setting off searing fireworks at the base of her skull. The floor heaves and tilts: she is afraid she will vomit. She is afraid that if she passes out, she will not wake up.

Stop, she'd said to Viktor. And then, when he hadn't, she'd screamed it at him. Stop it! Don't touch me! She bites her tongue, tastes blood. She will not make this worse for Sam.

It seems to take a long time.

Post-Hydra Bucky acts like a prude (and Steve is clueless)

[(Anonymous)]

I was thinking, what if post-trash Bucky is actually really disturbed by stuff having to do with nudity and sex, because of the abuse? Even innocent things?

And there's just SO MUCH of it in the modern world.

So, he's deeply disturbed just by Dove commercials or Victoria's secret model. People displaying PDA makes him shudder. Porn makes him verge on a panic attack. He won't even shower in the nude.


But Steve, who is genuinely clueless as to the whole male rape thing even being a thing (sure, terrible things happen in war, but even then there are rules!), just doesn't suspect that's the cause. He thinks Bucky is just having some sort of culture shock to modern times.

Doesn't help the way it manifests isn't a reaction that looks like panic, but more one that looks like embarrassment and prudishness.

To add insult to injury, people tease him about it.

Until someone (I'd say either Nat or Sam or both) figures out this isn't normal, and they try to explain it to Steve, but he thinks it's ridiculous.

But after that he starts noticing things, too(like Bucky not willing to change clothes with him in the room, while they did that a thousand times before the war) and a feeling of dread creeps up on him.

Then something big happens and neither of them can pretend anymore (author's choice how) and the secret breaks out big time, with a lot of angst.

I'm a sucker for Stucky, but for this story either lovers or good friends is great :)

Re: Post-Hydra Bucky acts like a prude (and Steve is clueless)

[(Anonymous)]

This is great, I really like it.

Hydra milks Steve for his semen sample

[(Anonymous)]

Inspired by the Hydra Trash Compactor Challenge where "Some scientists (SSR, SHIELDRA, someone else) seek a super-soldier semen sample. Subject: Steve." And want to see something where they're doing various things to make him cum including bringing the Winter Soldier in the mix.

Bonus: Steve has incredible stamina and is able to withhold himself.

[(Anonymous)]

Bucky survived Hydra's torture, rapes and abuse, and he is psychologically broken by this experidnce. But then everything is fine, he is free and reunited with his best friend who desperately wants to be more than that. The problem is that this best friend, great Captain America, is bad for the process of Bucky's healing. Not intentionally, never, he is a good man and loving man, but he is so out of his depth with trauma and consequences of sexual abuse that he is actually harmful.

Steve unintentionally harms Bucky's recovery

[(Anonymous)]

Bucky survived Hydra's torture, rapes and abuse, and he is psychologically broken by this experidnce. But then everything is fine, he is free and reunited with his best friend who desperately wants to be more than that. The problem is that this best friend, great Captain America, is bad for the process of Bucky's healing. Not intentionally, never, he is a good man and loving man, but he is so out of his depth with trauma and consequences of sexual abuse that he is actually harmful.

Re: Steve unintentionally harms Bucky's recovery

[(Anonymous)]

Any idea in what way, anon? Because there's many ways to be harmful. Is he in denial about the abuse? Or on the contrary, being over-protective like a helicopter parent? Or is the wanting more a problem?

Size kink

[(Anonymous)]

Okay, I'm writing this fill where Bucky pretty much thinks having been HYDRA's party favor left him physically unable to satisfy Steve (ahem, loose asshole and all). So this is not where I'll be going, but I was thinking, what if Bucky developed a serious size kink post CATWS? Because he emotionally and physically goes off like a rock on dirty talk a la "God, you're so tight, it feels so good", "I'm never gonna fit in there," or even the trashy version "Gonna rip you apart, gonna ruin you for everybody else." (Only this time it's Steve, and he's gonna be Steve's, and yes please, he wants that.)

Bonus points if he insists on huge toys or skipping foreplay because it only feels real if it hurts.

Re: Size kink

[(Anonymous)]

OMG yes please.

it physically hurts Bucky to be touched

[(Anonymous)]

Touch meant torture for so many years that Bucky has developed a psychosomatic pain response. Any touch, any at all -- kisses, hugs, friendly pats on the back -- hurt like someone just stuck an electrode on him.

+ would prefer this in the context of Bucky having regained a lot of his memories and personality, but still being so fucked up that he either doesn't recognize this is abnormal or doesn't want anyone else to know

+ complications in his sex life with whoever!! Can he still get off? Is sex an exercise in endurance that he puts up with because his partner deserves it? Or have they not had sex yet because Bucky is terrified to but pretends he just wants to take it slow?

Sam/Bucky with Bucky's broken dick

[(Anonymous)]

Anything with this. A n y t h i n g.

Steve prepares Bucky for rape aftermath

[(Anonymous)]

Two-pronged premise:

1. At some point, Steve was raped, either prewar or by STRIKE.

2. Bucky knows about Steve's rape; he also knows that he himself was raped by Hydra, but he doesn't remember. Yet. All his memories are coming back, and it's inevitable that he will remember, likely soon.

So what I'd like is Bucky (who might be pretty scared) coming to Steve for advice about what he should expect in terms of emotional fallout, how he should prepare himself, and what being raped is like, just so he's not taken completely off guard. Cue at least one emotionally agonizing conversation where Steve lays his trauma open in a way he never has before, and never would otherwise.

+ it is absurdly difficult for Steve to intentionally bleed on someone, and maybe he feels a little better afterward or maybe he feels a lot worse

+ the advice is of mixed use; when Bucky remembers, he relates to some of it, but because the context of the rapes is so different, he ends up having reactions that surprise and upset him

Re: Steve prepares Bucky for rape aftermath

[(Anonymous)]

This is weirdly adorable. I love it

trash shrinkyclinks

[(Anonymous)]

Because Bucky was primarily raped by tall, muscular men, that physical type frightens him, and in a sexual context badly triggers him. Meaning that despite their mutual romantic attraction, he and Steve can never have sex; they talked it out and decided that for this reason it would be best not to date.

And then one day Steve gets temporarily deserumed, and they take advantage of his period of smallness to fuck like traumatized bunnies.

I'm good for whatever angle an author wants to explore: tragedy because they both know it's just for now; or their ill-fated attempts to have a sexual relationship afterward, even though Bucky is terrified of Steve's body, because once they've popped they can't stop; or if Steve keeps putting himself in situations to get deserumed and this on-again off-again thing is so taxing to them both; etc.

Re: trash shrinkyclinks

[(Anonymous)]

HNG, I kinda like this...

will he or won't he

[(Anonymous)]

This prompt is inspired by every book, story, and fic I've ever read in which the main character gets nabbed by the bad guys, and the author makes a point of describing one of those guys as having an intent stare and leering smile and grabby hands, and you spend the rest of the chapter anxious because rape is in the air and the protagonist might escape it... or not.

I am dying for a story with a similar tension involving Bucky and Rumlow.

Imagine the Winter Soldier does get raped, but far from being a matter of course, it happens very rarely, in isolated incidents. However, the same rules as usual apply: he can't fight back, he can't say no. I think in this case, Bucky would become very aware of what predatory interest in him looks like, and he would do everything he could to avoid that interest being actualized.

So! I would love Bucky to clock those rape ideas percolating in Rumlow, and then this dance happens where Rumlow is working himself up to it, getting handsier, and meanwhile Bucky is doing his utmost to avoid vulnerable situations, like being alone in a room with him. I'm really looking for the escalating tension and high-stakes feeling of this. Bucky not knowing whether Rumlow will decide to rape him, whether he'll escape it if so (so escape has to be POSSIBLE, like if he can just avoid it until the mission is over...), and the fear of the knowledge that all Rumlow will have to do is corner him for five minutes, and Bucky won't be able to resist.

+ and of course Rumlow does corner him, and Bucky does get raped

Re: will he or won't he

[(Anonymous)]

oh my god yes. the inevitability of this and Bucky's vulnerability is terrible-wonderful

Early Captivity Bucky, humiliation, comeplay

[(Anonymous)]

During the early days of Bucky's captivity, when he's still mostly aware of who he is and trying to resist torture and brainwashing, the HYDRA agents and scientists turn to trashy humiliation to break him.

-Coming on his food, and telling him that's all he gets to eat
-Making him lick their come off the floor/their boots/their uniforms
-Coming on him and rubbing it into his skin/hair, then throwing him back in his cell where he can't escape the smell of it as a constant reminder
-Making him lick his own come off their fingers after they've brought him to an unwilling orgasm and mocked him about how much he wants it
-Anything else you can come up with
-I just want mean trashy HYDRA comeplay with Bucky's who's still in the process of being broken

Re: Early Captivity Bucky, humiliation, comeplay

[(Anonymous)]

Yes. Yes. Yes. Being forced to lick come off of the floor is such a turn on for me. Unf. And coming on his food, yes please!

Hydra's attack dog cliche

[(Anonymous)]

So Bucky's often likened to an attack dog. I was imagining this scenario where he's made to fight in an actual ring. Maybe Hydra agents are placing bets against AIM agents or something. And Bucky has to fight or be dominated and fucked by the people he's fighting. It could be ultimately fighting to kill in the end.

I also love me some recovery trash. So you could have Bucky with nightmares about the fighting rings. When Steve or someone tries to approach him romantically his fight instinct is triggered. Or conversely, he doesn't really do foreplay, he does fighting and if they want to fuck him they have to dominate. Could be fun with Steve/Bucky or Natasha/Bucky.

Re: Hydra's attack dog cliche

[(Anonymous)]

Yo, I love this. I'm gonna try my hand at it.